Was I just your surrogate?
Was I your revenge?
Was I just your surrogate?
Was I just revenge?
I... have... no regrets... yet
I... have... no regrets...

You'll wish we never took this ride...
You make me do this, you make me do this, you make me...
I wish I was afraid of suicide,
long ago before I died
We should never be this high
I wish I was afraid of suicide

Once was I... made of glass,
long ago, before I cracked...
Once was I... made of glass,
long ago... before I cracked...
you made me do THIS

I just can't forget
the blood,
the stitches,
the bite marks,
the kisses,
the glass memories reflecting back
the suffocating block,
ill milk of regret
Just smile and pretend,
it never mattered it anyway
Smile and pretend,
we never mattered anyway


You'll wish we never took this..

I'm starving,
I'm starving...
I'm starving for affection
Your heart is made of ash
And you were just a face to me,
a sacrificial lamb
Rejection, Revenge

Deception, Dimense
I might be going down in flames,
but you will burn with me
You'll wish we never took this RIDE!

I just can't forget
the blood,
the stitches,
the bite marks,
the kisses,
the glass memories reflecting back
the suffocating block,
ill milk of regret
Just smile and pretend,
we never mattered anyway

..no one will know

This is the perfect place
to hide the crime and burn the remains...
I was so naive
I refused to feed
Waiting for you to notice me
I was so naive
I refused to feed
Waiting for you...

LIKE A LOVESICK ANOREXIC

I just can't forget
the love you twisted
the lies you enlisted
The killers quietly beat me down
I hope you drown in this shit milk of regret
I WON'T FUCKING FORGET

I'll hope you drown while you're world is burning down
I'll hope you drown while you're world is burning down

...the whole world is burning
...your whole world is burning
...your whole world is burning
...your whole world is burning down


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    General CommentSafe bet that it's about an ex of oteps. She even mentioned that recently she let go of her. Guess she just kind of hopes that her ex feels the same negative feelings otep felt.
    Reverie_In_Duston December 27, 2007   Link
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    General CommentSorry sweetie but did you even read the lyrics properly, it had "we never mattered anyway" it's about her father. One you know her songs and read most of these lyrics on this site from her, you'll get a pattern. So it's no ex of hers, I actually didn't think Otep had anyone... I don't know why but just never thought she did.
    Kagero-Chanon April 06, 2008   Link
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    General CommentRight and did she personally walk up to you and explain to you that it was about her father?

    "we never mattered anyway" can apply to an ex girlfriend that she wants to move on from. It's not like that sentence brought a dead end of my INTERPRETATION. lol what the fuck.

    The reason I questioned whether it was about an ex of hers is because she recently stated in frequent interviews that she recently had someone, but they just fell out.
    Reverie_In_Duston April 08, 2008   Link
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    General CommentNot to mention The Ascension is clearly an experimental album compared to older material. She can step outside the boundaries and come up with different subject material. It's really not that hard you see...
    Reverie_In_Duston April 08, 2008   Link
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    General Commenta current girlfriend is lying, decieving, and it's been going downhill for a while "the killers quietly beat me down"-and finally otep wants to get revenge.revenge being the "ride" she's talking about. since otep is getting treated like shit "going down in flames", she wants to make sure her girl feels the pain to "you'll burn with me".
    maybe by 'smiling and pretending it never mattered anyway' this whole thing will be easier, people often tell themselves they don't care, to build a fake sense of strength or assurance.
    so, otep is tired of waiting for things to be good again, tired of striving for attention from the one she loves.

    sound alright?
    yeah,hi.on June 23, 2008   Link
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    General CommentShe posted a poem awhile back on her blog with some of the lyrics from MOR scattered in it.

    Here it is:

    Goodbye, Supernatural

    her perfume still haunts this room
    in beautiful bouquets and sensual phantoms
    that stir the air & soften my eyes to sleep

    my fingers and lips cradle the evidence
    my hair is twisted and tangled
    gripping the remnants of her grunted breath

    my ears can hear
    the rain splashing against
    the window pane
    as the minutes drip by
    my mind slips & sighs
    slinking
    from the haze
    and everything is slower now,
    softer, and silent

    she wanted to stay.

    she wanted to remain, here, beside me, coiled like serpents beneath the linens, our limbs meshed and raveled like roots of an ancient tree, sharing dreams, sharing this fantasy, her long locks wrapped snugly around my back and neck as she sleeps soundly on my shoulder and chest.

    but she left.

    i asked her to go. to dress quickly, quietly, to slide those boots over the black tights she pretends are jeans, to tie her hair back in a rushed, ugly knot, to thrust her bra in her oversized bag, pull that expensive sweater back over her head, kiss me again, & head for the door.

    i retrieve her car keys, she is already texting someone, but i don’t mind, i just want her to leave, before this means something more, something my heart can’t handle, before i realize how amazing this was and how important she is to me.

    she stops and turns.
    so beautiful as the candles still flicker and burn.

    okay, good bye.
    goodnight my love. you were supernatural.
    call me? sure.
    tomorrow? okay.
    text me when you get home so i know you made it safely.
    is anything wrong?
    i’m fine. i just have an early day.
    but all i wanted to do was sleep.
    i know but the temptation would have been too great.
    thank you for understanding. you are amazing.
    okaaay.
    g’nite baby.
    good niiight.
    love you.
    what?
    i said, i’ll call you.
    you better.
    i will. let’s do dinner. soon.
    k. night.
    bye.

    & the door closes.
    & i return and collapse on the bed.
    not wanting to remember.
    just sleep and pretend.
    it never mattered
    …..anyway.


    So I believe that confirms the ex theory. But, as always, Otep's songs have several different meanings. :)

    Amazing song.
    ftyd24on August 06, 2008   Link

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