I peek into the hole
I struggle for control
And the children love the show
But they fail to see the anguish in my eyes
Fail to see the anguish in my eyes

I scratch around the brim
I let my mind give in
And the crowd begins to grin
But they seem to scream when darkness fills my eyes
Seem to scream when darkness fills my eyes
It's no surprise

And I know, and I'm coming down

Fail to see the tragic turn it into magic
My big top tricks will always make you happy
But we all know the hat is wearing me

My bag is in the hat
It's filled with this and that
And my visions getting fat
The rabbits just a chicken in disguise
Stars and pills and meatballs dance before our eyes
They will bite the hand, if it is slower than
The quickness of there scrutinizing eyes

Fail to see the tragic, turn it into magic
My big top tricks will always make you happy
But we all know the hat is wearing me
Chicanery will always make you happy
But we all know the hat is wearing me


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    it is a take off of a philspohcial novel written by alester crowley "diary of a drug fiend". a great philospher

    RanDoM8442on July 17, 2009   Link
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    why has no one commented on this song. its a great song and one of my favorites off that album..

    the begining is sick. that slow like moaning sound you hear before the music starts, is when he was recording at sharon tates house and he took way to much coke one night... he wandered around the house aloine and found himself in the studio part... he turned on one of the mics and just kinda said his good bye he said something like "im at my lowest this is the bottom" the next day he played this backwards for the intro to this song.

    and yea it is from aliesters diary of a drug fiend.

    xxAnt1Chr1stxxon September 15, 2009   Link
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    I have to disagree. Im probably being a dick but fuck you. Alleister crowley diary of a drug fiend was about his story on addiction. Manson just took it from him but i dont think he wrote the song about it. To me its a song about powerand getting taking over by it and being drivin to do what he did. Fail tobsee the tragic turn it into magic.... fuck you lol bitch satan will kill you.. a fucking great song dude the best n its stsrs and pills n meatballs. Hes talking about tv movies stars the govt drugs and food. The tv commercials. Hes so fucking amazing if you dont get it quit listening. Hes a genius n you right bout tate bout wrong song for lyrics its tourniquet. I sound like a big fucking retarde nerd

    neongodon January 28, 2011   Link
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    This song has a reoccurring simile that is comparing drug addiction to a twisted magic show, playing with and contrasting the concepts of tragedy and magic. He's saying that addiction is blind - victims see only its magic and not its tragedy. "The children" and "the crowd" in this song are just metaphors for his consciousness. When he's under the influence of these drugs, he's both excited and "loving the show" but also frightened as he realises how oblivious he's been about the anguish the drugs have brought upon him. "Fail to see the tragic, turn it into magic" is describing the problem of a relationship between a creative mind and a harmful drug. "We all know the hat is wearing me" refers to the control his addiction has upon him.

    888on October 04, 2015   Link

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