This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Knowledge be the key
To unlock your brain and set your mindstate free
[Deacon]
Nonfamiliarity makes you scared to see
The beauty in front of your eyes
You're thinkin' merrily
Everything isn't a predictable occurrence
If you've experienced everything except a purpose
Then you've missed everything that was meant to be caught
Life sessions aren't lessons that can be simply taught
You gotta feel the matter, build the data
You gotta strengthen self or your shield will shatter
In the field, we choose to scatter like mice
instead of coming together and keeping it tight
It's hard to be alone, deep in the night
I try to avoid the dark life and be seeking the light
But so many times I fall in between the lines
Of what is a devilish sign and what is divine
If you base your life on wasted nights with no faith in sight
You might as well free base from pipes
I've fallen down but I got up friend
Fell twice, three times
Got up again and again
And again, it's nobodies but my fault it didn't end
You only don't win when you give in
The days we live in
Send shit that'll break the strongest
I put on my body armor and remain the calmest
Bein' peaceful at heart
Helps me see through the dark
Hot dogs walk and it's hard for evil people to start bullshit
With a literally cool kid
Whose only form of battlin' is through music
If you hold yourself tight you can't lose it
Life or death it's up to you who you cruise with
Exercise knowledge to increase your wealth
If you know yourself you'll be shown your wealth [x3]
[Hook]
[Kno]
Sometimes I ask myself a question
Is my lack of inner reflection
some type of indication of what state my life is in?
They keep pipin' in elevator music
Sappy and happy as hell with flutes n shit
When I reflect back and recollect that
I was born into the state of walking slumber
Taught numbers realize I'm dirt poor
It hurts more now that I'm older
Showered in water much colder than this
Holdin' my lips and close the abyss
With the speech and the phoniest kiss
Rendered lifeless talk about an identity crisis
My third eye remains sightless
When the night hits
Can't help but lie awake
Contemplate fights with vice grips
Depressions and lessons in starvation
It's hard to be patient
Sittin' perfectly still and listen to your own heart racin'
Assume the description of my life and it's reality
Is on the warm side of fatality
It's not fair the way you challenge me
Or the silent ways my talents be
Hidden inside these translations
Emancipations
As I try to dab the slate clean
Futile attempts to make my fate glean
Hate seems all inclusive
It makes me want to fall reclusive
And rip the tallest loose-leaf
With a makeshift face lift
For my mental state
Huh check it out
[Hook]
To unlock your brain and set your mindstate free
[Deacon]
Nonfamiliarity makes you scared to see
The beauty in front of your eyes
You're thinkin' merrily
Everything isn't a predictable occurrence
If you've experienced everything except a purpose
Then you've missed everything that was meant to be caught
Life sessions aren't lessons that can be simply taught
You gotta feel the matter, build the data
You gotta strengthen self or your shield will shatter
In the field, we choose to scatter like mice
instead of coming together and keeping it tight
It's hard to be alone, deep in the night
I try to avoid the dark life and be seeking the light
But so many times I fall in between the lines
Of what is a devilish sign and what is divine
If you base your life on wasted nights with no faith in sight
You might as well free base from pipes
I've fallen down but I got up friend
Fell twice, three times
Got up again and again
And again, it's nobodies but my fault it didn't end
You only don't win when you give in
The days we live in
Send shit that'll break the strongest
I put on my body armor and remain the calmest
Bein' peaceful at heart
Helps me see through the dark
Hot dogs walk and it's hard for evil people to start bullshit
With a literally cool kid
Whose only form of battlin' is through music
If you hold yourself tight you can't lose it
Life or death it's up to you who you cruise with
Exercise knowledge to increase your wealth
If you know yourself you'll be shown your wealth [x3]
[Hook]
[Kno]
Sometimes I ask myself a question
Is my lack of inner reflection
some type of indication of what state my life is in?
They keep pipin' in elevator music
Sappy and happy as hell with flutes n shit
When I reflect back and recollect that
I was born into the state of walking slumber
Taught numbers realize I'm dirt poor
It hurts more now that I'm older
Showered in water much colder than this
Holdin' my lips and close the abyss
With the speech and the phoniest kiss
Rendered lifeless talk about an identity crisis
My third eye remains sightless
When the night hits
Can't help but lie awake
Contemplate fights with vice grips
Depressions and lessons in starvation
It's hard to be patient
Sittin' perfectly still and listen to your own heart racin'
Assume the description of my life and it's reality
Is on the warm side of fatality
It's not fair the way you challenge me
Or the silent ways my talents be
Hidden inside these translations
Emancipations
As I try to dab the slate clean
Futile attempts to make my fate glean
Hate seems all inclusive
It makes me want to fall reclusive
And rip the tallest loose-leaf
With a makeshift face lift
For my mental state
Huh check it out
[Hook]
Lyrics submitted by Kalikuk
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