This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I don't have to climb the highest mountain
And I don't have to sail the seven seas
No I don't have to push myself through desert sands
'Cause she's gonna find me here
I don't have to put on all my best clothes
I don't have to put on a show
No I don't have to act like a total stranger
'Cause she's gonna find me here
When she finally arrives
It'll be right on time
And I'll know that it's real
'Cause the light in her eyes
Will look through and show what a fool I have been
To search far and wide with my heart in my hands
I don't have to worry about her
'Cause I know she's fine now on her own
I can put my mind on things in my own life
'Cause she's gonna find me here
You know that she's gonna find me here
When she arrives
It'll be right on time
And I'll know that it's real
'Cause the light in her eyes
Will look through and show what a fool I have been
To search far and wide with heart in my hands
I don't have to cut up my heart into pieces so small
And give them to those who don't care
I don't have to search for one girl
In the depths of my soul
'Cause she's gonna find me
She's gonna find me
You know she's gonna find me here
I don't have to search far and wide
'Cause she's gonna find me here
And I don't have to sail the seven seas
No I don't have to push myself through desert sands
'Cause she's gonna find me here
I don't have to put on all my best clothes
I don't have to put on a show
No I don't have to act like a total stranger
'Cause she's gonna find me here
When she finally arrives
It'll be right on time
And I'll know that it's real
'Cause the light in her eyes
Will look through and show what a fool I have been
To search far and wide with my heart in my hands
I don't have to worry about her
'Cause I know she's fine now on her own
I can put my mind on things in my own life
'Cause she's gonna find me here
You know that she's gonna find me here
When she arrives
It'll be right on time
And I'll know that it's real
'Cause the light in her eyes
Will look through and show what a fool I have been
To search far and wide with heart in my hands
I don't have to cut up my heart into pieces so small
And give them to those who don't care
I don't have to search for one girl
In the depths of my soul
'Cause she's gonna find me
She's gonna find me
You know she's gonna find me here
I don't have to search far and wide
'Cause she's gonna find me here
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to me, i think this song is talking about one of two things. One possibility is that he's talking about a girl that he used to date and that they went their separate ways because it was best thing for them, yet he still believes that eventually they will find their way back to each other. The other possibility is that he's talking about his "soulmate" who he hasn't found yet, but who he's confident will find him eventually. A really pretty song either way :)
To me this song is about faith and resilience. Most people know that it's a tearful, hurtful path to find love. We suffer heartbreak after heartbreak and it can make us never want to try again. This song is the author coming to the realization that he shouldn't (and doesn't) have to go through all of what he has been to find his love. He doesn't have to change who he is or sacrifice everything for someone who isn't really interested. If there really is a true love out there for him, she'll find him -- or rather, they'll find each other. It's such an uplifting thought -- you have a love, and even if you haven't met them yet, have faith that you will and carry on.
Also, I don't think the verse about her being on her own means that it's an old girlfriend. What that means is that they're separated and instead of fretting over who she is and where she is, he just needs to focus on himself until they're ready for each other.
This song is quickly turning into my favorite song -- although Audra and Sleeping Through Autumn run a close second.
i love this song. it's about loving someone for who they are. not whats in their wallet. or the way they dress. it's about seeing the best in the person you love regardless. it's also about true love and fait. and if it's really meant to be. it will come back. and the girl knows where to find him if shes ever ready to come back to him, when she forgives him and is ready to love him back. it's a beautiful song and the lyrics are amazing.
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