You still cross my mind from time to time
And I mostly smile
Still so set on finding out where we went wrong and why
So I retrace our every step with an unsure pen
Trying to figure out what my head thinks
But my head just ain't what it used to be
And then again, what's the point anyway

I remember you ascending all the stairs up to the balcony
To see if you could see me hidden quietly away
And I remember the skin of your fingers
The spot three quarters up I'd always touch when I was out of things to say
You held my hand but you were too afraid to speak
You were too afraid to speak
And I could never understand
I remember when you leaned in quick to kiss me
And I swear not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my hand

I remember how you smiled through the smoke in a crowded little coffeehouse
And laughed at all my jokes
And I remember the way that you dressed
And how we wasted all the best of us in alcohol and sweat
And I remember when I knew that you'd be leaving
How I barely kept up breathing
And I bet if I had to do it all again
I'd feel the same pain
And I remember panicked circles in the terminal in tears
How I wept to God in fits
I've hated airports ever since

It must be true what people say
That only time can heal the pain
And every single day I feel it fade away but
I still remember how the distance tricked us
And led us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured
I still remember how we held so strong to this
Though we had never really settled on a way out
I still remember the silence
And how we'd always find a way to turn and run to our mistakes
I still remember how it all came back together
Just to fall apart again
My dear, I hear your voice in mine

I've been alone here
I've been alone here
I've been afraid, my dear
I've been afraid, my dear
I've been at home here
I've been at home here
You've been away for years
You've been away for years
I've been alone
I've been alone
I've been alone
I've been alone

I breathed your name into the air
I etched your name into me
I felt my anger swelling
I swam into its sea
I held your name inside my heart
But it got buried in my fear
It tore the wiring of my brain
I did my best to keep it clear
So dear, no matter how we part
I hold you sweetly in my head
And if I do not miss a part of you, a part of me is dead
If I can't love you as a lover, I will love you as a friend
And I will lay a bed before you
Keep you safe until the end


Lyrics submitted by eltroyo11, edited by SalvanM

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  • +8
    General Commentthis song will always remind me of the time I met a foreign girl one day while traveling. I instantly fell in love and then the next day she had to go back home to the other side of the world. I don't know if I'll see her again ever...and i'll never get over it. this song makes me sad, but I love the hell out of it.
    drewfromutahon September 04, 2011   Link
  • +2
    General CommentI always thought it said "And I bet if I could do it all again, I'd feel the same thing" which I kind of like better even though it's only one word off with basically the same meaning. Sometimes I hate reading lyrics.
    La Dispute isn't even lyrics, it's pure poetry. It's beautiful and metaphoric and everything has clear symbolism and imagery. I'm in love with every word.
    norawafaion December 05, 2010   Link
  • +2
    General CommentListening to this album is such a emotional journey it is astonishing. BTW if you don't know this yet the album tells the same story. A story of a broken marriage.
    frooshieon July 22, 2011   Link
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    My InterpretationIn my opinion that beautiful song is about a relationship of the singer who tells the story of the girl he loved most. When they met both knew that they are made for each other and had some great moments. Not those big "love story moments" but something better than that because they shared little and quiet experiences together, full of love and understanding. But I think that both had to fight with their own mental diseases/problems so it was very difficult to handle everyday life and sometimes they just lost theirselves in drugs and alcohol. And as the time went on she couldn't handle the troubles anymore and decided to leave him. While she is getting better he is completly out of control, misses her like hell and tries to get over her but it doesen't work. So after years of suffering she comes back and ask him to be just friends now. Even if it breaks his heart because he will love her forever he consents, just to be with her.
    howlongisnowon February 11, 2014   Link
  • +1
    General CommentPretty sure it's "Crowded little coffehouse" not "quiet", but great music nonetheless.
    filmwarron November 24, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Comment'I remember you ascending all the stairs up to the balcony
    To see if you could see me hidden quietly away
    And I remember the skin of your fingers
    The spot three quarters up I'd always touch when I was out of things to say
    You held my hand but you were too afraid to speak
    You were too afraid to speak
    And I could never understand
    I remember when you leaned in close to kiss me
    And I swear not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my hand'

    Probably the best paragraphy of music ever created in my opion.
    theearthsingsmifamion April 17, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis is one of the most perfect songs ever. I just can't tell how I feel when I listen to this song.

    It reminds me of my love, he led me to this song. And I'm so thankful for that. I found my self in almost every word, this song somehow describes what I had with this boy and how I felt.
    tenkaion July 14, 2012   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti think this song is about a lover moving away....
    funsize09on January 08, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commentyea yeah yea, so good. I do hate airports.
    we had some good times. she leaves. she comes back but it is certainly not the same. never the same. she leaves again. like it if we stayed friends, but in the end what's the point
    PlaidIsRadon March 30, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentSo good!!
    criminologyon August 13, 2009   Link

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