"Fight Inside" as written by and Bernie/rauch Herms....
Enemy, familiar friend
My beginning and my end
Knowing truth, whispering lies
And it hurts again

What I fear and what I've tried
Words I say and what I hide
All the pain, I want it to end
But I want it again

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is breaking me again
I'm still the same, pursuing pain
Is it worth all that I've gained?
We both know how this will end
But I'd do it again

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again

And it finds me
The war within me pulls me under
And without you
The fight inside is breaking me again

(It's nothing), it's everything
(It's nothing), it's everything
(It's nothing), it's everything
(It's nothing), it's everything

And it finds me
The fight inside is coursing through my veins
And it's raging
The fight inside is hurting me again

It's breaking me
It's breaking me

I'm falling apart
I'm falling apart


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"Fight Inside" as written by Bernie Herms Jasen Rauch

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  • +21
    General CommentI am definately willing to bet that this is somehow connected to God and such since this is a Christian group, but here is my interpretation of the words, since I have some personal experience with stuff like this: I belive it's about a person, who cuts themself and God is trying to help them and they are trying to help themself, but they can't stop because it has become an addiction.

    Enemy, familiar friend,
    My beginning and my end,

    This may refer to the person's weapon of choice for self injury.

    Knowing truth, whispering lies,
    And it hurts again.

    They know that it's wrong to self injure and they want to stop, but there is so much pain in their life they just can't.

    What I fear and what I try,
    The words are saying what I hide,

    They are trying to stop, but they fear being hurt again and the words they may have carved onto their arms are telling about their pain.

    All the pain, I want it to end,
    But I want it again.

    They want to end all the pain, but self injury has become an addiction, so they can't stop.

    And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins,
    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is breaking me again.

    The fight inside is obviously the pain they are feeling and it's breaking them apart.

    It's still the same, pursuing pain,
    Isn't worth the lie I've gained.

    They want more pain, but pain isn't worth the lie that it will make everything better.

    We both know how this will end,
    But I do it again.

    They know self injuring is a bad choice because eventually it leads to suicide (sometimes not always) and so they say that both him/her and God know that it's a bad choice, but they do again anyway.

    And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins.
    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is hurting me again.
    And it finds me,
    The war within me pulls me under.
    And without You,
    The fight inside is breaking me again.

    Without God the self injurer can't go on and again the fight inside is breaking them inside.

    It's nothing.
    It's everything.

    They try to tell themself that self injuring is nothing, but really it's their whole life.

    It's breaking me.
    I'm falling apart.

    The fight inside is breaking them and they are falling apart.
    TheHeartofWyntiron May 16, 2009   Link
  • +3
    General Comment

    Enemy, familiar friend,
    My beginning and my end"

    I think the first verse is the beginning of how the song contrasts good vs evil. The enemy (satan) and the familiar friend (Jesus). His beginning (we are all born into sin & death) and his end (with Jesus he is going to end in victory and in life).

    "Knowing truth, whispering lies,
    And it hurts again."

    He knows the truth (the Word of God), but whispers the lies of the world. Maybe he is afraid to talk about God around others that aren't Christian. He is essentially torn between the world which he knows is against God and being obedient and he hurts every time he fails to be obedient to God.

    "What I fear and what I try,
    Words I say and what I hide"

    more contrasts going on inside of him...

    "All the pain, I want it to end,
    But I want it again."

    He feels remorse for being disobedient but the "soul or flesh" part of him still wants to do wrong- perhaps succumb to some temptations.

    "And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coursing through my veins"

    This part sounds like the fight inside between the Holy Spirit inside of us that knows and yearns for us to follow His Word and the flesh part of us that wants to go it's own way and sin.

    "And it's raging,
    The fight inside is breaking me again."

    It sounds like he is really tired of fighting, giving in to sin and then feeling remorseful...wishing he could overcome.

    "It's still the same, pursuing pain,
    Isn't worth all I have gained."

    This sounds like he is smart enough to know that the enemy will (lie) make sin sound so good (kind of like how credit card companies try to entice us to get in more debt) but once he partakes he realizes what exactly it is going to cost him- more than he thought and more than he was willing to pay.

    "We both know how this will end,
    But I do it again."

    He knows that the sin will lead to more bondage and the desire to sin gets stronger each time he does it. It ultimately leads to death and separation from God if not resisted.

    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is hurting me again.

    The enemy is really giving this guy a fight and since he gave in to sin, it is more painful than before (because sin begets more sin)

    "And it finds me,
    The war within me pulls me under."

    The enemy is relentless and it is overwhelming him. He is learning that he can't fight this battle on his own- He needs the supernatural strength of God.

    "And without You,
    The fight inside is breaking me again."

    Again, he is realizing and now telling God that he needs him to win this fight and to be obedient. We cannot overcome sin without Jesus, which is why He came to Earth- not to condemn us but to overcome sin for us!!

    "It's nothing.
    It's everything."

    This is a perfect example of how God tells us truth (it's everything- it's your LIFE, your ETERNITY on the line) and how the enemy whispers the lie to us that it's nothing. It's ok to sin, it won't hurt, it's fun- hey everybody is doing it... The voices get louder opposing each other.. you can almost feel the angels and demons fighting over this man.. awesome song!!


    heatherfsion December 21, 2011   Link
  • +2
    My InterpretationLong story short, my interpretation is this:

    The spoken of 'fight inside' is describing the struggle in this earthly body between the two selves.
    The spirit self and the flesh self.

    The songwriter is saying 'and it hurts again' because the flesh tries continually to hurt the spirit and keep it away from God and His ways.

    He fears the sins he tries, and tries to hide them with words.

    He wants the pain to end, meaning the sin, but he wants it again.

    The spirit is wanting the pain to end, but the flesh is wanting it badly.

    He's saying that the struggle between the flesh and the spirit is breaking him because of how hard he has to fight for the spirit to win, and it's raging inside of him like a battle.

    He's saying that living a life of sin is masochistic and 'pursuing pain' meaning wanting it and following it.

    Is it worth the lie i've gained?
    it's saying is the pain worth it? or is there a truth that will take it away?

    This time in the chorus, he compares the struggle to a war, which i believe since it didn't go that harsh int he beginning, is saying the fight gets harder as time passes.

    It's nothing, it's everything.

    This is when the flesh is trying to convince the spirit that the sin it's committing is no big deal, and the flesh responds "it's everything" to say that it's the biggest deal there is.

    It's breaking me

    Just a repeat of the fact that the fight is destroying him from the inside

    I'm falling apart

    Adds to the effect of breaking by saying he's falling apart.


    Again, that's just what i get out of each part of the song.
    blackcamaro8on August 14, 2009   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningI listened to this once but I don't really remember it, though I've got a basic thought of the meaning from the lyrics. I think it's like, maybe a person who believed in God, but is trying not to.

    "Enemy, familiar friend,
    My beginning and my end,"
    God - now the "enemy" because they 'don't' believe in Him, but was a friend when they did. Am I correct when I say that God refered to Himself as the Alpha And Omega?

    "Knowing truth, whispering lies,
    And it hurts again."
    The person saying this knows that God is real, but they try to deny his existance. And by now believing, they're hurting themself.

    "What I fear and what I try,
    Words I say and what I heard,"
    The person fears God, but they try not to.
    They say that God doesn't exist, but from friend & family, maybe, they are always told He does.

    "All the pain, I want it to end,
    But I want it again."
    They want to give in, believe in Him again, and stop the pain, but they 'want it again' by once more denying His existance.

    "It's still the same, pursuing pain,
    Isn't worth the lie I've gained.
    We both know how this will end,
    But I do it again."
    They've done this before and they know how bad it is, how the whole thing will go, and they know lying about their faith isn't worth it, yet they still do it.

    "And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins.
    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is hurting me again.
    And it finds me,
    The war within me pulls me under.
    And without You,
    The fight inside is breaking me again."

    'The fight inside' could probably reference them believing in God but at the same time, not wanting to believe in Him. And without God, everything in their life is falling apart.

    "It's nothing.
    It's everything.
    It's breaking me.
    I'm falling apart."
    I'm not sure of those last two parts.

    Eh that's just my thoughts. Figured I'd post them.^^
    ShepherdEyeshineon January 01, 2009   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationThat's an interesting interpretation, ShepherdEyeshine. Good job. I thought the song was referring to a person's battle with temptation. Whatever is tempting the person is an "enemy" when the person is trying to avoid it and a "friend" when the person gives into it. It is "familiar" because the person has given into it many times before. It's a "beginning" because it tempts the person into starting something he/she knows he/she shouldn't do and an "end" because it hurts the person in some way when the person gives into it. "Knowing truth, whispering lies" could mean that the person knows better than to give into whatever tempts him/her, but the person tells him/herself that it's ok to give into it.

    If you're following me, the rest of it should make sense. Great lyrics.
    fireToSteel0423on February 12, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is explaining how Satan tempts us into thinking he is our friend. Everyone knows Lucifer the fallen angel, but what people forget is what fallen means. Fallen doesn't mean you are after bad things. Satan is after good things but perverts them, meaning he corrupts the reason or the motivation behind going after good things. This song explains it pretty well. He corrupts the reasoning behind why we do things. This person in the song knows God, and has faith in Jesus, but just like all of us Christians we struggle with temptation. We start believing in the lies of Satan. Knowing only Jesus our Savior can help us to escape Satan's corruption. Jesus is the Truth, the Way, and the Life. I don't follow Him because he makes my life better, I follow him because He is better than life.
    Str8706on February 19, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe way I interpret this song is pretty much the same as fireToSteel0423's interpretation - that is, the song is about some form of addiction.
    Here's how I see a few more of the lines...

    "All the pain, I want it to end
    But I want it again"

    "Still the same, pursuing pain
    Is it worth all I have gained?" /*I'm pretty sure that's what the lyrics in the booklet say*/

    I think the line "Is it worth all I have gained?" may mean that he has gotten closer to God sometime before this struggle, and this addiction is hindering that/separating him from God. He is torn between following God and fighting desire, and giving in to temptation and drifting away from God. ("Innocence" and "instinct", maybe? interesting...) I hope you don't mind me interjecting a quote from something I wrote a while back, but seeing as I'm viewing this song through the lens of my recent/ongoing experiences, maybe it'll help you see where I'm coming from. This is from a metaphorical short-story type thing I wrote:
    "The light has grown slightly, but so has the pain. I reach for the wall to steady myself and feel the worm-gel ooze around my fingers. I draw my glistening hand to my heart; at once the salve begins to ease the pain, but my comfort is quickly overshadowed by the sudden realization that the light has once again shrunk away. An agonized wail escapes my throat as I begin to understand - there is no easy way out of this, no matter how I choose to go about my journey. If I tear myself away and move toward the light, there is hope, but pain. If I stay here, there is comfort, but despair. Many times I have told myself - and I still believe - that hope is better than comfort, and that the pain will fade once I have gone far enough. Yet it is so hard, when the days seem so long, and when the pain intensifies until it is all I can think about."
    (that was longer than I thought...) But anyway, hopefully you see what I'm getting at. (the "worm gel", btw, is an idea I got from Ted Dekker's books, and I used it to represent addiction.)

    One more note:
    "It's nothing... it's everything..."
    "It's nothing" may indicate that other people, if they knew about this struggle, wouldn't understand/see it as anything major. Another personal thought here, but I think it could be something that's not so obviously wrong/sinful, yet it goes against the singer's conscience/interferes with his relationship to God. "It's everything" means that though other people might see it as nothing - and maybe it should be - it defines his life and how he lives.

    did that make any sense at all?
    what_everon February 27, 2009   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningIts obvious what this song about. He cant handle stress in his life and hes using some sort of really addictive drug. Heres the breakdown:


    Enemy, familiar friend,
    - the drugs are his enemies but his best friend because they help him escape at the same time.

    My beginning and my end,
    -Their going to be the death of him

    Knowing truth, whispering lies,
    And it hurts again.
    What I fear and what I try,
    Words I say and what I heard,

    All the pain, I want it to end,
    -He wants his addiction to end, but

    But I want it again.
    -Hes conflicted because he wants the feeling and the escape so badly, and it overpowers his will to stop because the addiction and escape is so much more powerful.




    And it finds me,
    -The drug finds a way to get him to use it again because of something really bad that happened recently that pushed him to want the escape and relief of carelessness.

    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins,
    -First of all its the heroine or whatever drug hes using traveling through his veins and its conflicting with his will to stop them and get his life straight. Its a war within him. Because the blood travels through his brain too so its a war between addiction and will.

    And it's raging,
    -Its a war that has no breaks. Its constantly raging inside of his body.

    The fight inside is breaking me again.
    -The fight becomes to much to bear so he caves in and starts using again.




    It's still the same, pursuing pain,
    -No matter what he does or what the drug does for him in the moment, it always leads to agony.

    Isn't worth the lie I've gained.
    -The pleasure isn't worth the lie hes been telling everyone about quitting and using when no one is around.

    We both know how this will end,
    -He knows how it can end, all it takes to stop it is him saying no to his addiction, but...

    But I do it again.
    -He does it again anyways because he 'needs' it.




    And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins.
    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is hurting me again.
    And it finds me,
    -Repeat.

    The war within me pulls me under.
    -The constant struggle of quitting brings him into an even greater depression.

    And without You,
    The fight inside is breaking me again.
    -Without this girl who hes become attached too, he cannot overcome his addiction.


    It's nothing.
    -Him telling his brain that the drug doesn't mean anything to him and that he should stop.

    It's everything.
    -The other side within his body telling himself that this is his only way out.


    It's breaking me.
    -The drugs are winning.

    I'm falling apart.
    -Hes slowly loosing the war.
    nickolauson May 03, 2010   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI write music often and I love this song so much because I practically wrote it. Not that I helped them write it or anything like that but I had the very same idea for a song. Hopefully that means I am seeing the real meaning of the song and not just what I would have wrote... this is what I see in it.

    The song is about himself. When you are struggling with something you want to look out for help but your sin wants to hide. With that in mind the writer of this song is struggling with something and so is using this song to look out for help yet it is going to be cryptic. As if he only wants those who will really pursue the meaning will find it's truth, his truth. The first line is about himself.

    "Enemy, familiar friend,
    My beginning and my end
    Knowing truth, whispering lies,
    And it hurts again."

    I am my own worst enemy. I know what is right and yet I deceive myself. I wind up in a trap that I should have seen. I'm not alone in this struggle. Every believer knows the truth and yet sins.

    "What I fear and what I try,
    Words I say and what I heard,
    All the pain, I want it to end,
    But I want it again."

    The song isn't about any specific addiction. Only an addiction to sin. I'm pretty sure that RED is composed of mature believers and so I'm pretty sure that they write their songs to lead others to truth. They aren't going to write about something so specific that others can't apply it to their life. Everyone has to deal with their self. He knows that sin is wrong but he choses it.

    "And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins,
    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is breaking me again."

    This is the chorus so it doesn't fit in the "story line" of the song but it has to do more with the overall meaning. It's the fight INSIDE. It is destructive. This is his confession I guess you would say.

    "It's still the same, pursuing pain,
    Isn't worth the lie I've gained.
    We both know how this will end,
    But I do it again."

    He bought into the lie of sin being better and he is saying the painful effects aren't worth this "gain" then he addresses the audience saying that it is obvious that it is wrong but he still choses it.

    "And it finds me,
    The fight inside is coarsing through my veins.
    And it's raging,
    The fight inside is hurting me again.
    And it finds me,
    The war within me pulls me under.
    And without You,
    The fight inside is breaking me again."

    I guess the climax of the song. This is the point that he is making in the song. You need Jesus or your sin is going to break you.

    "It's nothing.
    It's everything."

    Denial is something that many people need to understand. Most people are in denial of some pain in their life. When you finally realize you have a problem you say oh it's nothing... When you realize that it is hurting you, you realize it affects everything in your life. Also the back and forth part reminds me of when you think that you can fix yourself and you fall into a routine of addiction where you "fix yourself" and then you fall back into it and then you fix yourself again...

    "It's breaking me.
    I'm falling apart."

    This song is the perfect introduction into their next song "death of me" He doesn't fix his problems in the song. Life is a constant struggle.

    On a side note the musical part of this song is amazing. It strikes emotion and it sounds crazy.

    Peace and what not -JF12
    J35U5FR34Kon June 01, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThat could be a good Religious take on it, but because not everyone who comes here is Christian, the song can be taken in many ways. Yes, Red has said that they are a Christian band, but nowhere in their lyrics do they state 'God' or 'demons' or anything "religious."

    So any song unless given a STRICT meaning to can be taken in any way, shape or form. :)
    Tuomason January 25, 2009   Link

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