Hand me your hand, let me look in your eyes
As my last chance to feel human begins to vaporize
Maybe it's the heat in here, maybe it's the pressure
You ought to head for the exits, the sooner the better

I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam
And no one in her right mind would make my home her home
My heart's an autoclave
My heart's an autoclave

When I try and open up to you I get completely lost
Houses swallowed by the earth, windows thick with frost
And I reach deep down within, but the pathways twist and turn
And there's no light anywhere, and nothing left to burn

And I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam
And no emotion that's worth having could call my heart its home
My heart's an autoclave
My heart's an autoclave

I dreamt that I was perched atop a throne of human skulls
On a cliff above the ocean, howling wind and shrieking seagulls
And the dream went on forever, one single static frame
Sometimes you want to go where everybody knows your name

And I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam
And no one in her right mind would make her home my home
My heart's an autoclave
My heart's an autoclave


Lyrics submitted by mdon06, edited by Xamnam, etarletons, pineapplejelly

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    i have borderline personality disorder and this song is almost spot on what its like having it. failing at relationships because you dont think youre good enough and youre scared of impending abandonment. exploding at really small events and cycling between euphoric and major depressive mood swings. empty all the time. cant handle being alone and cant handle being with people. uncontrollable rage, JD touched it all. i think he did it on purpose but hes not going to tell people 'hey this song is about bpd

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