I used to dream that I could fly,
just above the whispered clouds, beneath the somber sky.
I had a dream I was alive,
I dreamt that love would never die. (goodbye)
Dreams were cheap and hope was easy...(so light),
the forgeries of life deceiving...(so bright),
and as I glided to the ground...(so long),
calcified, the concrete weighed me down... (cruel world).

Your wings are holding up the sky,
dear God, I had a dreamt that I could fly.

Alkaline the burning frost, has blistered deep beneath my bones,
And winter spat its hatred, cold and coiled, black and deep,
as it called me ever further, where evil burns and never sleeps.
I once had prayers that found no words, fragile things I’ve never spoken,
through my lips passed eulogies for all the oaths that I have broken.
And still the ghost of hope was haunting, through the dark to save the living,
and still beneath it all I dreamed that God could be forgiving.

Your wings are holding up the sky,
dear God, I had a dream that I could fly.

When I survey the wondrous cross On which the Prince of glory died, My richest gain I count but loss, And pour contempt on all my pride.

I am the worst of all things here,
my crooked, black, and lying heart still spits its bitter fear.
And each and every sparrow,
You see them flutter to the ground before they die,
So please God don’t forget me.

See from His head, His hands, His feet, Sorrow and love flow mingled down! Did e’er such love and sorrow meet, Or thorns compose so rich a crown?
To Christ, who won for sinners grace By bitter grief and anguish sore, Be praise from all the ransomed race Forever and forevermore!


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    General CommentVery nice song.
    theTyranton May 21, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThis song is simply amazing. And for that matter, bot of these albums are completely phenominal! both annorexia and nervosa deliver a full and deep spiritual journey whether you read along with the story or not.
    Showbread has always been one of the best bands when it comes to deep meaningful lyrics but they have outdone themselves beyond any imagining with every song on these albums. theyre growth both spiritually and musically is blindingly evident.

    as for the meaning of this song i'd rather just go to the meaning of the entire album. for those who do not know these albums are meant to be a musical accompaniment to the stories presented in the cd booklets. each cd is a story of one of two sisters who have two very different viewpoints and goals. annorexia dreams to escape all the evils of this world and so she builds a tower. Nervosa on the other hand wants to explore everything this world has to offer and chooses to dig a hole and immerse herself in the filth of this world so that she can find happiness. they both strive their whole lives for happiness, nervosa falling deeper into her hole of filth and depravity and annorexia continuing to build up what she feels is right. but all along they both were ignoring the one true thing that should have been the basis of their entire lives. and that was the little lamb...otherwise known as Jesus.

    these albums are simply beautiful and are so much more than i ever expected, though i expected it to be great, this blew my expectations out of the water. i pray that showbread keeps on playing deep and meaningful music for the glory of God. God bless everyone
    thatguy517on June 01, 2008   Link
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    General Commentone final note. as mentioned in another post you could never get the full meaning of these songs or these cds by simply listening to the songs. you have to read the stories along with the music so don't go out and download these songs, give the artists the full acknowledgement they deserve for this amazing accomplishment by buying their cd. Amen
    thatguy517on June 01, 2008   Link
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    General Commentyou gave it away.
    worshipleaderon June 07, 2008   Link
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    General Commentthatguy pretty much said it all. i got to meet josh dies last night, and thank him for the band's ministry. these stories are masterpieces, and i also encourage everyone to get them. God is truly using showbread to convict and bless. all the praise goes to Him
    mybloodrunswarmon June 15, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThe 2 CD's are the best I have ever listened to in a long time. And the stories are very nice. Very original.
    theTyranton August 10, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThis whole band is completely original and unique. There is no band like Showbread. I love how their songs hold a deep meaning that go way past the words (especially Anorexia and Nervosa), but they also appeal to everyone, not just us Christians. I really hope to meet them sometime! Haha, I also love Showbread's saying "And may raw rock kill you forever and ever, amen."
    jesusfreak27on June 02, 2009   Link
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    General Commenti love how they put hymms in this song and the fact that it fits so well.....

    "When I survey the wondrous cross On which the Prince of glory died, My richest gain I count but loss, And pour contempt on all my pride"

    See from His head, His hands, His feet, Sorrow and love flow mingled down! Did e�er such love and sorrow meet, Or thorns compose so rich a crown?

    the whole cd is amazing
    ian92on July 24, 2009   Link
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    General CommentAmazing song, one of the best from both Anorexia and Nervosa. I dont think anyone mentioned this but the vocals for this song are done by Reese Roper (Five Iron Frenzy, Brave Saint Saturn) and the girl singing for part of it is his wife Amy. His vocals, in my oppenion make this song amazing. Not saying the lyrics arent some of my favorite lyrics ever but i just love Reese Ropers voice. Ohh and by the way Reese also did some Vocals for the songs Matthias Replaces Judas and Stabbing Art to Death. To bad he didnt do any vocals for "The Fear Of God" album, cause his voice would have probly made the song The Fear Of God my favorite song ever.
    IfiWereASinkingShipon April 14, 2010   Link

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