"The Diary" as written by Vivian Wayne Martin and Martin Welzer....
Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I fuckin' swear that I care
But its hard when you stare
Into the bottom of a bottle
That is empty and bare
All my desolate soul
In my desolate home
It's my desolate role
Yeah I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
To get the fuck out of bed
Curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week
I always slur when I speak
Tolerance at its peak
Another fit just to sleep
Oh woe is me woe is me
I guess I need love
Hoes ya see hoes ya see
I'm just in a rut
And I swear I'm tryin' baby please
Baby don't leave
God-damn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
So I sit in my room
And I'll cry in my bed
Thinkin' about all the shit
That made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin' to climb
But it seems so steep
Pour myself a fuckin' whisky
And go back to sleep, bitch

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I watch my momma cry
She says 'baby why?'
I say 'baby died,
Baby's gone like a suicide'
I don't think you'll see him soon, mom
Stay out my room, mom
Tell daddy that I hate
That mother fucker like you, mom
I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha and Jordan
These beers keep gettin' warmer
Every time that I hold her
I pour this out for you
Like a partner in crime
It's part of the times
When you're sick in the mind
Yeah I'm sick, oh so sick
I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit
I'm so fucked up off it
So I stumble around
Til I stumble fall down
To this puddle of my tears
Layin' here on the ground

When you've got nothing left
You've got nothing left to lose
With my last left single breath
I'll still be singing to you
So when you bury me man
You better bury me deep
And sing along to this song
Because you're broken like me

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home


Lyrics submitted by Threetearz, edited by ibuki

"The Diary" as written by George Arthur Ragan Aron Erlichman

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  • +3
    My InterpretationI'm sure plenty of people can take this song and make it mean many, many things.
    But I like this song, and I really feel for it. It's like they understand what
    *most* people are actually going through.. To an extent. (obviously not exactly..but
    eh..anyways)

    So, he ran away from his problems.. Maybe not literally, they talk about drugs and
    alcohol, so maybe he abused to get away from everything.

    "I can't think of a reason
    To get the fuck out of bed
    Curtains closed, lights are off
    Am I alive or dead?
    I haven't shaved in a week
    I always slur when I speak"

    Obviously, feeling like there is no real meaning for anything. No hope.

    "I guess I need love
    Hoes ya see, Hoes ya see
    I'm just in a rut
    And I swear I'm tryin' baby please
    Baby don't leave
    God-damn I'm a fuck-up
    But I guess that's just me"

    So, he might be with this girl who cares about him. And he declares to be a
    fuck-up, but he's the only one who even believes it.
    Ironically, he feels like noone really cares, but at least someone, if not a
    bigger group of people care and don't think he's a fuckup, maybe making a bad
    choice.

    "So I sit in my room
    And I'll cry in my bed
    Thinkin' about all the shit
    That made me wrong in my head
    I keep tryin to climb
    But it seems so steep
    Pour myself a fuckin' whisky
    And go back to sleep, bitch"

    Obviously, he's depressed. And can't help what is runnning through is mind,
    but he's trying to make himself better..But gives up in the end, and goes back
    to getting drunk.

    "I watch my momma cry
    She says 'baby why?'
    I say 'baby died,
    Baby's gone like a suicide'"

    His mom is just asking why he's doing all these horrible things to himself,
    and he says basically..He isn't himself, his old self "good self" (if you
    wanna say) is dead.

    "I pour this out for you
    Like a partner in crime
    It's part of the times
    When you're sick in the mind"

    I feel like..This part is more of a shout out, to everyone who is listening.
    If they are feeling similar, worse or better. He's spilling his heart for them
    so they know, they are not alone in their feelings.

    "And I wanna go back to the start
    Back where we started from
    And I know it's been so long
    I was wrong, I was wrong
    I was wrong all along"

    Personally, one of the my favorite verses.. Because I feel for it..
    so i'll put myself in this interpretation. I want everything to be
    back when everything was good..I've been wronging everyone, myself
    included. He (and I) just want everything to be..back to when life
    was good..And it was worth waking up..

    ---

    That was my interpretation of this song. Kind of a comparison to what I've
    been feeling for since I was 8 years old.

    This is my favorite HU song. period.
    Ashtonxcoreon October 29, 2009   Link
  • +2
    Memorythis song is basicaly my life story, cahnge a few names, switch mom with Aunt, and dad with Uncle. Danny, Sasha and Jordan change those names to Daniel, Sara, and raymond. I mean me aunt and uncle kicked me out on my 18th b-day because i had emotional, and mental isues and ne3ver talked to me since. and when i lived with them there was so much hatred and resent the song is ironicly the perfect match, my Gf left me, my friends abondoned me, i became an alcoholic, and a realy depressed SOB. and i wish me grandma had not died when i was 10 because i fhad went throw 10 years of hell after that, so i realy do wish i could go back and stop her from dying because i am tired of this life and all i ever realy want is to go to a home whre i belong and is loved at.
    FesteringStainon November 03, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General Comment ifeel like if it understands me and i cried when i firsted heard it it made me feel like i wanted 2 die but
    i just wrote in my DIARY how i felt and what would happen if i did die or end up in a mental hospital my point
    is its a beautiful
    gabrielmedina99on October 22, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Commentit's really amazing
    Threetearzon September 03, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti've actually sang this to my parents
    before we fixed everything between us.

    i love this song.
    isabel insanityon September 07, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commentlol.
    who wouldn't love this song?
    Threetearzon September 09, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis song is amazing.
    It's one of my faves from HU.
    stagnateon September 23, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentHU confuses me. They've been talking about loving the life and that they're for real since they first started... Then along comes The Diary. Assuming this song is autobiographical, this song makes the life sound like a big miserable lie that the don't want to participate in anymore... Mixed messages. Still very powerful, I just wish they would get the message straight.
    Allenbomberon October 02, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentSeriously allenbomber?

    Sounds like a run of the mill song about teenage years. I imagine alot of HU fans would like this song since they're living this life. I know my high school years were like this sans the alcohol and drugs.

    I sense a hint of sarcasm throughout it though. Like they aren't quite taking it seriously.
    thebutcheresson October 07, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think you're right the butcheress. H.U. love the life, but how are thier fans? They just want to write a song, that teens can relate to. Not only that, but they want to show them how ridiciouls kids look in their puddle of selfpity, how they feel lthey cannot change theirself. I's easier than it seems.

    Very sad song... I can relate to it.

    Well... I think everyone of us had these "moments" ...
    RazoRadiationon October 13, 2008   Link

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