Good Til Now

The meaning for me in this song stems from a particular experience I had that shaped it for me.

One night I went to the "pop oracle" event called Radio 8-ball. A guest musician puts 12 songs they can play on a board and the entire crowd writes questions on papers and then puts them in a box. A slip is chosen with the left had (I believe for synchronicity's benefit) and then that person spins a zodiac wheel (again with the left hand) which selects a song from the board that is then played by the guest musician. All of this ritual and theatre serves to connect one random persons question with some random song performed like a musical 8-ball to answer the question and then give room for them to discuss with the host and crowd how the felt about and interpreted the answer.

My situation: I was struggling with a failing relationship in dire straights that I was struggling to save.

My question: "Should I continue to strive and struggle and persevere in this endeavour or should I let go and prepare to move on."

My "pop oracle" answer was this song.

I wept openly on stage during the entire performance. These lines following lines help purge the feelings I had about how hard things were with her: "Rocks in my pockets and a devil on my back. You won't even come across the tracks."

And I also heard an affirmation of how it was worth expending the effort to respect the relationship and try to heal. It was good til now, but with the energy expended it was time to say goodbye to my darling. "Balled out, wasted and I feel I'm going down. Goodbye, darling, I been good till now."