I should not have hid where my heart can't follow,
'cause this grace gets so far and too hard to swallow.
I've been running from Saul, he's been giving chase;
when I look in his eyes, all I see is my face.

You're still on my back after all these years,
chasing me out of hell and my nice veneers.
I don't know how you stand when you've got no floor,
or how you can breathe with your hands on boards.

I just want to be not what I am today,
I just want to be better than my friends might say,
I just want a small part in your passions play.

Do you hear when I call in the midst of wrong?
Do you hear these here words while I sing this song?
Are you caught up in me like I heard you say,
or just some big cashier that I'll have to pay?

'Just want to be not what I am today,
I just want to be better than my friends might say,
I just want a small part in your passions play.



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    'I should not have hid where my heart can't follow/cause this grace gets so far and too hard to swallow/i've been running from Saul/he's been giving chase/when i look in his eyes/all i see is my face'

    samuel was a king chosen by god to lead the jews, and Saul was the prophet who make god's will happen. so he got samuel from his family and got him crowned, but taught him what god wanted from a king of the jews. samuel started off as an excellent king, but slowly started to deviate from the rules - it got worse and worse and samuel basically avoided Saul because he knew what he was doing was wrong.

    i don't know how you stand/when you've got no floor/or how you can breathe/with your hands on boards

    first two = god, second two = jesus' cruxifixion, previous 4 lines are explained by this mix of jesus/god reference.

    are you caught up in me/like i heard you say?/or just some big cashier/that i'll have to pay

    paying the cashier is a comment on the strange way that beliving in a god can make you feel like used.

    credit to my friend helms (he's hot) for the excellent old testament knowledge and interpretation

    Greenie18on January 15, 2009   Link

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