This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
There's someone calling my name
But there's nothing to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Man, what little hope is gone
The voice said don't worry friend
The darkness is just a suggestion
No don't worry kid
The darkness is just suggestion
No don't worry kevin
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
There's someone calling my name
But there's no on to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Oh, what little hope is gone
The voice said don't worry friend
This darkness is just a suggestion
No don't worry kid
This darkness is just a suggestion
No don't worry kid
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
I'm allergic to the world when we are separated
There's nothing in my heart that's worth a beating
Feeling like a Styrofoam prop
Ornery as eating
Oh sure we talk and talk and talk
But nothing worth repeating
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
now I'm OD'ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight when you just don't work right
You painted my prison now something's wrong
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I'm killing myself but it's not suicide
I'm killing myself
I'm killing myself but it's not suicide
I'm killing myself but my friends will never know
Because I've never been
Because I've never been honest with anyone
Always pulling faces from the unprepossessing places of the universal mind
I'm crippled by the world when we are divided
There's nothing in my heart that's worth the creaking
Feeling like a pamplona bull that's finished kicking.
Although we try to break the loop, it's always stuck repeating
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
now I'm OD'ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight when you just don't work right
You painted my prison
Now something's wrong
and I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
There's someone calling my name
But there's nothing to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Man, what little hope is gone
The voice said don't worry friend
The darkness is just a suggestion
No don't worry kid
The darkness is just suggestion
No don't worry kevin
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
There's someone calling my name
But there's no on to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Oh, what little hope is gone
The voice said don't worry friend
This darkness is just a suggestion
No don't worry kid
This darkness is just a suggestion
No don't worry kid
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Myself
I'm allergic to the world when we are separated
There's nothing in my heart that's worth a beating
Feeling like a Styrofoam prop
Ornery as eating
Oh sure we talk and talk and talk
But nothing worth repeating
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
now I'm OD'ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight when you just don't work right
You painted my prison now something's wrong
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I'm killing myself but it's not suicide
I'm killing myself
I'm killing myself but it's not suicide
I'm killing myself but my friends will never know
Because I've never been
Because I've never been honest with anyone
Always pulling faces from the unprepossessing places of the universal mind
I'm crippled by the world when we are divided
There's nothing in my heart that's worth the creaking
Feeling like a pamplona bull that's finished kicking.
Although we try to break the loop, it's always stuck repeating
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
I feel defeated
now I'm OD'ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight when you just don't work right
You painted my prison
Now something's wrong
and I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
And I never ever ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along but it's hopeless
Hopeless
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this song and the past is a grotesque animal are both epic of montreal songs...
I'M OD'ING ON YOUR COCKSUCKERBLUES!
Hoooooooooopppppppeellleesssssss hooopelllesssss.
the wikipedia article of this is very interesting: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Icons%2C_Abstract_Thee
akasjhksjd. BEST SONG FROM HFAYTD.
everyone is saying the the past is a grotesque is animal, THIS SONG IS EPIC.
I love how he says "now don't worry, kevin" at the beginning of this song. It's like his final acceptance that this isn't Georgie Fruit's problem, it's all him. It's real, and he's going to do his best to keep his family together.
All the songs on this EP just break my heart.
This song is from the Icons, Abstract Thee EP.
It's pretty incredible.
The Past is a Grotesque Animal is probably my favorite Of Montreal song. :-(
You must be mistaken, Hobbyy, for The Past Is A Grotesque Animal is a prime example of the brilliance that we call Of Montreal.
All of Hissing Fauna, Are You The Destroyer? should be listened to as one large song. I have yet to not listen to it straight through.
This EP is similar in that I have yet to not listen to it straight through, although I replayed one section of it while high.
this song is magnificent, all of the songs on the ep where definatley good enough to stay on the normal cd, this one especially
i think it is "ennui is eating"
this song is very intense, i think.