"A Space To Grow" as written by and Cody Michael/czap Payne....
Six long hours in my head
I watched people in cars.
It made me feel like I'm living
I guess it's never that hard
Let's live outside of the city
And blame the ones that I loved
For all the shit that I carried
When I was never enough.

I found a cut somewhere where we could all lay
The world was waking up

And I'm learning now
That my heart isn't breaking down
It's my world
So just pray with me, pray with me, pray with me
Cause I'm spent.

Yeah, I spent them all
Those long confusing hours with my mind turned on
The world was getting louder
I found myself on edge
My feet were over water
Just a song in my head
That reminded me I'll never be alone

I found a cut somewhere where we could all lay
It's frank, and it's fucked but

I'm learning now
That my heart isn't breaking down
It's my world
So I'll take another look at my life
And give everything I own to all the people in my heart
I am free, I am freezing

I am wrong
I am so obscure it's terrible
And I'm loved
But in between the cars they bother me.

I helped make the art that hangs on your walls
And plays in your heart
It stays in your arms
You're not a machine
I'm sure of that
You're every bit like me
You gave up on your dreams
And now you're stuck with that
You settled for the pencil days

I'm a paint brush in a way
I'm simple, yeah, I'm plain
I'm colored all the same
I have meaning if you find it in yourself
I'll sell myself for not
Like I really give a fuck
I'm just an artist on a shelf.

And I'm learning now
That my heart isn't breaking down
It's my world so I'll
Take another look at my life
And give everything I own to all the people in my heart
I am free
I am free


Lyrics submitted by TSostarich, edited by Skoobasteve24

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    General CommentThis is kind of a different look at this song then other posts. I'm pretty sure this song is about the artist contemplating suicide. The start of the song is him contemplation suicide, watching everyday people. Maybe something here changes his mind making him feel like life isn't as hard as he's making it out to be. "blame the ones that I loved for all the shit that I carried when I was never enough" I believe is a hint to why he feels like this. His parents and possibly a girl never being satisfied. "A cut where we can all lay" I think is actually a physical cut done by the artist did to him self. He says he can lay there because it relieves the emotional pain he feels by being seen as never being enough. "The world was waking up" is his loved ones taking notices. "My heart isn't breaking down" is after his loved notices and want to help. He prays, because emotionally he feels done. "The is world getting louder" is possibly pushing psychiatric help. Which again, he sees his heart isn't breaking down. Life is worth it. He looks back and depression relapses. Giving away things to loved ones is a hint of suicide, and I believe that's the biggest hint in the song. "I am so obscure it's terrible, and I'm loved, but in between the cars they bother me." He is different so he hates himself, but he's loved, people notice his cry for help in the cuts and other hints, but the people living life the way he wants to makes him think things can get better, which refers to him watching cars alone at the beginning of the song. " I helped make the art that hangs on your walls and plays in your heart; it stays in your arms. You're not a machine, I'm sure of that. You're every bit like me. You gave up on your dreams and now you're stuck with that." I think this refers to a girl, and maybe shit didn't work out, but she to gave up on her dreams... but she isn't an emotion wreck like the artist. She "settled for the pencil days", just taking life as it comes. "I'm a paint brush in a way. I'm simple, yeah, I'm plain. I'm colored all the same. I have meaning if you find it in yourself. I'll sell myself or not, like I really give a fuck I'm just an artist on a shelf" This is the artist realizing he's not different then this girl, and he has meaning, a purpose, and he wont sell out to this bitch to prove it to the world. She has to realize it herself. Until then, he's an artist on a shelf. An outside eye looking in. Waiting to break out and make it big. Something along those lines is what I feel this songs about.

    mikeisanameon October 27, 2010   Link
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    General CommentLyrically, I think this is one of TDS's best songs. "I'm a paint brush in a way. I'm simple, yeah, I'm plain. I'm colored all the same. I have meaning if you find it in yourself" is absolutely perfect. It is such a simple metaphor for humans and their depth. The people you meet are meaningless unless you really explore what they stand for and how their lives have affected yours. They have no meaning unless you find it in yourself, just like a paintbrush which is a stick with some hairs on it but can be an instrument of creation and inspiration if you allow it.
    coverthestarson June 19, 2012   Link
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    General CommentLets start the discussion!!!
    americanlowon May 13, 2009   Link
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    General Commentsuch a good song.
    all their lyrics seem to hit home in some shape or form.

    id love to hear interpretations
    erikbueon May 15, 2009   Link
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    General Commenti kinda feel like this song is about those battles that go on in your head. you know, the times where you just spend over thinking and over anazlyzing every aspect of your life.
    it's coming to the realization that your world is falling down around you.
    at least thats what i think of when i hear this.
    danyellxon June 16, 2009   Link
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    General Commentanything i say is just what i think the song is about. idk for sure:
    i think this song is about AJ's tough times being a musician and all the doubts he had about where to go with his life.
    i remember in one of tds's blogs he said that he understands what it's like to be a starving musician.
    and i think this is about that
    "You gave up on your dreams and now you're stuck with that." again, in reference to the blog, he can't imagine the idea of people not following their dreams and going out to choose one of those "boring" jobs.
    he respects them and all, but he just can't imagine giving up something you love so much to go do something that requires you to wear a suit just because that might be more respected in society.
    i think that during the hard times he had to go through, he discovered that music is truly his passion and that no matter what anyone thought, it's what he wanted to do. basically, he wants to say fuck you to the people who don't support him.
    i love that blog! i quoted it on my favorite quotes on facebook and wrote about it on an essay haha

    blinkfanaticon June 17, 2009   Link
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    General Commentthis is probably one of the most inspiration songs i have ever heard. This band is simply amazing and i can never thank them enough for writing about stuff like this. like thep erson above me said, this is based off of one of AJ's blogs. and i also agree that the blog is amazing. a lot of this song just has to do with people giving up on their dreams and going the normal route or whateer that everyone else goes to. working in a cubicle, being a doctor, etc. he feels bad because they "gave up on their dreams and they're stuck with that". this song justm akes my purpose of playing musis or doing more than becoming the typical office worker with my life even more evident. i like what AJ says with how everyone else is just like them, its just that they gave up. i think he was going to give up to, and he didnt and look where he is now. its not quite big but im sure its more than they ever imagined. i also like where he says "you're not a machine", because sadly thats how a lot of people's lives our. they're on this constant schedule and everydays the same. the get up, take a shower, etc and just walk around like a zombie. thats how i feel everyday at school and i really dont wanna do that for working too. thanks guys, you made my purpose so much more evident. this is a song i always listen to when i feel like giving up because it just expresses so much not to give up.
    IsThisAllADreamon December 05, 2009   Link
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    Song MeaningI think this song is about AJ going through just a really crappy time in which everything was just completely screwed up and he was blaming it on himself ("blame the ones that I loved for all the shit that I carried when *I was never enough*"), but then somewhere along the line he realized it was the world around him that was the problem ("my heart isn't breaking down; it's my world"). And then all the sudden he's just sorta sick of the world, and he's trying to find some sort of escape for even just a moment ("The world was getting louder. I found myself on edge...""I found a cut somewhere where we could all stay."). And then the obvious dawns upon him- music and art is the escape he's been looking for, the escape everyone else is looking for ("I helped make the art that hangs on your walls and plays in your heart; it stays in your arms. You're not a machine, I'm sure of that. You're every bit like me.") And it doesn't matter what anyone says about it now, because since he has that bit of escape (even though he's sometimes criticized for it)("I'll sell myself or not, like I really give a fuck I'm just an artist on a shelf.") I don't have much to go on, but it makes sense enough to me.
    IfMyHeartWasAHouseon January 20, 2011   Link

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