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He hurts me 'cause he cares

He hurts me and it's all my fault!

Roaches and cigarettes,
A sink of hungry dishes.
Flies in the afterbirth,
I miss you when you're timid.

Loving you is nothing new,
It's self mutilation.
I crave the pain, I'm so ashamed
But I love the stimulation.

The last time I died
The last time I died, wasn't nearly this much fun.
Welcome...
Welcome...

Welcome to the family
This drug addict,
sex fanatic,
alcoholic tragedy.

Welcome to the family
This drug addict,
sex fanatic,
alcoholic fantasy.

I fell down some stairs...
I ran into a wall...
He hurts me 'cause he cares..
It's all my fault!

He likes to kill small animals
And blame it on the weather.
Father was _______
My secret name was terror.

Loving you is nothing new,
It's self mutilation.
I crave the pain, I'm so ashamed

But I love the stimulation.

The last time I died
The last time I died, wasn't nearly this much fun.
Welcome...
Welcome...

Welcome to the family
This drug addict,
sex fanatic,
alcoholic tragedy.

Welcome to the family
This drug addict,
sex fanatic,
alcoholic fantasy.

He hurts me 'cause he cares
He hurts me and it's all my fault.

It's all my fault.
It's all your fault.
It's all your fault!!!!!!

Fuck you,
you insecure piece of shit.
Fuck you,
Now look what you made me do. (2x)

Fuck you!

If you
TOUCH US AGAIN
I will
fucking kill you!

I will make you pay.
i will make you pay!

Now you know how it feels.

Now you know how it feels.


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Home Grown song meanings
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  • +3
    General Commenti think its pretty strait forward what this song is about.

    these are the thoughts and emotions of a girl being abused by the man of the house.

    notice she says
    touch US again.
    this makes me think of a husband that abuses his wife and daughter. the end is a bit of a turn around from the beginning.
    it switches from its all my fault to its all your fault...
    from not being able to help loving this jerk, to her being ready to kill him.

    amazing
    forcetenhurricaneon November 06, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commentthis song is so bad ass
    redstrikekiller22on January 30, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentFather was Andronicus. =]
    youuxxsuckkon June 04, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI agree that this song is about an abusive home situation, probably the man of the house abusing the wife and children- "Father was Adronicus" from the P.O.V. of the wife "Loving you is nothing new". "If you touch us again I will fucking kill you!", is my favorite part,if anyone has been in an abusive situation (as a spouse or child in the home), you can relate to this. However that line is my favorite because the speaker goes from being the victim and feeling both helpless and responsible "it's all my fault" to putting the blame with the truly responsible party "it's all your fault", and standing up for themselves. Great song, one of the reasons why I love Otep.
    dustcakegirlon March 29, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentWell, Enough said, Child abuse.

    And how fucked up it makes people.
    SaiSaion April 09, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThere is also a weed Reference, "Home Grown" and the length of the song is 4:20. Smoke fattys.
    Mike1Gomezon June 06, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General Comment"Roaches and cigarettes" Blunt Roaches

    Although, you cant be addicted to weed unless you are a fucktard.(anyone who is addicted to weed is putting on an act. end of story.)
    Mike1Gomezon June 06, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentWell, Enough said, Child abuse.

    And how fucked up it makes people.
    SaiSaion April 09, 2009   Link
  • 0
    Song Meaningits a obvious statement that this song is about abuse but i feel it give you the sense of bing in her house as a child. its really powerful to see things through the eyes of a child and knowing that you have to lie about the pain you are feeing to the world outside of your house. i LOVE when she says "loving you is nothing new its self mutilation but i crave the pain i am so ashamed but i love stimulation" the first part of that lyric is so powerful because as a child and if your parent is abusive the world tells you you must love your abuser but you know that because you love them its like mutilating yourself. then the second part of its a drug/sex reference that you are willing to hurt yourself or make yourself as a woman hurt from sex to feel a rush.then the parts where she is making up all the lies of why she has all the marks of abuse is really strong because most abuse victims will do that. then feeling that its your fault that you are being abused when you obviously did nothing wrong is a strong thing. then she threatens her abuser which is just such a liberating experience because it gives you the satisfaction of revenge. and i wish the opening was in this song and not invisible because its touch to hear it its so sweet how otep tells her mother that despite everything that has happened she still loves her and promises her that her father will never touch her or her family again
    Otepfan1362on March 28, 2010   Link
  • 0
    My InterpretationObviously about domestic abuse. The victim turns on the abuser and starts to see the abuser as the pathetic creature they truly are and reclaims power after getting revenge.
    iknowmyusernamesuckson October 15, 2010   Link

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