She was just five years old.
A slightly moody day.
She couldn't stay away, from that rivers edge and I.
I turn my back to count.
All the daffodil seas that surrounded.
I close my eyes, and then heard the water wake up.

And I, I can still hear that scream, It's still lingering, in the air, everywhere.
"Mother, please save me, grab my hand" (I can't I can't)
I can still see that face, sink beneath the waves. Baby please, breath for me, give me time I am here.

Where did you go?
Where'd you go?
Where'd you go?
Hey, where'd you go?

Were the angels that lonely?
Couldn't they suffice for anybody else?
Can't everybody just lie to me.
She's home, she's home. Crying for me now.
Every night on a Monday, I will visit the same spot that I hate.
Yes the place that baby loved, and now she can taste it, oh it took her away.

It's been five years since then.
And when it hits September..
I'll feel like I'm dying again.
Ian still won't even talk to me, talk to me!
Isn't this pain, guilt enough?
I can't even look out the window, without seeing reflections distorted in the sun.

(Repeat: And I can still hear that scream...)

And the pain hits me like gunshot.
And I'm heading on the way to the floor, I hear her name and it kills me.
Oh, Bottles up, Bottles up, Bottles up.

And I'm trying my best to hurt me.
Ian says it's never enough.
A razor to the wrist for each unshed tear, cough it up, drink it up, drink it up.


So I had a coma, when I crashed my car in the lake.
I saw your face down there I knew, it was not a mistake.
So I went to the doctor. I told him, oh my heart will break, If I couldn't see you. He just, gave me more pills.

But, I saw you up there.
Still floating by the river.
God, you always loved that river.
I bet your heaven looks just like it.

Then I'll like it too, even though it scares me now.
But when I'm with you.
I'll be just fine, I'll be just fine.

We can sit, we can talk about, talk about...Butterflies. Butterflies. Butterflies.



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    General CommentThis song is about a mother & daughter.
    Meg & Dia does perform it together sometime.
    youtube.com/…
    tkay25on March 21, 2007   Link
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    General Commentokay. if you want a step-by-step process. here ya go.

    she was just five years old. a slightly moody day.
    [this little girl [shes five years old] has been having a very bad day today]

    she couldnt stay away from that rivers edge and i. i turned my back to count. all the daffodil seeds that surrounded. i close my eyes and then heard the water wake up.
    [this girl couldnt stay away from river [i dont blame er. rivers are fun. but back to the point] and the mom turned her back to "play" with the daffodils. she closed her eyes then it can be assumed that the daughter fell into the river]

    and i. i can still hear that scream. its still lingering. in the air. everywhere. mother please save me grab my hand. [i cant i cant]
    [the mom can still hear the little girls screams and plea's for help everywhere she goes. and it haunts her because she couldnt save her]

    i can still see that face. sink beneath the waves. baby please. breath for me. give me time i am here.
    [the mom can still see her daughter drown. and she keeps telling her to just breath and wait until help gets here]

    where did you go. whered you go. whered you go. hey. whered you go.
    [well. i think this line is pretty self-explanatory]

    were the angels that lonely. couldn't they suffice for anybody else.
    [shes asking if the angels were really so lonely that they had to take her daughter and couldnt they just take anyone else]

    cant everybody just lie to me. shes home. shes home. crying for me now.
    [shes asking if everyone can just lie and say that the daughter is back at home waiting]

    every night on a monday i will visit the same spot that i hate. yes the place that baby loved. and now she can taste it. oh it took her away.
    [every monday night she'll go to the river that she hates, but the daughter loved, so she'll go there to remember her daughter]

    its been five years since then. and when it hits september i feel like im dying again.
    [its been five years since her daughter died and when it gets to be september she feels like shes living that whole day over again]

    ian still wont even talk to me. talk to me. isnt this pain guilt enough. i cant even look out the window. without seeing reflections distorted in the sun.
    [ian [im assuming that hes her ex husband er something like that] wont talk to her because she let her daughter die. and she feels like all this pain is hurt enough and she doesnt need someone ignoring her. she cant look out the window because she sees her daughters reflections]

    and the pain hits me like gunshot. and im heading on the way to the floor. i hear her name and it kills me. oh. bottles up. bottles up. bottles up.
    [all this pain feels like shes been shot. and now shes falling to the floor. and when she hears her daughters name it just breaks her heart. [i have no clue what the bottles up bottles up part means]]

    and im trying my best to hurt me. ian says its never enough. a razor to the wrist for each unshed tear. cough it up. drink it up. drink it up.
    [shes trying her hardest to hurt herself because ian keeps on blaming her. so she cuts herself for every tear that wasnt cried. and shes telling herself to just deal with it]

    so i had a coma. when i crashed my car in the lake.
    i saw your face down there i knew. it was no mistake.
    [she crashed her car into the lake and got a coma. when she was in her coma she saw her daughters face]

    so i went to the doctor. i told him. oh my heart will break. if i couldnt see you. he just gave me more pills.
    [she went to the doctor and told him that her heart'll break if she cant see her daughters face again. so the doctor just gave her more ?depression? pills.

    but i saw you up there. still floating by the river. god you always loved that river. i bet your heaven looks just like it.
    [she can swear that she saw her daughter floating by the river. and shes saying to her daughter that she had always loved that river and telling/asking that/if her heavens looks exactly like the river]

    then ill like it too. even though it scares me now.
    but when im with you. ill be just fine. ill be just fine.
    [shes saying that she'll love her heaven but right now the river scares her. but when shes with her daughter everything will be perfect]

    we can sit. we can talk about. talk about. butterflies. butterflies. butterflies.
    [shes telling her daughter that when theyre in heaven together that they can sit and talk about butterflies [who doesnt love butterflies. honestly]]
    tearsareshedon March 21, 2007   Link
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    General Commentall the above stuff ^ is pertaining to the song. not her real life. just to let you know. haha.
    tearsareshedon March 21, 2007   Link
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    General CommentOh my man, if this isn't the saddest song ever then I'm really not sure what is...
    Of course, the meaning's quite obvious... it makes me wanna cry every time I listen to this. So well written, and so well played. Hmmm, they are geniuses like that ^^
    makemesmileon March 31, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI saw a yellow butterfly too.........
    Mouth of the Southon March 31, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI love this song..its so
    awesome and the
    music was just like
    emotional..lol..I luv
    it! Its quite depressing
    though,mayte..But I
    still love it...
    Good job.
    Cheers again mayte!
    xSuicideEmogurlxon May 25, 2007   Link
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    General Commenttearsareshed... when they say a slighty moody day, she doesnt mean the girl, im pretty sure they are refering to the wheather... which is how the daughter ended up in the river, from the water "waking up"
    Live_to_Loveon July 11, 2007   Link
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    General CommentIan isn't the husbands name of the girl the story is for.
    Dia went over to Ian's house because Dia was leaving to live with Meg so they can start doing better music together. So Dia and Ian wrote and recorded the song togeher called Yellow Butterfly whom is about a girl named Sarah who now is 25. & the rest of the song is pretty much self explanitory
    xonecutepinayxon July 15, 2007   Link
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    General Commenti cry everytime i hear this song :(
    kelseykhaoson July 16, 2007   Link
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    General Commentat the shows when meg plays this, she tells the audience the story
    when meg was younger, she was playing hide and go seek with her five year old cousin ("i turned my back to count"). and when she started counting she heard her cousin fall in the water but she couldn't do anything because she didn't know how to swim either.
    and she blamed her self ever since
    ("ian still won't even talk to me") i'm guessing that Ian is the little girl's older brother and blamed meg for his sister's death.
    Ian is also the one who wrote this song with meg
    cng9on January 17, 2008   Link

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