& she's a killer
& she's a keeper ...

v1.
am i blurry
in your vision

was i just
a poor decision

cut me open
with precision

& we'll finger
the incision

tell me what have i done
(quid pro quo)

to watch you lose
control

(tunnel)

i will give you sanctuary
in these hymns of Thanatos ...

i will give you sanctuary!


v2.
you want to
see me burn
i am living fire!

you want to
see me burn
i am LIVING FIRE!

you will know me
by the scars i bare

you will know me
by the hate i swear

you will know me
by the scars i bare

shapeless vengeance!

(tunnel)

we are the 1000 children of death.

we're in-between, on the fence
non-descript antagonists

i'm in-between, on the fence
non-descript antagonist!

i'll split you open
& climb inside
lose myself
eaten alive

we are the 1000 children of death!

from seraphim!
to nephilim!
to exodus!


v2.
she's picking ghostflowers
from her soul

she's clipping the wings
of fallen angels!

she's picking ghostflowers
from her soul

she's tonguing splinters
of broken halos!

you will know me
by the scars i bare.

you will know me
by the hate i swear.

you will know me
by the scars i bare.

YOU WILL KNOW ME!

(bridge)

from gelatin
to specimen
to emptiness

I WILL BE AVENGED.
I WILL BE AVENGED.

these are the secrets
that kill. that kill.
that kill. that kill.
that kill. that kill.
that kill. that kill.

we are the 1000 children of death.



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  • +2
    General Commentthis song is so brilliant....how it starts off slow and quiet and then it just explodes its wonderful...Otep is a great writer and isnt afraid to show ANYTHING in her songs. she is talented and her vocals kick ass!!!!
    sleeping_sun07on March 02, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General CommentHey, though I'd just comment on some of the mythological/religious stuff in this song, bause I'm a total mythology nerd. Also because I just heard this song, loved it, and felt the need to go rant about it. xD

    Okay, so Otep- the name itself- I'm sure Otep was an ancient Egyptian goddess or god of the dead. They had a few. At least my guess is it'd be a combination of a few different names, but it sounds super familiar.

    Thanatos was the ancient Greek god of death. most people assume that this was Hades, but there's a difference- Hades ruled the underworld alongside Persephone (at least for half of the year, that's a long story) and Thanatos was the actual god of death itself.

    i might have my facts wrong on the first two, but the one I'm sure of is this- the seraphim are the group of angels closest to God in Catholicism. The Nephilim, on the other hand, were the children of angels and humans, and I'm pretty sure they weren't held in a very good light. I think they were all killed. yes. So that kind of explains the whole seraphim-to-nephilim thing.

    Okay, I should probably shut up now. xD I agree with Emby on almost all counts...but I think maybe the first verse might be referring to a relationship. maybe her boyfriend broke up with her and she committed suicide, or maybe she refused to leave him and he killed her? The 'clipping the wings of fallen angels' line strikes me as saying something like she's trying to do something that's already been done, punishing someone else when they've already been hurt enough, if that makes any sense...

    I've got a really weird mind. You can tell. >>
    BlueCODon November 10, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI'm honored to be the first one to comment!!!This song fuking rocks. Miss OTEP shamaya is awsum .ooooooooh it's so cool to see girls in metal bands who actually can scream (not like that dying bullshit)
    Suicid3queenon February 22, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commenthas anyone seen the video and looked in the background of it ? i love the video theres so much stuff set in the back that you have to search for.
    bettiellamason June 05, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI love this song
    "you want to see me burn,iam living fire"
    i love that part
    ure-so-vaineon December 23, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think that the song is about both what thetafarm and Shenkuu are saying. I think it's about the unborn aborted children, hence the "We are the 100 children of death" line and "i'll split you open and climb inside lose myself eaten alive" and also "she's a killer she's a keeper", taking vengeance on those who killed them, "you will know me by the scars i bare you will know me by the hate i swear" and "shapeless vengeance" So it's a combination of the two the song is about vengeance but the vengeance is being taken by the unborn aborted children.
    YourHeroesAreDeadon December 26, 2008   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI love the power of this song....from the really restrained opening to the controlled vocal explosion over the 'gentle' instrumental build-up..i was quite certain this song was a woman's vengeance to her abusive partner, but enjoyed reading Bluecod's post and come to the conclusion that it's a woman's vengeance of having to abort her child and the frequent views of the aborted child...

    & she's a killer
    & she's a keeper ...
    [contradictory statements, but the first line is from the view of the aborted child that she is a killer and the second from her partner who probably gave her an ultimatum of aborting or breaking up and now considers her a "keeper"]


    am i blurry in your vision
    was i just a poor decision
    [aborted child asking if when conceived, was it not a consideration or just turned out to be a burden/bad decision that needed to be reversed]

    cut me open
    with precision
    & we'll finger
    the incision
    [the mother describing the abortion process, specically how unreal, humiliating, etc it is]

    tell me what have i done
    (quid pro quo)
    [the mother's realisation that it wasn't the right thing to do, she immediately fills with regret, hurt, pain...and soon to be the fuel for her vengeance]

    to watch you lose control
    [that she didn't make the right decision for herself, her body and her child]

    (tunnel)

    i will give you sanctuary in these hymns of Thanatos ...
    i will give you sanctuary!
    [the vocal expression and the lines themselves conflict, this to me is the mother's expression of how even the excuse that the aborted baby is not in pain and in a better place angers her knowing what just happened, i.e. she aborted the baby...and so even santuary in death cannot console her, as rational as it is...and from here, the song and vengeance builds up]

    v2.
    you want to
    see me burn
    i am living fire!
    [could apply to both the mother or child...i feel they both cry this out in unison]

    you want to
    see me burn
    i am LIVING FIRE!

    you will know me
    by the scars i bare
    [mother carries her mark by the scar]

    you will know me
    by the hate i swear
    [mother will also carry a mark of hate that unlike the scar, will continue to grow, but i like to think this is actually the aborted child saying this]

    you will know me
    by the scars i bare
    [mother]

    shapeless vengeance!
    [shape is usually referred to pregnant women, so shapeless is the lack of shape after the abortion and thus the source of the vengeance]

    we are the 1000 children of death.
    [the child never got named, had a personality, a smile....so it's just a statistic, like the 1000 other aborted babies]

    we're in-between, on the fence
    non-descript antagonists

    i'm in-between, on the fence
    non-descript antagonist!
    [child says the above 4 lines, not sure exactly what it means, just that it's neither here on earth or in heaven]

    i'll split you open
    & climb inside
    lose myself
    eaten alive
    [mother's guilt and how she could just die]

    we are the 1000 children of death!

    from seraphim!
    to nephilim!
    to exodus!
    [that both parents were seraphim, intended to having the child...good intentions, then created a nephilim where 1 of the parents were not as pure of intention and thus 2 different entities actually conceived the child]

    v2.
    she's picking ghostflowers
    from her soul

    she's clipping the wings
    of fallen angels!

    she's picking ghostflowers
    from her soul

    she's tonguing splinters
    of broken halos!

    [above all is the despair the mother has acknowledging that she actually took all the good from what was given to her and broke it and threw it away...those are just analogies for her to having an abortion]

    you will know me
    by the scars i bare.

    you will know me
    by the hate i swear.

    you will know me
    by the scars i bare.

    YOU WILL KNOW ME!

    (bridge)

    from gelatin
    to specimen
    to emptiness
    [the aborted baby again, the actual abortion....gelatin, a specimen in a bottle or bucket and then nothing]

    I WILL BE AVENGED.
    I WILL BE AVENGED.

    these are the secrets
    that kill. that kill.
    that kill. that kill.
    that kill. that kill.
    that kill. that kill.

    we are the 1000 children of death.
    Lemon369on May 21, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General CommentMy opinion:

    And she's a killer
    and she's a keeper.

    [I think 'she's a killer' is talking about one of the parents trying to kill the unborn baby, more then likely the father because of her Wurd Becomes Flesh lyrics. However, the baby survives, so I'm thinking that's why 'she's a keeper' comes in...because the baby survived.]

    am i blurry
    in your vision

    was i just
    a poor decision

    cut me open
    with precision

    & we'll finger
    the incision

    [She asks of her parents: Can you see me or are you going to pretend I'm not alive? Was I a bad decision, is that why you tried to kill me? Cut me open and finger the incision...she's in pain because of these questions and to her, it feels as if they are cutting her open.]

    tell me what have i done
    (quid pro quo)

    [what have I done, I'm just a child that you created. What did I do to deserve this pain?]

    to watch you lose
    control

    [I think she means watching them treat her like shit when they should be loving her.]

    i will give you sanctuary
    in these hymns of Thanatos ...

    i will give you sanctuary!

    [The only way you will be protected, is through death, but it will be an easy death because you're my parent and a part of me does love you.]

    you want to
    see me burn
    i am living fire!

    you want to
    see me burn
    i am LIVING FIRE!

    [You wanted me to die, but I am living...and I am raging.]

    you will know me
    by the scars i bare

    you will know me
    by the hate i swear

    you will know me
    by the scars i bare

    shapeless vengeance!

    [I would rather decipher this backwards because it would be quicker and easier. She's going to come back to them for vengeance, vengeance without a shape...meaning no time and no specific way, so if it be years later, she's going to look very different to them, but they will know who she is by the scars she bears and the hate...because they are the ones that inflicted it.]

    we are the 1000 children of death.

    [I will get to this later, and becausae my comment will be long, I will post it in two parts.]
    DeborahJeanon June 30, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General Commentwe're in-between, on the fence
    non-descript antagonists

    i'm in-between, on the fence
    non-descript antagonist!

    [They are neither dead or alive, and it's because that's how they feel. One side of them feels they should be dead because that's what the parents wanted, but the other side of them wants to be alive because they were already born, and they are, in fact, alive. They're antagonists, meaning..their existence, whether they feel it should be or not, pisses off their parents. They're hanging on the fence because they're not sure whether they should go one way or the other completely, to be dead or alive...they're just stuck in between.]

    i'll split you open
    & climb inside
    lose myself
    eaten alive

    [Basically, she wants to climb back inside the womb. The eaten alive part, I'm not sure of. It could go either way. She eats her mother alive, or the mother's hatred for her eats her alive. Either way, she gets lost in the back that's inside of her mother.]

    from seraphim!
    to nephilim!
    to exodus!

    [These children go from being angels, to falling from the heavens, to being led out. We think of our children as little angels, but because these children weren't wanted, they 'fell short' from being angels, and eventually were 'led out' or should I say 'cast out' by their parents.]

    she's picking ghostflowers
    from her soul

    she's clipping the wings
    of fallen angels!

    she's picking ghostflowers
    from her soul

    she's tonguing splinters
    of broken halos!

    [She's picking ghostflowers from her soul-I can't tell if this is the mother or the child. It could be the mother saying that she had a flower inside of her, a child, but now it's gone...it's dead. Or it could be the child saying-I was supposed to be this beautiful creature, but there's nothing in me worth wanting, all that should have been in me is dead, my parents killed it. I honestly think it's the child saying that she's picking the dead memories form her soul because she wants to feel alive, but those memories are making her feel dead inside.]

    from gelatin
    to specimen
    to emptiness

    [They are talking about the baby here, not the mother. The mother isn't even in this equation. The baby goes from gelatin, to specimen, to emptiness. Meaning, she went from being an embryo, to being a newborn, to being a child whose parents made her feel empty.

    I WILL BE AVENGED.

    [She will avenge her death, the death of herself. She didn't actually die, her parents made her feel dead inside.]

    we are the 1000 children of death

    [You don't have to actually be dead to feel dead. This is basically talking about all of the 'unwanted' children who had parents that treated them as if their existence meant nothing, as if they were a mistake.]

    I think that about sums up my opinion.
    DeborahJeanon June 30, 2011   Link
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    General CommentFantastic song. I love angry music and OTEP has talent. Well; maybe it's not the anger so much; more like passionate.
    brentaubreyon March 03, 2007   Link

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