This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
18 days
Since I?d look at myself
I don?t wanna have to change
If I don?t then no one will
Is it my state of mind
Or is it just everything else
I don?t wanna have to be here
I don?t understand it now
Cause its been 18 days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I?m trying hard to re-arrange
Some say its the hardest thing to do
But that?s another 18 days
Without you..
Time after time
I?ve been through this
You show me what it means to live
You give me hope when I was hopeless
As my days fade to night
I remember that state of mind
I?m soaring straight into your heart
And I?ll fly high
Cause it?s been 18 days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I?m trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it?s the hardest thing to do
[ 18 Days song text brought to you by LyricsYouLove ]
But that?s just too many days
Without you
And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end
But I?ll fight this time
So that we might
Have a chance at this
Cause it?s been 18 days
Since I?d look at myself
I don?t wanna have to change
If I don?t then no one will
Cause its been too many days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feel like a lifetime
I?m trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it?s the hardest thing to do
But that?s just too many days without you
And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end
But I?ll fight this time
So that we might
Have a chance at this..
Since I?d look at myself
I don?t wanna have to change
If I don?t then no one will
Is it my state of mind
Or is it just everything else
I don?t wanna have to be here
I don?t understand it now
Cause its been 18 days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I?m trying hard to re-arrange
Some say its the hardest thing to do
But that?s another 18 days
Without you..
Time after time
I?ve been through this
You show me what it means to live
You give me hope when I was hopeless
As my days fade to night
I remember that state of mind
I?m soaring straight into your heart
And I?ll fly high
Cause it?s been 18 days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feels like a lifetime
I?m trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it?s the hardest thing to do
[ 18 Days song text brought to you by LyricsYouLove ]
But that?s just too many days
Without you
And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end
But I?ll fight this time
So that we might
Have a chance at this
Cause it?s been 18 days
Since I?d look at myself
I don?t wanna have to change
If I don?t then no one will
Cause its been too many days
Since I first held you
But to me it feels just like
It feel like a lifetime
I?m trying hard to re-arrange
Some say it?s the hardest thing to do
But that?s just too many days without you
And I know what they say
About all good things
Will they come to an end
But I?ll fight this time
So that we might
Have a chance at this..
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This song is means a lot to me. I heard it the first time on my fiance's 18th day in prison. He went in on a parole violation because at one of his regularly schedualed meetings with his parole officer he tested dirty for alcohol. He's been battling with alcoholism for a while now, and I told him that if he didn't change I couldn't do it anymore. So the verse "Cuz’ it’s been 18 days Since I had to look at myself I don’t wanna have to change If I don’t then no one will Cuz’ it’s been too many days Since I first held you But to me it feels jus like It feels like a lifetime I’m tryin’ hard to rearrange Some say it’s the hardest thing to do But that’s just too many days Without you" is really fitting for him. He says I'm the only person in the world he can change for, and this song gives me hope. :)
Hang in there. From the time I was 18 until I turned 21, I had a serious problem with substance abuse. My fiance gave me support and finally told me if it happened again, she would leave me. Knowing she was serious, I cleaned up COLD TURKEY. <br /> <br /> We will be married 33 years this September 11th. I love her more each day. Why shouldn't I--she probably saved my life.