This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Is this where I'll be sitting,
For the next thirty-five years?
With the windows barred and blinded,
As my vision disappears.
And right now the van is silver,
But it used to be deep red,
And workers hear the railroad line,
It's closed I've heard it said.
Rows of faceless masks on a shelf,
Empty bottles meant to tempt a buyer,
Still as low as I was so long ago,
With little chance of getting higher.
Telephone, table rises, couches disappear,
Humming lights on the wall,
That will, without knowing, startle whatever comes near,
I'll watch them fall.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
This is where I've been sitting,
For the last seven years.
With two manequins standing guard,
And I've not shed many tears.
And Andrew used to tease them,
And he'd get caught in the act,
Trying his best to please them,
And that's why Andrew was sacked.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
So three have been a constant,
I say three, but maybe four.
And two are new, well four are too,
And they need to work on the door.
And there's about three I've been close to,
And those shelves don't look quite right,
But I can make a display just for you,
I can make a tempting sight.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
And I should be happy, should be happy,
Well I guess I am.
Should be happy, should be happy.
Well, I am!
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
For the next thirty-five years?
With the windows barred and blinded,
As my vision disappears.
And right now the van is silver,
But it used to be deep red,
And workers hear the railroad line,
It's closed I've heard it said.
Rows of faceless masks on a shelf,
Empty bottles meant to tempt a buyer,
Still as low as I was so long ago,
With little chance of getting higher.
Telephone, table rises, couches disappear,
Humming lights on the wall,
That will, without knowing, startle whatever comes near,
I'll watch them fall.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
This is where I've been sitting,
For the last seven years.
With two manequins standing guard,
And I've not shed many tears.
And Andrew used to tease them,
And he'd get caught in the act,
Trying his best to please them,
And that's why Andrew was sacked.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
So three have been a constant,
I say three, but maybe four.
And two are new, well four are too,
And they need to work on the door.
And there's about three I've been close to,
And those shelves don't look quite right,
But I can make a display just for you,
I can make a tempting sight.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
And I should be happy, should be happy,
Well I guess I am.
Should be happy, should be happy.
Well, I am!
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They moved me right across,
They applauded me, they cheered for me,
Can't decide who's my boss,
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
They discorded me, they jeered at me.
Lyrics submitted by driver08uk
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