[Verse 1]
Let's look behind the swarovski crystals
Behind the .50 calibers and the pistols
Misused, pardoned self gotta excuse my issues
For me to have you a ritual
But I ain't as crazy as I seem to be
It's just that nothing is the way that is seems to me
I'm feeling less then, druggin him up with anti depressents
In essence I'm threatenin my character assessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoe's mixed with some new clothes
Should cover my loop holes
If I'm misunderstood or mis-guided
Started when they passed the L' said just try it
When I don't wanna get outta bed i just fight it
Sometimes I don't eat for days I just diet
Only live once so if i just like it
I ain't even checkin the price I just buy shit
I'm thinkin that will just hide it
But all it takes is life to ignite shit
I'm thinkin bout' death wondering how I'm gonna go
I can't be insane for just wantin to know
In my head I die often, I used to think of suicide often
Good suit on and a nice coffin
But that ain't something I would try myself
Still they lock me in this room all by myself
I need a... Think I need a .....

Angel in my life, you see
I am lost in this world of cruelty

[Verse 2]
They say my symptoms are aggressive
They titled me a compulsive obsessive slash manic depressive
They trying to tell I'm a con and I game niggas
That's one reason I don't even entertain niggas
Not important who they are I won't name niggas
They like to say I got a tendency to blame niggas
I keep fuckin shit up but keep trying
If ya'll would just trust me
I wouldn't just keep lying
If I had bread I wouldn't be in debt
Let me clarify, get in depth
I feel like everytime I been less
When ever I invest, whenever I inset, I feel I'm inept
I try to make them understand
But they just won't incept
I tell them 4 million others I am the template
There ain't no book that tells a story
There ain't no index
We got some different type of cuts
And no they ain't princess
All this indigest seemingly in less
How I take in stress when I always went best
Aching in my chest
And yet it still won't break me
They say the room is padded for my own safety
But the cushion don't soften shit
They locked the door but still
They let my thoughts in it
And no one can tell me why I'm here
I can't even see the sky from here!
I guess my time is near

Angel in my life, you see
I am lost in this world of cruelty

Lyrics submitted by Dragon19

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    General CommentThe entire album is Budden wrestling with his own thoughts, ideas, and feelings inside a "Padded room" (probably his mind). This song is the story about someone going crazy. The 1st verse is about him fighting depression and feelings of inadequecy with material things and women to cover them up or make him feel beter. It started when he started smoking blunts/drugs(Started when they passed the L said just try it). His depression gets to the point where he's constantly thinking about death and eventually he's committed. By verse two he's been committed and has been labeled as a psychotic by the doctors which frustrates him becasue he feels he's just misunderstood or not being listened too. In the end he's locked up alone in a padded room with just his thoughts which are obviously just going to drive him crazier.
    Ubaon July 05, 2010   Link
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    General CommentWhen I heard this song, I had to get the lyrics to understand what Joe was saying. I think its about how many people thought Joe was crazy, cause before he was a rapper, he used to be sucidial and takes drugs cause he was so depressed. He is saying he needs an angel to help because he can't get through life on his own.
    Dragon19on April 12, 2009   Link
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    General Commentdepression, suicidal thoughts, life is shit, I get what he's saying.
    maffy06on April 06, 2010   Link

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