"My Manic and I" as written by and Laura Beatrice Marling....
He wants to die in a lake in Geneva
The mountains can cover the shape of his nose
He wants to die where nobody can see him
But the beauty of his death will carry on so
I don't believe him

He greets me with kisses when good days deceive him
And sometimes we're scorned and sometimes I believe him
And sometimes I'm convinced, my friends think I'm crazy
Get scared and call him but he's usually hazy

At one in the morning, day is not ended
By two he is scared that sleep is no friend
And by four he will drink but he cannot feel it
Sleep will not come because sleep does not will it
And I don't believe him, morning is mocking me

I?ll wander the streets, avoiding them eats
?Til the ring on my finger slips to the ground
A gift to the gutter, a gift to the city
The veins of which have broken me down
And I don't believe him, morning is mocking me

Oh, the Gods that he believes never fail to amaze me
He believes in the love of his God of all things
But I find him wrapped up in all manner of sins
The drugs that deceive him and the girls that believe him

I can't control you, I don't know you well
These are the reasons I think that you're ill
I can't control you, I don't know you well
These are the reasons I think that you're ill

And since last that we parted
Last that I saw him down by a river
Silent and hardened
Morning was mocking us, blood hit the sky
I was just happy, my manic and I

He couldn't see me, the sun was in his eyes
And birds were singing to calm us down
And birds were singing to calm us down

And I'm sorry young man, I cannot be your friend
I don't believe in a fairytale end
I don't keep my head up all of the time
I find it dull when my heart meets my mind

And I hardly know you, I think I can tell
These are the reasons I think that we're ill
I hardly know you, I think I can tell
These are the reasons I think that I'm ill

And the Gods that he believes never fail to disappoint me
The Gods that he believes never fail to disappoint me

My nihilist, my happy man, my manic and I
Have no plans to move on

But birds are singing to calm us down
And birds are singing to calm us down


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"My Manic and I" as written by Laura Beatrice Marling

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  • +7
    General CommentI have never believed "My Manic" as an actual person, but a personification of Laura's or the speaker's manic depression. At first the song describes a plagued man which may be just a plagued mind; a dark side of Laura or the speaker. Like another personality of a bipolar disorder. This would explain how the gods switch from "amaze" to "disappoint" and from how "you're ill" to "we" and "i."

    She doesn't want to believe that her "friends think I'm crazy," but by the end of the piece, she finally accepts she is just this way and let's birds' singing to calm her down aka anti-depressants. In turn, this kills her manic and blinds him yet she knows she can never let go of her depression and "move on."

    Bloody deep, really makes you think.
    clairemuzikson January 07, 2009   Link
  • +3
    General Commentmaybe i have a different version, but the last four lines of my copy are:

    "My nihilist, my happy man, my manic and I
    have no plans to move on.
    But birds are singing to calm us down...
    And birds are singing to calm us down..."
    elfrijolon March 30, 2008   Link
  • +3
    General CommentI heard this crazy rumour that sometimes songs don't have one set interpretation. But hey, what do I know, you seemingly have some inner insight.

    The song is clearly more complex than simply "my old boyfriend was a bit shit and sad sometimes". There are indeed allusions to mental disorder, psychological conditions, religion, as well as some stark imagery.

    The whole "mountains as big as his nose, LOL SEE WHAT I DID THERE" bit is the only weak part of the lyric, really. It's cringeworthy.
    iwishiwasthemoonon May 22, 2008   Link
  • +3
    General CommentI believe that the lyric "the mountains can cover the shape of his nose" isn't an insult about his nose, but a play on words about his insecurities. She's saying, he wants to die in a place that will hide, what he considers, his faults.

    I also think that the change from "You're" to "I'm" to "We're ill" is perhaps a reflection on the fact that she has continued this merry go round with his manic depression. "My friends think I'm crazy" because I continue to do this, over and over.

    Knowing someone who is manic depressive put a lot of this into perspective the moment I heard it. It frighteningly describes my relationship with him, though we've never dated. I don't think these words necessarily have to reflect a lover's relationship.

    I also enjoy the theory that this is about her own manic depression, or another side of her. Songs like this one are very intriguing, she's an amazing poet with her lyrics.
    Baruon March 03, 2010   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThe song is obviously about some sort of love of hers, a man who suffers from manic depression, clear from the title and hints given away in the song, such as his insomnia "Sleep will not come because sleep does not will it".
    From the first verse we can assume that he wants to die, this probably played on her mind and resulted in her perhaps not even fully believing in his depression, "I don’t believe him". This could also be because of his religious views and how he does not obey the laws of God, resulting in her not fully believing that he tells the truth all the time, "He believes in the love in his god of all things
    But I find him wrapped up in all manner of sins".
    The line "Till ring on my finger slips to the ground" could be perhaps an engagement ring, implying that they were once engaged?
    "The drugs that deceive him and the girls that believe him" could insinuate that perhaps they broke up due to his addiction to drugs and alcohol (which was mentioned in the first verse) and perhaps he was cheating on her, sympathy sex with other girls who believe that he does suffer this depression?
    The penultimate verse could be their breaking up, or just a time when she saw him, and it describes the emotions she felt, such as anger, "And birds were singing to calm us down" is simply the sound of the birds singing, almost as if the whole of nature might understand the anger that she was feeling.
    "And I’m sorry young man, I cannot be your friend. I don’t believe in a fairytale end", after the break up she might feel that she can no longer be friends with him as there are too many strong feelings like perhaps anger and hatred and confusion. "I don’t keep my head up all of the time" shows that she might have been sad at the idea of leaving him forever, but she feels it is the right thing to do.
    "And I hardly know you, I think I can tell. These are the reasons I think that we're ill" she might feel as if she barely knows him any more due to the drugs etc. and she might also be implying that she too suffers from depression by saying "These are the reasons I think that WE'RE ILL".

    In my personal opinion I think this song is beautiful and is one of my favourite songs, ever.
    WoahThereBeckion April 23, 2009   Link
  • +2
    General CommentAs I see it, this is an internal personality conflict in which the split mind of she and he become one, and thus have won, by calming down.
    Pen1955on April 14, 2013   Link
  • +1
    General Comment"The DRUGS that deceive him",

    "By two he is scared because sleep is NO FRIEND"

    "I think it's dull when my heart MEETS my mind".
    Loonieon October 09, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis is an eery song that makes my skin crawl, but it's so amazingly different, she really has the ability to think outside the box, something that some people seem afraid to do, or aren't creative enough, today.

    I can see why she realeased 'New Romantic' first instead of this or 'My Manic & I', as they're alot less mainstream.
    Loonieon October 09, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Comment"And sometimes WITH SCORN and sometimes I believe him"
    d15k0zachon February 19, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think this song sounds like a disillusionment with religion, specifically Christianity.

    "He believes in the love in his god of all things
    But I find him wrapped up in all manner of sins"

    These lines sounds frustrated with the hypocrisy that Christians are accused of because they often believe that they are forgiven of sins even as they commit them. "I don’t believe in a fairytale end" sounds almost like she accusing the Christian belief in heaven/paradise to be naïve. I’m not sure how my interpretation works out with the rest of the song, but the use of Geneva could be an allusion. Also, I don’t understand how the lyrics quoted by elfrijol would work out if she does use them interchangeably.
    puppyduck2on April 10, 2008   Link

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