"I'm Not Who I Was" as written by and Brandon Heath....
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was

I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was

I found my way around
To forgiving you some time ago
But I never got to tell you so

I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was

You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was

When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend it was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you

I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was

I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was

I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know that I am not the same
But I never did forget your name, hello

Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about

I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was

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"I'm Not Who I Was" as written by Brandon Heath

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    General CommentIf you go onto the Brandon Heath Myspace there is a video of him talking about it.

    Its about seeing someone he hasnt seen in a long time, and the pain that he feels remembering that person. He apparently wrote almost as a letter to the person, just so that he could get the pain out there, and finally move on.

    I think it might be about someone who either led him astray, or who hurt him somehow, and he wants them to see that he has become a good, righteous and holy person, and also to show his forgiveness.
    LeishSpaceon July 02, 2007   Link
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    General CommentThis song makes me think of how we change once we become born again and ask God into our hearts. We are no longer the people we use to be. We can look back at relationships, friendships, old times - and we can see that we no longer see things the same, feel the same.

    I thought the other day how I have not changed much. I thought about how I am the same old person I use to be. Then, I remembered the day my eyes were opened and I SAW things differently. This alone, seeing things differently, changed WHO I was.

    If only those people we once knew, before we were saved, could understand this change. We want them to know what it feels like - but it's hard to explain. It's amazing and above all, God's grace, His amazing grace, is a free gift given to us to accept.

    I think of my brother singing this song to me from heaven. He is one person who is no longer WHO he was. And now, my bro, can completely understand God's amazing grace. Love ya, Josh, and miss you!

    God bless all those who read this. I pray Jesus touch your life and show you His grace like He did me. I pray that all know, discover, and accept His free gift.
    hfaith209on January 01, 2008   Link
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    General CommentI'm not sure that this is what it means, but I think its about a son singing about his dead father. Its touching and a little sad because the father won't be able to see his son again in the flesh. WOOHOO, IM THE 1ST TO WRITE IN A MEANING!
    smithylauon June 11, 2007   Link
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    General CommentA man who would like to be forgiven by someone but won't really come out and say it. It's an awesome song and gives me goosebumps.
    posters5704on September 12, 2007   Link
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    General CommentWell the lyrics on this page are wrong...it should be "And the thing I find most amazing in amazing grace is the chance to give it out. Maybe that's what love is all about." Like some of yall said, he's talking about forgiveness of others. God gave us the amazing opportunity to bestow his grace onto others :) and maybe that's what God meant when he told us to love one another.
    lg4026on November 19, 2007   Link
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    General CommentThis song speaks to me because my father skipped out on me a week before my 18th b-day. Now 6 years later, a wife and a mother of a beautiful baby boy and I am at a place where I can identify with these lyrics.

    Also, I mainly wrote this post hoping that the user named HFAITH209 would contact me. I lost my brother, also named Josh, on March 18, 2007. I read your journal about your brother, and the only difference between our situations is that my bro was only 21 when he died. Your words spoke to me so clearly and I'd like to discuss this more with you privately.
    Please no spam, guys. My email is ladyzadie222@yahoo.com. Thank you!
    ladyzadieon January 17, 2008   Link
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    General CommentI met Brandon at a young life banquet. If i remember right he said that this song was written because of his father (who's not dead) but he said that they're much better now
    jakemw88on March 24, 2008   Link
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    General CommentTo me this song is talking about God. He's saying that hes not who he used to be. He changed...Now he has God and is happy.
    surrendered2GODon March 24, 2008   Link
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    General Commentthis song reminds me of my friend, who took his life in march of last year. after his death, i went through a drastic change, a good change. i'm so much closer to God, and i understand so much more aabout life and everything. i said somethings to my friend i wish i could take back, and i wish i could show him now that i'm not who i was.
    i really love this song. :D
    trumpetrocks777on July 26, 2008   Link
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    General Commenti love the part where he goes;

    thinkin it's a funny thing,
    figured out i can sing
    now am not who i was.
    i write about love and such
    maybe coz i want it so much
    am not who i was..

    that's the joy of freedom in Christ.u learn stuff about yourself that surprises even you coz no one eva believed in u enough before.but Jesus does,and it's a joy!!He shows you how much potential there is in you;what He desires to use.

    i write about love alot too,guess i want it so much too.but then,don't we all??
    purplieon April 28, 2009   Link

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