I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
So this is it
The final curtain call
My time here is over
I wish it was for good
This is goodbye
The final wave of hand
I wish I had the nerve
To say that I'm never coming back
It was a fight
I cried myself to sleep
For so many nights
I cant believe that I've grown to be a boy
With nothing to my name
Except a guitar and no one else to blame
But I hope you know I try
I hope you know I try
To become a better man
I hope you know I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to make you cry
I hope you know I try
I hope you know I try
To become a better man
But with you in my life
I don't think I ever can
The runway is waiting
And I'm stuck debating
If I ever want to see you again
Cause I've grown numb
This city means nothing
Without the love we used to have
And this is goodbye
The final wave of hand
I wish i had the nerve to say
That I'm never coming back again
The final curtain call
My time here is over
I wish it was for good
This is goodbye
The final wave of hand
I wish I had the nerve
To say that I'm never coming back
It was a fight
I cried myself to sleep
For so many nights
I cant believe that I've grown to be a boy
With nothing to my name
Except a guitar and no one else to blame
But I hope you know I try
I hope you know I try
To become a better man
I hope you know I never meant to hurt you
Never meant to make you cry
I hope you know I try
I hope you know I try
To become a better man
But with you in my life
I don't think I ever can
The runway is waiting
And I'm stuck debating
If I ever want to see you again
Cause I've grown numb
This city means nothing
Without the love we used to have
And this is goodbye
The final wave of hand
I wish i had the nerve to say
That I'm never coming back again
Lyrics submitted by immizmi
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