@[Diderik:33655] "Your a holiday!" Was a popular term used in the 50s/60s to compliment someone on their all around. For example, not only are they beautiful, but they are fun and kind too ... just an all around "holiday".
I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was
I found my way around
To forgiving you some time ago
But I never got to tell you so
I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was
When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend it was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you
I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was
I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know that I am not the same
But I never did forget your name, hello
Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was
I found my way around
To forgiving you some time ago
But I never got to tell you so
I found us in a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh
You know, I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever loved me
Just for who I was
When the pain came back again
Like a bitter friend it was all that I could do
To keep myself from blaming you
I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out I can sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
I'm not who I was
I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know that I am not the same
But I never did forget your name, hello
Well the thing I find most amazing
In amazing grace is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
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I'm Not Who I Was Lyrics as written by Brandon Heath
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If you go onto the Brandon Heath Myspace there is a video of him talking about it.
Its about seeing someone he hasnt seen in a long time, and the pain that he feels remembering that person. He apparently wrote almost as a letter to the person, just so that he could get the pain out there, and finally move on.
I think it might be about someone who either led him astray, or who hurt him somehow, and he wants them to see that he has become a good, righteous and holy person, and also to show his forgiveness.
you are correct. I am going to throw in names just to make this easier to understand.<br /> <br /> So one day Matt and Rachel meet and have a good relationship, but then the relationship falls apart. then sometime later the friendship falls apart. Now Matt is trying to convince Rachel that he has changed. the only problem is that Rachel doesnt know if she can be friends with him ever again.
This song makes me think of how we change once we become born again and ask God into our hearts. We are no longer the people we use to be. We can look back at relationships, friendships, old times - and we can see that we no longer see things the same, feel the same.
I thought the other day how I have not changed much. I thought about how I am the same old person I use to be. Then, I remembered the day my eyes were opened and I SAW things differently. This alone, seeing things differently, changed WHO I was.
If only those people we once knew, before we were saved, could understand this change. We want them to know what it feels like - but it's hard to explain. It's amazing and above all, God's grace, His amazing grace, is a free gift given to us to accept.
I think of my brother singing this song to me from heaven. He is one person who is no longer WHO he was. And now, my bro, can completely understand God's amazing grace. Love ya, Josh, and miss you!
God bless all those who read this. I pray Jesus touch your life and show you His grace like He did me. I pray that all know, discover, and accept His free gift.
I'm not sure that this is what it means, but I think its about a son singing about his dead father. Its touching and a little sad because the father won't be able to see his son again in the flesh. WOOHOO, IM THE 1ST TO WRITE IN A MEANING!
A man who would like to be forgiven by someone but won't really come out and say it. It's an awesome song and gives me goosebumps.
Well the lyrics on this page are wrong...it should be "And the thing I find most amazing in amazing grace is the chance to give it out. Maybe that's what love is all about." Like some of yall said, he's talking about forgiveness of others. God gave us the amazing opportunity to bestow his grace onto others :) and maybe that's what God meant when he told us to love one another.
This song speaks to me because my father skipped out on me a week before my 18th b-day. Now 6 years later, a wife and a mother of a beautiful baby boy and I am at a place where I can identify with these lyrics.
Also, I mainly wrote this post hoping that the user named HFAITH209 would contact me. I lost my brother, also named Josh, on March 18, 2007. I read your journal about your brother, and the only difference between our situations is that my bro was only 21 when he died. Your words spoke to me so clearly and I'd like to discuss this more with you privately. Please no spam, guys. My email is ladyzadie222@yahoo.com. Thank you!
I met Brandon at a young life banquet. If i remember right he said that this song was written because of his father (who's not dead) but he said that they're much better now
To me this song is talking about God. He's saying that hes not who he used to be. He changed...Now he has God and is happy.
this song reminds me of my friend, who took his life in march of last year. after his death, i went through a drastic change, a good change. i'm so much closer to God, and i understand so much more aabout life and everything. i said somethings to my friend i wish i could take back, and i wish i could show him now that i'm not who i was. i really love this song. :D
i love the part where he goes;
thinkin it's a funny thing, figured out i can sing now am not who i was. i write about love and such maybe coz i want it so much am not who i was..
that's the joy of freedom in Christ.u learn stuff about yourself that surprises even you coz no one eva believed in u enough before.but Jesus does,and it's a joy!!He shows you how much potential there is in you;what He desires to use.
i write about love alot too,guess i want it so much too.but then,don't we all??