(Verse 1)
Let's look behind the Swarovski crystals
Behind the .50 calibers and the pistols
Misused, pardoned self got to excuse, my issues
For me to have you a ritual
But, I ain't as crazy as I seem to be
It's just that nothin' is the way that is seem's to me
I'm feelin' less then, druggin' him up with anti-depressents
In essence I'm threatenin my character asessment
Truth told, I figure a few hoe's
Mixed with some new clothes should cover my loop holes
If I'm misundersttod or mis-guided
Started when they passed the L' said 'just try it'
When I don't wanna get out of bed I just fight it
Sometimes I don't eat for days I just diet
Only live once so if I just like it
I ain't even checkin' the price, I just buy shit
I'm thinkin that will just hide it
But all it takes is life to ignite shit
I'm thinkin' bout death wonderin' how I'm gonna go
I can't be insane for just wantin' to know
In my head I die often, I used to think of suicide often
Good suit on and a nice coffin
But, that ain't somethin' I would try myself
Still they lock me in this room all by myself
I need a... think I need a.....

[Hook]

[Verse 2]
They say my symptoms are aggressive
They titled me a compulsive obsessive slash manic depressive
They trying to tell I'm a con and I game niggas
That's one reason I don't even entertain niggas
Not important who they are I won't name niggas
They like to say I got a tendency to blame niggas
I keep fuckin' shit up but keep tryin'
If ya'll would just trust me I wouldn't just keep lyin'
If I had bread I wouldn't be in debt
Let me clarify get in Def
I feel like every time I been less
When ever I invest whenever I inset I feel I'm innept
I try to make them understand but they just won't incept
I tell them four million others I am the templed
There ain't no book that tells a story there ain't no index
We got some different type of cuts and no they ain't princess
All this indigest seemingly in less
How I take in stress when I always went best
Aching in my chest and yet it still won't break me
They say the room is padded for my own safety
But the cushion don't soften shit
They locked the door but still they let my thoughts in it
And no one can tell me why I'm here
I can't even see the sky from here
I guess my time is near



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    The entire album is Budden wrestling with his own thoughts, ideas, and feelings inside a "Padded room" (probably his mind). This song is the story about someone going crazy. The 1st verse is about him fighting depression and feelings of inadequecy with material things and women to cover them up or make him feel beter. It started when he started smoking blunts/drugs(Started when they passed the L said just try it). His depression gets to the point where he's constantly thinking about death and eventually he's committed. By verse two he's been committed and has been labeled as a psychotic by the doctors which frustrates him becasue he feels he's just misunderstood or not being listened too. In the end he's locked up alone in a padded room with just his thoughts which are obviously just going to drive him crazier.

    Ubaon July 05, 2010   Link
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    General Comment

    When I heard this song, I had to get the lyrics to understand what Joe was saying. I think its about how many people thought Joe was crazy, cause before he was a rapper, he used to be sucidial and takes drugs cause he was so depressed. He is saying he needs an angel to help because he can't get through life on his own.

    Dragon19on April 13, 2009   Link
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    depression, suicidal thoughts, life is shit, I get what he's saying.

    maffy06on April 06, 2010   Link

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