Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
Bianca:
Started with my brother, first man I loved
Or should I say that he loved me
I was in second grade, he was fourteen
In the shady of the trees
There was a summer breeze
Whole thing's a blurry dream
Behind the house quiet as a mouse
He told me not to breathe
A secret hard to keep
I didn't know till thirteen
But by then I knew just what to do
It was just an old routine
All the boys they fell in love with me
All the boys had a thing for me
Sierra:
You see me trying to smile up on this pole
But I'm just hiding the pain that’s deep in my soul
You wanna fuck me
I already know
You wanna fuck me and toss me back on the floor
Bianca:
My mama she always said to me
I am the brightest star
In life, I'm sure to go so far
But i been at this club about four years
And now hooked on dope, crying in the mirror
When we were just little girls
We learned to dance in mama’s pearls
Baby bend over and shake that ass for me
Hoping you fall in love with me
I could make love to you for free
We could just get a place and start a life
And try to make things right
Sierra:
You see me trying to smile up on this pole
But I'm just hiding the pain that’s deep in my soul
You wanna fuck me I already know
You wanna fuck me and toss me back on the floor
Bianca:
I was just trying to smile You were just fourteen
And I, I was trying to smile
Started with my brother, first man I loved
Or should I say that he loved me
I was in second grade, he was fourteen
In the shady of the trees
There was a summer breeze
Whole thing's a blurry dream
Behind the house quiet as a mouse
He told me not to breathe
A secret hard to keep
I didn't know till thirteen
But by then I knew just what to do
It was just an old routine
All the boys they fell in love with me
All the boys had a thing for me
Sierra:
You see me trying to smile up on this pole
But I'm just hiding the pain that’s deep in my soul
You wanna fuck me
I already know
You wanna fuck me and toss me back on the floor
Bianca:
My mama she always said to me
I am the brightest star
In life, I'm sure to go so far
But i been at this club about four years
And now hooked on dope, crying in the mirror
When we were just little girls
We learned to dance in mama’s pearls
Baby bend over and shake that ass for me
Hoping you fall in love with me
I could make love to you for free
We could just get a place and start a life
And try to make things right
Sierra:
You see me trying to smile up on this pole
But I'm just hiding the pain that’s deep in my soul
You wanna fuck me I already know
You wanna fuck me and toss me back on the floor
Bianca:
I was just trying to smile You were just fourteen
And I, I was trying to smile
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But Bianca does NOT sing "Simon" in this song (Summer Breeze). In every recording I've been able to find online, she sings "started with my brother". So I don't believe this song is autobiographical at all, which isn't strange considering that Bianca didn't use to be a stripper who was hooked on dope.
I changed the lyrics now. But I see that the wrong version is all over the web.