"If it Kills Me" as written by Sacha Skarbek, Jason Thomas Mraz and Martin Terefe....
Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me


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"If It Kills Me" as written by Sasha Skarbek Martin Terefe

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  • +1
    General CommentMeaning? pretty straight forward, he likes a girl that has a boyfriend and every time he tries to come up to her in more ways than friends, he holds back and looses the chance again

    "But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again"

    This is an amazing EP and if the other two are just like this one, I will really enjoy listening to them. There is something great on Mraz acoustic performances and he is showing this on these EP's
    Apollo231on March 20, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General Comment^^^^
    hes probably friends with the girl.
    and he doesnt wanna ruin the friendship either.
    or something like that.
    LaurenAshleyyon May 22, 2008   Link
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    General CommentI take this song much more seriously then "boy likes girl, girl has boyfriend." I wish some people knew more about how true, and how painful these feelings are. In the live version, Jason's voice cracks and has this humge sigh at the beginning. I think he really feels this song.

    Ok, what it means. A guy and girl have been best friends for years. When they are older, he realizes he really likes her, but is afraid of telling her. As time goes on, his feelings grow stronger and eventualy is in love with her. His "double life" is being best friends with her, and then secretly in love with her. He know's he can't tell her because he could be "risking it all." He wants her to figure out he really is the one. They "go on for hours on end" and they "get along much better than her and her boyfriend." He wants to be with her so much and just really wants to love her but everytime he sees her he can't say anything "he missed his chance again."

    I always miss my chance. I don't wnat ot risk it all, but my double life makes me sick.
    musiclife77on May 28, 2008   Link
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    General CommentWhen you're 'best friend' that you think you should be dating is in love with someone else it's very frustrating. If It Kills Me probably is like "Hey Lover" by LL Cool J in that he's going to stand back and not say a word...out of respect...but he knows that they should be together. :( how sad.
    Lingeringreverieon September 22, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General Commentthis song is beautiful and beautifully written.

    Musiclife seems to have it the way I thought of it when I heard it...it's much deeper and more complicated than "I love you;" he doesn't want to ruin what they already have and he kind of secondguesses himself whenever he wants to tell her the truth. Everything could change in a heartbeat...
    >>amdmb91on September 30, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI agree with musiclife77 that it sounds like Jason Mraz sings it with from experience. His sigh in the beginning of the acoustic version just really says a lot and the emotion he sings it with does as well.

    The situation he sings about is extremely frustrating and i guess a lot of the times there is nothing you can do without something changing drastically.

    Also is Mraz sure that even if he tells the girl she will accept him? What if she doesn't feel the same way back and even worse what if she does feel the same way back but doesn't want to ruin something better that she already has going for her and not take that chance or jump to be with this best friend. My situation is of the latter and it hurts even more for some reason.
    MrazFanon January 07, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentSo to all the people who have said this fits their situation, I feel you. I'm right there with you.

    Based on what it means to me, I interpret this song as if the guy persona sung excellently by Mraz has just realized that he is in love with a girl that he knows he's had feelings for for a long time, but could never quite classify them. The boy and the girl have been best friends for a long time, but the boy is still uncertain as to how to express his feelings towards her. Although she does have a boyfriend, that doesn't seem to be the boy's main concern. His main concern is how she will accept his confession. He's afraid that she won't accept it in fear of ruining both their friendship and the relationship she already has.

    The double life he refers to means to me that the girl has done something terrible that has made just about everyone including the boy's closest friends ostracize her; so the boy acts as if he can't stand her, but in private he is the girl's best friend and is secretly harboring a feeling for her that he thinks is love. And he can't stand not only not being able to tell her how he feels, but also having to act as if he is indifferent towards her to even his closest friends.

    This song is absolutely beautiful and Jason does an amazing job infusing it with emotion, especially in the acoustic version. I cry literally every time I hear the one major chord on the last repeat of "it's a feeling inside that keeps building."

    Musical expression at it's finest.
    RhapsodysBlueson January 28, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Commenti fucking love this song!
    cochise215on May 16, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI am love this song!

    I agree with Apollo231's comment. The meaning is pretty straight forward. Boy likes girl. Girl has boyfriend. Boy is holding true feelings toward girl back...and it's killing him.
    lissy3676on March 22, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThis song is pretty much awesome. Acoustic verison is amazing. I LOVE LOVE LOVE it.
    ihnrdzon March 23, 2008   Link

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