This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
walking alone
feet growing cold
and i'm running alone
not that far
i am fading
a bit too young to think that i'm growing old
slightly more than i can take in
be cynical
enemy on the phone
make me miserable
and i don't know if i can take it
even though
i don't know
i suppose
it is too much for me to take in
try to be as clear as i can be with you
nothing more that i can do
but clearly i've been here before
i'm trying to make you understand
understand
you don't understand
understand
understand understand
you don't understand
understand
you won't understand
you won't understand
understand understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
understand understand
running alone
lose control
not invincible
something wrong
needs to break in
closer to me
nothing to see
your own enemy
and i don't know if i can take it or break it
apologies
ashamed of what i came to be
afraid of what it means to me
amazed at what i need to know
i'm trying to make you understand
understand
you don't understand
understand
understand understand
you don't understand
understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
understand understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
understand understand
enemies
they tap you on the shoulder
and they trap you in the corner
leaves me
wondering
what they really want from me
exit plan
and codependency
even to me
things will change
now you hold my friend
war again
violence in
in the trench
they don't understand
understand
they don't understand
but they want to talk about it
feet growing cold
and i'm running alone
not that far
i am fading
a bit too young to think that i'm growing old
slightly more than i can take in
be cynical
enemy on the phone
make me miserable
and i don't know if i can take it
even though
i don't know
i suppose
it is too much for me to take in
try to be as clear as i can be with you
nothing more that i can do
but clearly i've been here before
i'm trying to make you understand
understand
you don't understand
understand
understand understand
you don't understand
understand
you won't understand
you won't understand
understand understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
understand understand
running alone
lose control
not invincible
something wrong
needs to break in
closer to me
nothing to see
your own enemy
and i don't know if i can take it or break it
apologies
ashamed of what i came to be
afraid of what it means to me
amazed at what i need to know
i'm trying to make you understand
understand
you don't understand
understand
understand understand
you don't understand
understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
understand understand
you don't understand
you don't understand
understand understand
enemies
they tap you on the shoulder
and they trap you in the corner
leaves me
wondering
what they really want from me
exit plan
and codependency
even to me
things will change
now you hold my friend
war again
violence in
in the trench
they don't understand
understand
they don't understand
but they want to talk about it
Lyrics submitted by Nirvana23
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Jane's Addiction vocalist Perry Farrell gives Adam Reader some heartfelt insight into Jane’s Addiction's hard rock manifesto "Mountain Song", which was the second single from their revolutionary album Nothing's Shocking. Mountain song was first recorded in 1986 and appeared on the soundtrack to the film Dudes starring Jon Cryer. The version on Nothing's Shocking was re-recorded in 1988.
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