Sick with regret, you sputter out.
Your flame swallowed in doubt.
Light the cigarette and take a breath,
the smoke inflates your chest and thins your blood so you bleed less inside
Left with the mess that came about,
when you chose to live without
On foreign shores you fight or die
Life's thrown before your eyes and takes it's toll
on your calloused empty soul

How long, how long will we be desperately alone,
how long, how long?
How long, how long will we have to pay for what we've done, how long, how long?

"What we would give to feel alive!"
Throught the fog, a muffled cry,
"The anchor's lost and so am I"
We fall victims to the tide
I'm free to drift and free to die on my terms now

Sick with regret, you sputter out


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    General CommentVery Emotional Song. i jUst like how they bulid up from all soft to harder. It's AWESOME!!!!
    skaterpunkrockeron July 22, 2008   Link
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    General Commenti'm almost positive this song is about war.

    but that's all i can get out of it. nothing more specific
    totheendmcr04on July 24, 2008   Link
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    My InterpretationThis song is the perfect song for anyone who's been in failed serious relationship or more specifically, a failed marriage.

    "Sick with regret, you sputter out.
    Your flame swallowed in doubt.
    Light the cigarette and take a breath,
    the smoke inflates your chest and thins your blood so you bleed less inside
    Left with the mess that came about,
    when you chose to live without
    On foreign shores you fight or die
    Life's thrown before your eyes and takes it's toll
    on your calloused empty soul"

    The person is living with regret, they light a cigarette (or any drug in this case) and take a deep breath to kill the pain they feel inside. They're left with the consequences of ending the relationship; life feeling so foreign now, and they are seeing the hard side of life. You tend to feel very empty and cynical of life when a good relationship goes bad..

    "How long, how long will we be desperately alone,
    how long, how long?
    How long, how long will we have to pay for what we've done, how long, how long?"

    This to me is almost like one person is shouting out to their ex, a shout they wish the other could hear, but they don't: How long will we feel this way? How long until I find someone else? How long will it take to recover from this failed relationship?

    "'What we would give to feel alive!'
    Throught the fog, a muffled cry,
    'The anchor's lost and so am I'
    We fall victims to the tide
    I'm free to drift and free to die on my terms now"

    The two are in intense emotional pain, and they wish they didn't feel "dead" and lost. The line "we fall victims to the tide" could be a reference to the high rate of divorce. The tide of course being divorce. "Free to drift" could mean I'm free to start seeing new people, and "free to die on my terms now" is like someone saying, "I no longer live for you, I live for me".

    Wow.. this song hits close to home for me.
    rpm3785on October 03, 2012   Link
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    My InterpretationI think it's a direct reference to the veterans and survivors of the Second World War. There were many of them that saw horrific things during their time "on foreign shores"-- this is the "life" that's "thrown before their eyes." Their comrades and friends were killed right in front of them, and yet they carried on because they had to. Their souls became calloused and hollow from the losses.

    I think this song specifically looks at a vet after he's gotten back home. No one really understands what he's been through, and he's too proud to seek out help, so the only comfort he has is the small high he gets from his cigarettes. He's out of the military, "free to drift and die" on his own terms now and he questions why he survived and his friends didn't.

    I feel like the end is sort of a dark hint that he can't take the survivor's guilt anymore. "Sick with regret", he "sputters out" like his last cigarette.
    november6on April 19, 2013   Link
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    General Commenti think this song is about how we constantly try to do things on our own without God and how difficult it really is. Really its impossible. We are only human, we need more help than what our minds can control. When he sings :

    "Left with the mess that came about,
    when you chose to live without
    On foreign shores you fight or die
    Life's thrown before your eyes and takes it's toll
    on your calloused empty soul'

    when we chose to live without God, there is no hope and we are alone, or we feel that way anyways. trust me i would know that feeling.

    when he says:

    "How long, how long will we be desperately alone,
    how long, how long?
    How long, how long will we have to pay for what we've done, how long, how long?

    "What we would give to feel alive!"
    Throught the fog, a muffled cry,
    "The anchor's lost and so am I"
    We fall victims to the tide
    I'm free to drift and free to die on my terms now"

    he is talking about the battle we constantly have within ourselves when we feel alone. there is no understanding without God.

    anyways, thats just what i think. =D
    dooditsbekahon August 07, 2008   Link
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    My InterpretationPeople tend to think the song is about war when it's actually about God vs self. The band is undoubtedly Christian, I could prove it. This album as a whole is a concept album, or at least kind of like one, going from the beginning in which he lives his life without God, in the middle at his darkest point (this song beginning his realization), and at the end converts, which is why the whole mood brightens up at Sing and onward.

    This song is specifically about how he's trying to hang on to non-Christian life just before converting. He is realizing that life is death without life after death. Every convert to Christianity goes through a sick feeling of having no way to deal with our world.
    The ending where he says, "I'm free to drift and free to die on my terms now," is the final rebellious statement before his conversion, not wanting to convert yet, but believing his actions still come with consequences.
    Regret is what he's feeling for wasting his life, and sputtering out is an absolute giving up of depending on himself instead of on God.
    toxicironon July 15, 2014   Link

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