This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I feel that sting in my toxic heart
I can't heal that thing cause your claws are sharp
It was nothing to you, when you cut me in two
Left me kicked to the curb feeling ugly and blue
I let these fictions capture me
And it's a lot easier than it has to be
You taste like bitch beer practically
And that's a flavor of my sick sick rhapsody
I'm gonna shoot my dope in the bathroom stall
Try to turn my woes around
I'm gonna stir my whiskey with a nail
I'm gonna guzzle that poison down
I'm gonna spend my rent money at the bar
Because I'm really not all that rich
I'm gonna turn my cell phone off right now
Cause I don't wanna call that bitch
Hook:
I love a girl that don't love me
And I call that girl Black Widow Spider
I need to find me a brand new fix
And bring her back home just to lay beside her
I love a girl that don't love me
And I call that girl Black Widow Spider
I need to find me a brand new fix
Need to bring her back home right now
On the syncopated measure,
I say a little somethin' to alleviate the pressure
Cause everything about you is deviant and clever
You say we need to treat each other better
Uh, are you joking?
I feel like a wounded puppy
Stupid, ugly
You used to love me
but instead of being hurt I'll just think about the time you gave me road-head
Bitch
Tell that dude not to answer your phone when I call you
I'll take a ball bat to his truck
I'd rather just leave you a 45 minute long rant on your answering machine cuz I'm drunk
Plus I can delete it all and re-record it
I wanna thank you for the grief and torment
The ghost in the blanket felt like you
And my bedroom fragrance smells like you
Hook
I'm gonna punch me a hole in the closet door
And try to turn my woes around
I'm gonna stir my brandy with a nail
I'm gonna guzzle that poison down
I'm gonna work things out on the telephone
Call one time only, that's it
I'm gonna break my telephone on the ground
So I don't drunk dial that bitch
There's a black raincloud floatin in my head
I always lose at the game of love
I gotta cleanse this nightmare out my system
Somebody wake me up
I'm gonna pop me a pill, gonna die for the girl that'll let me die for her
Cause my ex girl wanna ask me why I feel so strongly like I'm sure
C'mon
Hook
I can't heal that thing cause your claws are sharp
It was nothing to you, when you cut me in two
Left me kicked to the curb feeling ugly and blue
I let these fictions capture me
And it's a lot easier than it has to be
You taste like bitch beer practically
And that's a flavor of my sick sick rhapsody
I'm gonna shoot my dope in the bathroom stall
Try to turn my woes around
I'm gonna stir my whiskey with a nail
I'm gonna guzzle that poison down
I'm gonna spend my rent money at the bar
Because I'm really not all that rich
I'm gonna turn my cell phone off right now
Cause I don't wanna call that bitch
Hook:
I love a girl that don't love me
And I call that girl Black Widow Spider
I need to find me a brand new fix
And bring her back home just to lay beside her
I love a girl that don't love me
And I call that girl Black Widow Spider
I need to find me a brand new fix
Need to bring her back home right now
On the syncopated measure,
I say a little somethin' to alleviate the pressure
Cause everything about you is deviant and clever
You say we need to treat each other better
Uh, are you joking?
I feel like a wounded puppy
Stupid, ugly
You used to love me
but instead of being hurt I'll just think about the time you gave me road-head
Bitch
Tell that dude not to answer your phone when I call you
I'll take a ball bat to his truck
I'd rather just leave you a 45 minute long rant on your answering machine cuz I'm drunk
Plus I can delete it all and re-record it
I wanna thank you for the grief and torment
The ghost in the blanket felt like you
And my bedroom fragrance smells like you
Hook
I'm gonna punch me a hole in the closet door
And try to turn my woes around
I'm gonna stir my brandy with a nail
I'm gonna guzzle that poison down
I'm gonna work things out on the telephone
Call one time only, that's it
I'm gonna break my telephone on the ground
So I don't drunk dial that bitch
There's a black raincloud floatin in my head
I always lose at the game of love
I gotta cleanse this nightmare out my system
Somebody wake me up
I'm gonna pop me a pill, gonna die for the girl that'll let me die for her
Cause my ex girl wanna ask me why I feel so strongly like I'm sure
C'mon
Hook
Lyrics submitted by musicholic54
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