"This Time" as written by Vanessa Carlton and Linda Perry....
It's 4 am and I'm wide awake
Waiting for the thoughts to fade
I flick a ring of all of my mistakes
And as the light starts creeping in
I slowly feel
The day missing
But I wont even know where to begin

Do I push too hard
I fall too fast
A moment never seems to last
And will I stop long enough to know

Cos everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just cant walk away, this time

Your words circle in my head
And weigh so heavy on my chest
And I'm crushed by your expectation
I only want to do some good
To dumb to know if I could
And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

And do I go too far
Not far enough
Why cant I keep my big mouth shut and do
And lead the life that we should

And everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just cant walk away, this time

Did I say too much again?
I'm just a girl in a panic
If I tell you my truth
Am I getting through?
And it just seems I should confess
Who am I to pretend?
This is more than I can carry

Cause everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt
I cry

I hold my head up high
I know ill be alright, this time

I feel it in my veins
I just cant walk away this time
This time
This time
This time
This time

Its 4 am and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
And its time like these I see your face


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"This Time" as written by Vanessa Carlton Linda Perry

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    General CommentI believe the line is: too dumb to know if I could
    annamarieon August 27, 2007   Link
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    General Commentthanks annamarie!
    i changed it.
    god i love this song.
    jordaaanon September 03, 2007   Link
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    General CommentToo.

    Have you ever heard of proper grammar? Cos is not a word. 'Cause might be considered proper, or at least better.

    Aside from that (I just think Vanessa Carlton is an artist who deserves people to write her lyrics down properly).

    Another good song about a relationship. It seems to be a complicated one, where the boyfriend or whoever expects a lot from her. She loves him, but it's difficult sometimes.
    LNikkyon November 07, 2007   Link
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    General CommentIt seems like she's been trying to keep this relationship up but "this time" she's scared of how to face it but she's going to try to make everything better.
    Embody Musicon November 26, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think its "a flickering" not "I flick a ring"

    I think its probably that she's in a very difficult relationship and her boyfriends putting a lot of expectation on her but she does't want to give up, she want to make it work "this time"
    boredcloudon May 06, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThe spelling errors and such in this post are driving me crazy, sorry! I believe lyrics are:

    It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
    Waiting for my thoughts to fade
    A flickering of all of my mistakes
    And as the light starts creeping in
    I slowly feel
    The day I'm missing
    But I wouldn't even know where to begin

    Do I push too hard?
    Or fall too fast?
    The moment never seems to last
    Will I stop long enough to know -

    That everybody burns
    And when it starts to hurt,
    I cry
    I feel it in my veins
    I just can't walk away
    This time

    Your words circle in my head
    Weigh so heavy on my chest
    And I'm crushed by your expectation
    I only want to do some good
    Too dumb to know if I could
    And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

    Do I go too far?
    Not far enough?
    Why can't I keep my big mouth shut?
    And do we lead the life that we should?

    And everybody burns
    And when it starts to hurt,
    I cry
    I feel it in my veins
    I just can't walk away
    This time

    Did I say too much again?
    I'm just a girl in a panic
    If I tell you my truth
    Am I getting through?
    It just seems I should confess
    And who am I to pretend?
    This is more than I can carry

    Everybody burns
    And when it starts to hurt,
    I cry
    I hold my head up high
    I know I'll be all right
    This time

    I feel it in my veins
    I just can't walk away
    This time (x5)

    It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
    Waiting for my thoughts to fade
    And it's times like these I see your face
    EvieAnne221on July 03, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThis song is about unrequited love. She has feelings for a guy, but she doesn't know how to let him know. She wants to make him like her, but she doesn't know how to do that either.

    The feelings she has are too much for her to handle "this is more than I can carry". Thoughts of him are taking over her life. She's up late at night just going over and over scenarios in her head about her encounters with this guy and the things she's said to him. It makes her feel insecure and self-conscious, as unrequited love often does to a person.

    I'm assuming this guy is a friend that she keeps in and out of touch with: "I just can't walk away, this time". She has more-than-friends-feelings for him, which she's been keeping inside and denying for awhile. She's continuously walking away from this man, but this time the feelings are so strong, they've been kept inside so long, that she can't just walk away. She has to let him know how she feels, but she's unsure if she really should "did I say too much again" (among other lines). She's almost ashamed of her feelings for him.
    untruewordson July 03, 2008   Link
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    General CommentI think this song is actually not about her love life, but more about her life in general. She feels like no matter what she does, nothing ever goes right for her (I only want to do some good/too dumb to know if I could/and I just wanna feel the days I'm in). I think she's really overwhelmed about her life in general and she doesn't know what to do to fix her mistakes.

    Anyway, I love this song, it's like the story of my life.
    anniewashere123on December 20, 2008   Link
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    General Commentbut it's A FLICKERING not I FLICK A RING!!
    anniewashere123on January 17, 2009   Link
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    My InterpretationErm. Well, yes I think it is about love. But because of my life, I could use my example for what it -could- be about on a deeper level, and what it means to me personally.

    She loves him and wants to be with him, but he pushes her away. The only way she can have him as part of her life is as just a friend, but she is so wrapped up in the idea of them being more then that, of them being romantically involved, that it's a stressor. A regular crush song doesn't have such a solemn tone.

    Your words circle in my head
    Weigh so heavy on my chest
    And I'm crushed by your expectation
    I only want to do some good
    Too dumb to know if I could
    And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

    Those lines really hit it. The things he tells her make her feel helpless.. and the chorus, about 'everybody burns, when it starts to hurt, I cry" is about the pain of the dilemma of loving someone and feeling like you can't do anything.

    Well, that's just what it is for me. :)
    nataliejoneson July 23, 2010   Link

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