I looked up at the ceiling the entire time
Well it didn’t last for long
Like 15 minutes or so. They had said it would hurt, but it didn’t

His face all grumped up, veins were showing on his forehead
Closed my eyes and thought of dancers,
closed my eyes and thought of dancers

I thought of what my friends would say
I thought of how my life would change
I just laid real still there on the bed.

Afterwards I said, like I hear you’re supposed to:
“Was it good for you as well”
He was proud, said: “Ok we can do it again
But maybe this time, you can do it better than this
You can do it better than this.”

I faked to come, because I hear you’re supposed to
There was obviously something wrong with me and I didn’t want him to know

I was afraid he’d have a heartattack and die
I went to work at the shoestore and waved him goodbye
I felt sad, but I didn’t know why

Do you want those in red, I said
250 with laces, I said
Years later, I can still vision that forehead


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X Telling Me About the Loss of Something Dear, at Age 16 song meanings
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    General CommentPretty sure its just about a girl remembering her first time having sex.
    I like the line "I felt sad, but I didn't know why."
    I think us girls can all sorta relate to that. I mean, we have all these prevision of what our first time will be like, but it never is. And you're kinda disappointed that it wasn't all its cracked up to be. And you know what you're "supposed" to feel like, but you don't.
    Yeah, I don't know if that made sense, I'm good at rambling.
    Good song though!
    Heather200408on February 24, 2009   Link
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    General CommentI definitely agree with Heather200408, this song must be written about the first time she had sex. It's obvious if you look at the first lines "I looked up at the ceiling the entire time, well it didn't last for long. Like fifteen minutes or so, they had said it would hurt but it didn't". The song is a good description for the emotional storm that your first time can give you.
    haylieon December 21, 2009   Link

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