This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Chorus]
Before I sleep
I pray to the lord my soul to keep
And if I shall die before I awake
I pray to the lord, my soul to take
For goodness sake
Before I sleep
I pray to the lord my soul to keep
And if I shall die before I awake
I pray to the lord, my soul to take
For goodness sake
I wrote my will just the other week
It was funny it was only one sheet
And I know that's only one me
But I hope I am everything my son be
I'm trying to live right stay on the drum beat
But I'm in the fast lane, in the front seat
I wonder will I lose control of the Mazerati
And hit some tree just being young me
Is there a heaven for G's and soldiers?
I can't go to hell… cause I'll take over
I feel it approaching but I aint scared.
I made that bed and I should rest in peace.
[Chorus 2x]
Yea and every time I see the sunshine
I drop down and give thanks at least one time
Feeling like I'm living on the frontline
I'm feeling like every second is crunch time
I've had breakfast…will I make it to lunchtime?
And I aint joking so don't be looking for punchlines
Will I be the next victim of a gun crime?
I don't know the answer that's why I brung mine
Riding by myself late at night
Pistol on my lap at every single red light
I made my bed right so when I do
I should sleep tight and peace I rep
[Chorus 2x]
Bury me a gangsta cause that's what I live
Don't cry for me I gave the best I could give
I can only do me so that's what I did
And I cherish every breathe of my kid
And I don't wanna go before she grow that aint cool
But in this game of life…I don't make the rules
Shiiit So that's why I get twisted…So I can't feel it when it hits me
And my moms don't need that on her
But I see dead around the corner
And if he…so happens to make his way around the block
You gotta answer the door when he knock…Believe that
[Chorus 2x]
Before I sleep
I pray to the lord my soul to keep
And if I shall die before I awake
I pray to the lord, my soul to take
For goodness sake
Before I sleep
I pray to the lord my soul to keep
And if I shall die before I awake
I pray to the lord, my soul to take
For goodness sake
I wrote my will just the other week
It was funny it was only one sheet
And I know that's only one me
But I hope I am everything my son be
I'm trying to live right stay on the drum beat
But I'm in the fast lane, in the front seat
I wonder will I lose control of the Mazerati
And hit some tree just being young me
Is there a heaven for G's and soldiers?
I can't go to hell… cause I'll take over
I feel it approaching but I aint scared.
I made that bed and I should rest in peace.
[Chorus 2x]
Yea and every time I see the sunshine
I drop down and give thanks at least one time
Feeling like I'm living on the frontline
I'm feeling like every second is crunch time
I've had breakfast…will I make it to lunchtime?
And I aint joking so don't be looking for punchlines
Will I be the next victim of a gun crime?
I don't know the answer that's why I brung mine
Riding by myself late at night
Pistol on my lap at every single red light
I made my bed right so when I do
I should sleep tight and peace I rep
[Chorus 2x]
Bury me a gangsta cause that's what I live
Don't cry for me I gave the best I could give
I can only do me so that's what I did
And I cherish every breathe of my kid
And I don't wanna go before she grow that aint cool
But in this game of life…I don't make the rules
Shiiit So that's why I get twisted…So I can't feel it when it hits me
And my moms don't need that on her
But I see dead around the corner
And if he…so happens to make his way around the block
You gotta answer the door when he knock…Believe that
[Chorus 2x]
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