This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I'm a tripper man in a spaced out jam
Flying in the circus of a freakshow band
My ears are wings
They take me to my dreams
I close my eyes and I'm alone here singing
In this state of mind, I'm more than myself
I could reach up into the sky, colour in the sun
In the eyes of my imagination I can roll a bigger stone
I've cut the ties that build the rule of lies
And then I tripped away into the void
Lay down the gun that defends me
Cover me with a rose instead
My eyes see the deadland that surrounds me
But I can see the garden in my head
all is well
No wall will stand in my way
If they're too tall, I'll go beneath them
Cut me down, you'll just go through me
Cut me down, you'll just go through me
I am forever
I am forever I
And me you've never really seen
Even when I leave this face behind
There's got to be another place to find
Where I really belong
'Cause here I don't belong
Here I do not belong
So I write this song of mine
To soothe my ears and ease my mind
And so another written page
Will turn into the everflow
Will no one ever really know about me
Should they even care
A strange little man
Racing all his bubbles to the surface of the universe
To see if he could swin out of his own mind
And as he looked behind, he realized what he had escaped
He thought that alone he would float out in space for awhile
God damn mother gonna try to take me down
Take a place in line
Just lead your pigs into the slaughter
Thank you perry for the idea man
Oh, by the way I want to meet you one day
Thank you for the way you sang to me
Flying in the circus of a freakshow band
My ears are wings
They take me to my dreams
I close my eyes and I'm alone here singing
In this state of mind, I'm more than myself
I could reach up into the sky, colour in the sun
In the eyes of my imagination I can roll a bigger stone
I've cut the ties that build the rule of lies
And then I tripped away into the void
Lay down the gun that defends me
Cover me with a rose instead
My eyes see the deadland that surrounds me
But I can see the garden in my head
all is well
No wall will stand in my way
If they're too tall, I'll go beneath them
Cut me down, you'll just go through me
Cut me down, you'll just go through me
I am forever
I am forever I
And me you've never really seen
Even when I leave this face behind
There's got to be another place to find
Where I really belong
'Cause here I don't belong
Here I do not belong
So I write this song of mine
To soothe my ears and ease my mind
And so another written page
Will turn into the everflow
Will no one ever really know about me
Should they even care
A strange little man
Racing all his bubbles to the surface of the universe
To see if he could swin out of his own mind
And as he looked behind, he realized what he had escaped
He thought that alone he would float out in space for awhile
God damn mother gonna try to take me down
Take a place in line
Just lead your pigs into the slaughter
Thank you perry for the idea man
Oh, by the way I want to meet you one day
Thank you for the way you sang to me
Lyrics submitted by headbang666
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