This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Ten long years ago
She left which was my undoing
Everyday I pine for her so
I know she's here but doubt was eluding
Until that spring night light drenched twilight
2 or 3 am bathed in computer blue light
In a British Psychic Chatroom amid spirits and souls
And Rendy said "She was a good girl with a heart of gold"
I knew it was her as Rendy waded through the room with her visions and images
one by one evreyone else exluded themself
As all the memories flooded back through the screen
Delivered to me by 2 sweet seers my heart starts to well
Under a spell by these words from across the atlantic and then ofcourse across some mantic lines
She said change the name of your band Darkened Bliss is too sad with an absence of light
Rendy heard horses when she came
And she heard Moonlight Serenade
She heard Marianne the sweet name
The Tori song I always played when
I lost her
Oh When I lost her
"You never lost her" Rendy said
She's with you now and always
She says miss her but don't languish the days
I lost her
Oh When I lost her
"You never lost her" Rendy said
She's with you now and always
She says miss her but don't languish the days
From that nightfall on I changed my sibylline song
From the rapture that soared through my body
As her spirit relayed tales from our youth
A beautiful visitor we had from a higher realm
Her visit taught me deep in my soul there is no such thing as farewell
She left which was my undoing
Everyday I pine for her so
I know she's here but doubt was eluding
Until that spring night light drenched twilight
2 or 3 am bathed in computer blue light
In a British Psychic Chatroom amid spirits and souls
And Rendy said "She was a good girl with a heart of gold"
I knew it was her as Rendy waded through the room with her visions and images
one by one evreyone else exluded themself
As all the memories flooded back through the screen
Delivered to me by 2 sweet seers my heart starts to well
Under a spell by these words from across the atlantic and then ofcourse across some mantic lines
She said change the name of your band Darkened Bliss is too sad with an absence of light
Rendy heard horses when she came
And she heard Moonlight Serenade
She heard Marianne the sweet name
The Tori song I always played when
I lost her
Oh When I lost her
"You never lost her" Rendy said
She's with you now and always
She says miss her but don't languish the days
I lost her
Oh When I lost her
"You never lost her" Rendy said
She's with you now and always
She says miss her but don't languish the days
From that nightfall on I changed my sibylline song
From the rapture that soared through my body
As her spirit relayed tales from our youth
A beautiful visitor we had from a higher realm
Her visit taught me deep in my soul there is no such thing as farewell
Lyrics submitted by davidbeauy, edited by Mellow_Harsher
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