"Howards Tale" as written by Emma Anzai, Shimon Moore and Brett Matthew Creswell....
Age five just a little boy shy
Is he ready for the big surprise
He'll be playin' Lego in a dream
When the shadows come to life

Age nine then he should've been fine with a secret he's sure to keep
Two times and they tell a little lie
For the sake of him and me
Now it's over
I need closure

Hey! look what you did to me
While you were ticking me off
Gotta be stoned leave me alone
I'm waiting for mom to comfort me
But when I open my mouth
Don't say, nothing

Age twelve and it isn't going well
Now he's three years to the day
Confused, but unlike you
This feeling wont go away

Sixteen and the woman down the street
Has invited him to come inside
First time and it didn't feel right
It'll be the last time he tries

Hey! look what you did to me
While you were ticking me off
Gotta be stoned leave me alone
I'm waiting for mom to comfort me
But when I open my mouth
Don't say, nothing's wrong

I wont say nothing's wrong.
I wont say I wont say
I wont say I wont say
I wont say I wont say

Seventeen and all he's ever seen is
A limit in between the lies
It's kind of funny how a mind
Can keep living in denial

Eighteen is a very strange scene,
And hes still playin with the past
Expelled, maybe someone could've helped
If someone had known to ask

Hey! look what you did to me
While you were ticking me off
Gotta be stoned leave me alone
I'm waiting for mom to comfort me
But when I open my mouth
Don't say, nothing

Nineteen and he's innocently
Parked right beside a school
He stares at a boy sittin' there
And the boy stares at him too
He walks over
He needs closure


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"Howard's Tale" as written by Emma Anzai, Shimon Moore, Brett Matthew Creswell

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    General CommentI think this song is about sexual abuse. First verse, he sings about how the "shadows come to life" while the little boy is sleeping. Possibly talking about how his father sneaks into his room to molest him at night. At age nine he knows about it but lies to his friends so that they wont find out (Look up Co-Dependency). Chorus mentions "Taking me home, getting me stones, LEAVE ME ALONE" as if his father is getting him stones in order to molest him; hence the reason he says "leave me alone" after he mentions "getting me stoned".

    He then talks about some lady letting him in and the first time not feeling right and that it will be the alst time he tries. This is probably talking about sexual confusion.

    The last verse, when he is staring at a little boy, it might be talking about the cyrle repeating itself.

    The idea of drug use above is also possible.

    Pretty strong lyrics and either way, it does a good job of showing how children can be subject to abuse that they are not able to escape.
    Chrono9084on April 18, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI feel that it's a mixture of everyone's thoughts.
    "Age 5, just a little boy shy
    Is he ready for the big surprise
    He'll be playing lego in a dream
    When the shadows come to life"
    There I think he's waiting for a surprise from someone and in his sleep he gets it. Sexual abuse when he was a child.
    "Age 9 and he should've been fine
    With a secret he's sure to keep
    Two times had to tell a little lie
    For the sake of him and me
    Now it's over
    I need closure"
    Here I think he's hiding what's been going on and he feels that he'll lose his friends if they knew.
    "Hey, look what you did to me
    When you were taking me home
    Getting me stoned
    Leave me alone
    I waited for mom to comfort me
    But when I opened my mouth
    Don't say nothing, shhh"
    I think that here, someone got him into drugs because they wanted to sexually abuse him and he's begging to be left alone and when his mother comforts him, she tells him not to speak of it or doesn't want to here it.
    "Age 12 and it isn't going well
    Now it's 3 years to the day
    Confused, but unlike you
    This feeling won't go away"
    Here he might have been released from the abuse but the scarres of it still haunts him.
    "16 and the woman down the street
    Has invited him to come inside
    The first time, it didn't feel right
    It'll be the last time he tries"
    Here they may be talking about him going to someone's house and has sex with her and it didn't feel right and he's tramatized by the abuse. And he's not going to do this again.
    And when the "I won't say" verses came it, he's not telling anyone about this problem that's haunting him.
    "17, all he's ever seen
    Is the living in between the lies
    It's kind of funny how a mind
    Can keep living in denial"
    He's growing up more and his life is filled with nothing but lies and he's denying his past and he's also denying his sexuality or how he feels. Also that his mother is denying what has been going on to her son.
    "18 is a very strange scene
    He's still playing with the past
    Expelled, maybe someone could've helped
    If someone had known to ask"
    He was lost in his past and he got himself kicked out of school or kicked out of his house or his click of friends. And now he's lost because no one asked or went to help him.
    "19 and he's innocently
    Parked right beside a school
    He stares at a boy sitting there
    And the boy stares at him too
    He walks over
    He needs closure"
    Here there could be several meanings. One could be that he's going over to rape him as revenge, molest him or something. Possibly even to ask him out or sell him drugs or maybe to tell him what happen to him so the burden would roll off his shoulders but I feel that he's going over to talk to him because the boy had been through the same thing as him and he wants to help the boy when no one helped him and he wanted to save the boy from the cycle. But for all we know, Howard was just repeating the cycle over.

    But this song is very sad and it's very deep. I just keep listening to it overr and over and everytime this came out in my mind. Sick Puppies did a great job with this song.
    Rosenaon June 15, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe abuse here is not sexual in my eyes.
    The part where people are really getting it wrong is:

    "16 and the woman down the street has invited him to come inside.
    It was the first time
    It didn't feel right.
    It'll be the last time he tries."

    The woman is not having sex with the 16 year old kid. I think she is trying to pull from him the truth about his abuse as a child, however as he starts telling her he "didn't feel right". Many children who undergo physical abuse, especially by a parent, feel like if they speak up about it they are in some way betraying their family. This marks the last time the boy will attempt to seek help from another person, and instead chooses to deal with the abuse alone.

    As for the end:

    "19 and he's innocently parked right beside a school.
    He stares at a boy sitting there and the boy stares at him too.
    He walks over
    He needs closure."

    The boy in the song sees another boy who seems to be in a very similar situation. As part of his closure, he decides to talk to the boy and help him through his problem like no one did for him at that age.

    I think the feeling of confusion in the song does not come from sex, but rather the confusion that comes with abuse from a primary care giver, the very people in your life that are supposed to love and comfort you. The boys father beat him and his mother stayed quite the whole time. Seems like a lot to live through.
    lilnickyboy93on December 04, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General CommentA lot of people want to say this is about sexual abuse, and i think that the part about the woman down the street at age 16 is representative of that, but i believe the song to be about something else.

    Howard is obviously a boy growing up with an internal struggle of homosexual feelings, furthered by his same sex sexual experiences at a young age. These feelings of doubt and insecurity eventually make him into a problem child, leading him into a world of drug abuse. His mother also seems to absent, at least emotionally. His personal problems eventually get him expelled from school and he heads farther into his downward spiral.

    This is where my interpretation of the song varies from others. At age 19, he returns to a school and approaches a boy to get "closure." Many have surmised he is about to give a child drugs or abuse the child in some fashion. i think that this boy is Howard's first sexual partner, still a "boy" because he is still in school. Howard approaches him, and hopefully, is able to get the kind of emotional closure he needs from the boy.
    Muchomason August 03, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis is what i think, its subject to argument.

    its showing a cycle-- the singer of the song was given drugs or something when he was younger, and in return wound up giving some other kid drugs; the song is the story of that boy's life, when he eventually winds up selling another little boy drugs.
    pullingthestringson April 12, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think he's describing the troubles of a homosexual teen.
    When he says "16 and the woman down the street has invited him to come inside. It was the first time It didn't feel right. It'll be the last time he tries." Meaning the kid had sex with a woman and it didn't feel right.

    And the last verse when he approaches the boy at school, the boy stares at him too, he needs closure, he needs to find out for sure if he is actually homosexual.
    xWTFx Its Tyleron June 09, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI agree a little bit with everyone.
    I love this song!
    SM0x13on June 21, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think it's definetaly about some form of sexual abuse/molestation.
    By his dad or an older male figure in his life.
    And he can't get over it and he's permenantly traumatized.
    When it says he walks over to the boy outside the school;
    Its a faur sad song no doubt.
    bethhhon July 16, 2007   Link
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    General CommentSo, I just bought the CD I haven’t listened to every single song completely yet, but this one caught my attention and I think I finally figured it out.

    "Age 5. Just a little boy shy
    Is he ready for the big surprise?
    He'll be playing lego in a dream
    when the shadows come to life."

    -this part is most likely about sexual abuse on a child, 'howard' is sleeping...the legos represent the innocence in a 5-year-old child...his father walks in and sexually abuses him.

    "Age 9. And he should've been fine with a secret he's sure to keep.
    Two times had to tell a little lie for the sake of him and me."

    -four years later and he still hasn't told anyone about his abusive father. not sure what "two times had to tell a litte lie" means, but "for the sake of him and me" was howard keeping his secret from the song writer in order to maintain a friendship.

    -the chorus seems to suggest that the father continuously abused the child and even got him stoned, and that his mother knew about it but did nothing and told him not to talk about it.

    "16 and the woman down the street has invited him to come inside.
    It was the first time
    It didn't feel right.
    It'll be the last time he tries."

    -the beginning of his sexual confusion

    "17 all he's ever seen is living between the lies.
    It's kind of funny how a mind can keep living in denial"

    -the teenager has grown up basically knowing nothing but lies

    "18 is a very strange scene,
    he's still playing with the past.
    Expelled.
    Maybe someone could've helped
    If someone had known to ask."

    -18 is confusing enough, and he still thinks about what had been done to him in the past, and because he felt he couldn't tell anyone about it, he was waiting for someone to ask and no one cared enough to.

    "19 and he's innocently parked right beside a school.
    He stares at a boy sitting there and the boy stares at him too.
    He walkes over
    He needs closure."

    -parks near a school, notices another boy looking at him [im assuming the boy seemed gay or something] and 'howard' decides to walk over and probably ask him out to see if he is really gay or not
    Kristen123on July 26, 2007   Link
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    General Commentoh, and im pretty sure it has nothing to do with being a drug dealer, but then again i didn't write it so i don't know
    Kristen123on July 26, 2007   Link

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