Pages filled cover the floor all covered up with ink
Words written over coffee document my struggling
Those mornings spent sitting alone mourning alone in grief
For all I killed in search of honesty

See I used to be a mustard seed shouting at the mountain
I used to hang my head when it stayed far from the ocean
I used to claim its failure and from the depths of depression
I cried to god but god did not respond

Like a barrel chested strongman I suspended disbelief
I held it high over my head though all the weight was staggering
But legs buckled and muscles burned, in came gravity
I dropped it all, faced what I'd been avoiding

For many years I walked that road, for many years I tried
So earnestly I sought the relationship advertised
But my empty hands, my empty heart, could no longer be denied
Yeah I quit, I forfeit eternal life

I did not take inheritance when I left to go away
I did what was commanded when that rich man asked to be saved
I left my friends my family behind all for heaven's sake
I am no prodigal and this is no mistake

So I'm sorry mom I'm sorry dad, I really want you to be proud
Don't want to disappoint you all, don't want to let you down
But I have stopped searching for truth hiding behind heaven's cloud
Don't save my place, of this race I do bow out


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    General Commentlosing one's faith is one of the most liberating experiences a person can go through.
    liberandonon February 23, 2010   Link
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    General Commentwow.
    this song is so intensely personal.
    It's sad to me, hearing how Brett lost faith. It's probably a happy song for other people.
    Sidekick Suicideon February 21, 2009   Link
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    General CommentFor me personally, I related this song to personal grief I was going through alone. I love the line "Those mornings spent sitting alone mourning alone in grief". Wow, they just nailed it.
    jboyd1on May 29, 2012   Link

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