This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
When Sanskrit was my mother tongue
Scarabs filled my pillow
Tarmac strips to pave for them
Thrones from which to teach
And in that pulse the future said
The story had been spun
You wet your bed so sleep in it
Cards can't make a house
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
We'll be lucky if we eat tonight
And up that hill go the last of my crumbs
That's why I'll magnify a hole
When light years came and light years passed
Tugging on the brink
Spoils reported missing
Put down in its sleep
Strangled in the background
Fitted for a mask
The future won't believe you
Past the ransom fast
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
We'll be lucky if we eat tonight
And up that hill go the last of my crumbs
That's why I'll magnify a hole
Don't beat around the pulpit
There is no lost and found
Where is the devil waiting
Trying to disguise?
I've seen what you used to look like
Down here you won't survive
I've got the weight of half of the world
Don't stop dragging the lake, don't stop dragging the lake
I won't come home if you can't come home
Even if you make a grave with my name
I've got the weight of half of the world
You better keep on looking for me
I won't come home if you can't come home
Don't stop dragging the lake, don't stop dragging the lake
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
We'll be lucky if we eat tonight
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
That's why I'll magnify a hole (in your abdomen)
Find me the head
And I'll show you the body
Lay it to rest
Don't say you're sorry
Scarabs filled my pillow
Tarmac strips to pave for them
Thrones from which to teach
And in that pulse the future said
The story had been spun
You wet your bed so sleep in it
Cards can't make a house
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
We'll be lucky if we eat tonight
And up that hill go the last of my crumbs
That's why I'll magnify a hole
When light years came and light years passed
Tugging on the brink
Spoils reported missing
Put down in its sleep
Strangled in the background
Fitted for a mask
The future won't believe you
Past the ransom fast
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
We'll be lucky if we eat tonight
And up that hill go the last of my crumbs
That's why I'll magnify a hole
Don't beat around the pulpit
There is no lost and found
Where is the devil waiting
Trying to disguise?
I've seen what you used to look like
Down here you won't survive
I've got the weight of half of the world
Don't stop dragging the lake, don't stop dragging the lake
I won't come home if you can't come home
Even if you make a grave with my name
I've got the weight of half of the world
You better keep on looking for me
I won't come home if you can't come home
Don't stop dragging the lake, don't stop dragging the lake
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
We'll be lucky if we eat tonight
Up that hill go the last of my crumbs
That's why I'll magnify a hole (in your abdomen)
Find me the head
And I'll show you the body
Lay it to rest
Don't say you're sorry
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This song sticks out so much on the album. But it rocks so hard! Anyway, I think chronologically, this song would actually come between Halo of Nembutals and With Twilight as my guide. No offense EvaporatedBrock, but I think you're reading WAY too much into this. This song deals with the part of the story where the main character has kidnapped his girlfriend's father and he is torturing the father for information on his daughter. Where is the devil waiting?? The main character basically tortures the father by eating parts of him everyday. This is what makes the chorus lyrics so ironic. They don't have any food in the prison that the guy created to hold his girlfriend's father, but he survives by eating chunks of his captor. Thus, "I'll magnify a hole... (in your abdomen)"
IMO the most bad ass part is "I've got the weight of half the world..." and on because the lyrics alternate from the main character to the father. The father is screaming for help "Don't stop dragging the lake, don't stop looking for me" and the captor is basically saying "yeah, you're powerless, this isn't going to end until your daughter comes back to me"
Anyway, the most difficult part of this song to understand are the weird verses. I think the main point of them is that this main character thinks that he is some sort of prophet from ancient times destined to carry out this revenge against his cheating girlfriend. This is referenced again later during Luciforms when Cedric says "Like the Pharaohs of old, bury me in gold". Basically, the guy is totally crazy...