"Ashamed" as written by and John Mccauley....
I am the boy your mother wanted you to meet
But I am broken and torn with heels at my feet
And with your purest light why don't you shine on me
Well I should have been an angel
But I'm too dumb to speak
Now as she gets nearer, the visions get clearer
I'm kneeling, weeping
I will hold her dear
Oh, if your eyes water, you've got your favorite number to spin

And oh, what a crying shame, a crying shame
What we became

Murdered my throat, screaming bloody all night
Hit him with a book and how he crumbles
Oh you should have seen the arches tumble
They're golden no more
Now I'm smiling in my blood

I'm caught in a whirlwind
I'm going to heaven
I'm standing on trial and it's painted on canvas
An eternal testament to how we are so animalistic

And oh, what a crying shame, what a crying shame
What we became

I bow my head in the morning light and say goodnight
I held her hand and I, I kissed her eyes
Stumbled down the stairs and hang my self on high
And I started for the town got to the front yard
And died


Lyrics submitted by anabel lee, edited by crazydoggg, KabukiJake, madeline1372396730, Kotownik, venerem, nerdland

"Ashamed" as written by John Joseph Mccauley Iii

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  • +3
    General CommentI think this song's about approaching a relationship with a sort of religious devotion and fantasy, only to have it crumble and destroy your faith in love. There are a lot of allusions to religion (halos, angel, purest light, kneel and weep, visions, heaven). The narrator at first seems redeemed by the relationship, he imagines it to complete his life and perfect him. Yet the relationship is ultimately flawed because the narrator is ultimately flawed. He is stuck between being miserable because he is too troubled to make his girl complete, yet he is miserable without her.

    Verse 1:
    The narrator has found love, and has been purified through it, although he was not pure to begin with. A beautiful future of love, trust, and loyalty is imagined. "Oh, If your eyes water, you've got your favorite number to spin" = Call me when you're down?

    Verse 2:
    The narrator is too troubled by his own demons to create the bliss he once imagined. Instead he only destroys the relationship with his own inner violence.

    "I'm caught in a whirlwind
    I'm going to heaven"
    - Remembering the nameless wish he called bliss once?

    "I'm standing on trial and it's painted on canvas
    An eternal testament to how we are so animalistic"
    - Only to find that he was not judged worthy of bliss?
    This line is my favorite, yet I feel I understand it the least.

    Verse 3:
    The narrator decided to pick himself up instead of wallow in shame, and start anew. Only, the thought of new life without love causes him to metaphorically die.

    Sorry if this is a shitty interpretation. But I listen to this song over and over and still have trouble understanding it. I guess that's what makes it so great.
    liquoricefishon October 08, 2008   Link
  • +2
    General CommentBeautiful song.
    nineandninetyon September 04, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commentgood job, here's some corrections:

    "but i am broken and torn with halos at my feet"

    "started for the town light at the front yard and died"

    great song
    avengedsurviveon January 08, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Commentbroken and torn with HALOS at my feet! angel ref. .. duhhhh


    and it seems more logical to hear

    started for the townline,- front yard i died
    dontthinktwiceon October 17, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe absolutely hilarious stage banter really undercuts just how personal a lot of his songs are. Very talented guys, and McCauley is a pretty damn impressive song writer.
    TennesseeFireon February 04, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commentlove this song.
    monopolyb1on January 20, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti've always thought the last lines, and as they made sense to me was

    "I bow my head in the morning light and said goodnight
    I held her hand and I, I kissed her eyes
    Stumbled down the stairs and hang my self on high
    And I started for the town line;
    the front yard
    i died."

    i always felt it fit the song better. i may be wrong, but it's the discrepancy that comes with what we are and what we can me. our potential and how small we really are. this person was an angel... he was a hero... except he died in the front yard. he never left nothing to become nothing.... it's a crying shame i suppose. i've always felt the song was about failure...
    Zujadikon August 26, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General CommentClearly this song is about how hard it is to buy a Christmas tree
    societiesplierson October 29, 2013   Link

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