I've got a new disease in me
I've got a friend that's losing sleep
I take it hard, it's hard to take
I'm wide-awake, I'm wide-awake

One more confession, discretion's not what I need to sell
I never needed a reason for keeping secrets from myself
and now, that's just how I tell I'm wide-awake

I'll wreck this if I have to
Tell me, what good would that do
I'll wreck this if I have to

You get separated, somebody's gone
and I don't know how this is wrong
I'm so frustrated, falling behind
You were a friend of mine

I'd be so good to you
Because they don't know you like I do
They don't know you like I do
They don't know you like I do
They don't know you like I do

There's a difference from me to them
And the road home is paved in star fuckers requiem
I could never go
Go back home again
Acadia is gone

All my indecision, all of my excess
don't you ever tell me I'm not loving you best
I just need a minute, I just need a breath
It's very hard to drink to my continued success
And I will slow down,
It's better in the worst way
It's getting better in the worst way

So here's another day
I'll spend away from you
another night I'm on another broken avenue
Trading in who I've been for shiny celebrity skin
I like to push it and push it until my luck is over

I wonder what you're doing
I wonder if you doubt it
I wonder how we used to ever go so long without it
All that works to impress
Charming girls out of their dresses smiling pretty

I'm right beside you
What you want, what you need
I'll make this perfect again
If I burn out and slip away
You're beautiful, you are

I've been here so very long
And I can slip into you
It's so easy to come back into you
I'll hide it, can I hide in you a while?
I'm not sick of you yet
Is that as good as it gets
I never took you for a trick but sometimes, I don't know what you want
I could take it if you need to take this out on someone

If this is just a part i portray
I don't know how it got this way


Lyrics submitted by xalixo, edited by Faradei

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    this is one of my favourite songs by them .. well one of my favourite songs in general. i love how it takes lines from the songs on the album (as well from Say Anything) and puts it into one ending of the album. i love the lines "i take it hard, it's hard to take" and "all my indecision, all of my excess don't you ever tell me I'm not loving you best" !

    just a correction : it's "it's very" not "you're very hard to drink to etc. etc."

    Say Anything is my other favourite song by them. and can't forget Lover Dearest :]

    iPooOnYooon August 15, 2010   Link

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