This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I remember thinking when I laid upon the floor
all of the lights off and listening to Sharp
I was afraid
I was afraid
but I'm not sure what of
and I would shut my eyes and turn on the tv
to people speaking in a language I can't speak
and I would say, how I would say
that I was being healthy
but no, nobody saw me at all
but they say sometimes you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
think I was dancing when she walked into the room
next thing I know, we're sharing a cab home
I made her laugh
I made her laugh
but I should've left it alone
cause cut to two weeks later and I have to face the facts
when at a party her friend tells me "don't be mad"
'twas a mistake, a small mistake
and I was aware of that
but no, it don't hurt that bad
it's only a scratch
I'm not a train wreck for you
and like they say
sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
I dont know
well she was falling down the stairs, drunk and pathetic
it was so hard not to laugh, I won't ever forget it
I was sitting on the floor, dressed up as batman
flicking people off and making fun of their accents
concluding to myself that I would always be alone
but it was premature, I was only nineteen years old.
but sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else...else
but sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
but sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
I don't know
all of the lights off and listening to Sharp
I was afraid
I was afraid
but I'm not sure what of
and I would shut my eyes and turn on the tv
to people speaking in a language I can't speak
and I would say, how I would say
that I was being healthy
but no, nobody saw me at all
but they say sometimes you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
think I was dancing when she walked into the room
next thing I know, we're sharing a cab home
I made her laugh
I made her laugh
but I should've left it alone
cause cut to two weeks later and I have to face the facts
when at a party her friend tells me "don't be mad"
'twas a mistake, a small mistake
and I was aware of that
but no, it don't hurt that bad
it's only a scratch
I'm not a train wreck for you
and like they say
sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
I dont know
well she was falling down the stairs, drunk and pathetic
it was so hard not to laugh, I won't ever forget it
I was sitting on the floor, dressed up as batman
flicking people off and making fun of their accents
concluding to myself that I would always be alone
but it was premature, I was only nineteen years old.
but sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else...else
but sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
but sometimes, well you just gotta be alone
and if you can't be happy on your own
then how will you ever be happy with somebody else
I don't know
Lyrics submitted by imsoooadragon, edited by tylerdavis0028
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