This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I keep tellin' myself that it'll be fine
You can't make everybody happy all of the time
But I found myself in a place that I've never been
A place that I thought that I would never be
There's people looking back at me
I keep having this dream, I'm at a party
There's people throwing drinks
And screaming,telling me that I don't belong
Lately life's been the same
I find this comfortable place
With all my friends
And then my friends start telling me
That I've always been wrong
And I'm so tired of being wrong
There was a time I could move
There was a time I could breathe
The crowded spaces filled with angry faces
It didn't once cross my mind
With paranoia on my heels
Will you love me still
When we awake and you find that the sanity is gone from my eyes?
(Yeah)
I got secrets from you, you've got secrets from me
Because you're so worried about what I'm gonna to think
Baby, I'm worried, too
But if love is a game, girl, then you're gonna win
I'll spend the rest of my life bringing victory in
If you want me to (yeah)
(Yeah)
You can't make everybody happy all of the time
But I found myself in a place that I've never been
A place that I thought that I would never be
There's people looking back at me
I keep having this dream, I'm at a party
There's people throwing drinks
And screaming,telling me that I don't belong
Lately life's been the same
I find this comfortable place
With all my friends
And then my friends start telling me
That I've always been wrong
And I'm so tired of being wrong
There was a time I could move
There was a time I could breathe
The crowded spaces filled with angry faces
It didn't once cross my mind
With paranoia on my heels
Will you love me still
When we awake and you find that the sanity is gone from my eyes?
(Yeah)
I got secrets from you, you've got secrets from me
Because you're so worried about what I'm gonna to think
Baby, I'm worried, too
But if love is a game, girl, then you're gonna win
I'll spend the rest of my life bringing victory in
If you want me to (yeah)
(Yeah)
Lyrics submitted by Thrilliam, edited by Mellow_Harsher
Paranoia In B Flat Major Lyrics as written by Scott Yancey Avett Robert William Crawford
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"But if love is a game, girl, then you're gonna win"
I have a bunch of ideas about what this could mean.
This could mean that the girl is good at maintaining relationships, it could mean being with the singer is like winning the "game" of love, it could have a more sinister meaning that love is just a game and all she wants to do is win, perhaps through being a controlling partner. This last seems unlikely, since no other lines, nor the tone of the singer suggests animosity.
I don't think any of these are the case.
Piggybacking on Gimmeajeep's analysis, the next line might help to clarify this metaphor.
"I'll spend the rest of my life bringing victory in"
As Gimmeajeep said, this suggests a vow to put his state of paranoia behind him
to help this struggling relationship. "Bringing victory in" here means winning the "game" of love, or having a healthy relationship.
I find the last line very interesting.
"If you want me to"
This could refer to a previous line :
"Will you love me still When we awake and see that the sanity has gone from my eyes?"
The singer is making sure his lover still loves him despite his paranoia.
This poses an interesting problem: This line is him being paranoid about the effects of his paranoia! He needs constant reassurance that his lover still loves him. On top of this, he is being paranoid the line after he promises that he will stop bringing his paranoia between them. This could be a commentary on the difficulties of anxiety disorders and paranoia. Solving these problems is often difficult, and words are wind; it is easy to say you're gonna never be worried again, but without some form of treatment, it often just falls apart.