im sitting down inside the shower
as beads of water climb my veins
the tile floor is cold beneath me
the steam is fogging mirror panes

im making mental notes of halls ive walked
and pills ive yet to take
ive recovered slow and hope that
ill be seeing you today


white lights flash below and flicker
the city wakes as i still sleep
in an electric bed my arm is fed
i feel the glowing tv screen

the clever clock above will sing out
at every hours chance it has
im feeling lonely less cause youve been here
the time will surely pass

ive been kept inside for too long now
im begging you to break me out
theyve medicated me for days
im living in a foreign place
ive been wasting away
but i figured out that healing starts
when i can see your face

now im looking out my window. the cars are moving so slow.
the grass absorbs some rays of sun below.

a sharpened needle breaks my skin and im waiting for the medicine
to take me to a world devoid of loneliness

now im sinking to the bottom
of an ocean under me
the lights are dimming from the surface
and muffled noises surround me

ive lost the sense of touch
but love is still inside my dream
of perfect silence and escaping life
we drift slowly to sleep

youve been here all day long
i hope you see what its meant to me


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    i cant believe that no one has commented this. this song is beautiful!

    quixotic16on August 18, 2007   Link
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    i'm pretty sure this song is about a guy who's been in a hospital for awhile. he feels lonely and out of touch with the world and feels as if he's wasting away. the only thing that's helping him recover and feel alive is the girl he loves.

    i absolutley love this song and braxton is amazing

    chemicallilyon September 16, 2007   Link
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    General Comment

    I wish artists like these got recognized more often rather than 'booty-rumble' and what not.

    His lyrics are amazing. And his newest song 'theneighborkidhasagun' is realllly good too. :)

    AlohaAndreaon December 30, 2007   Link
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    I've actually talked to Brack about this, i did a poetry report on it

    Brack had appendicitis, and he went to the hospital, and his girlfriend stayed there with him the whole time.

    VvwhocaresvVon January 04, 2008   Link
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    4 COMMENTS?

    This is definitely one of his best songs.

    Alysennon November 17, 2008   Link
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    Song Meaning

    This song is very powerfully defined in the fact that I am able to relate to his experience that he shared through this song. I just got out of the hospital yesterday and had been there for a week. This song was comfort in itself. Hospitals can be a very busy lonely place of suffocating thoughts. Needles, pain medication, procedures and surgeries are something that takes such a toll on one. I think in his song he describes the experience of having someone there to light up your entire day by just a simple visit. Having to be in a hospital is an experience that no one should go through alone and when you have someone there to care for your well being, that means the world. The gift of love care is the gift that heals a person from the inside out.

    bananaberryon March 31, 2009   Link
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    this song is beautiful! his voice is so relaxing. the lyrics are really simple, cute, and very poetic. love it!

    beatingheartsbaby94on July 02, 2009   Link
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    Song Comparison

    this song first showed up as track #1 on 'the sound of hibernating' released under his real name, in 2006. "enderly" as track #4 on 'there's life in the trees' wasn't released till 2007. so this song should probably be under his name. i guess it doesn't really matter, though, since it's the same person. but it should at least be listed as a song lyric under brack cantrell, but it doesn't show up there.

    charcoalsketchon October 09, 2011   Link

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