I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
I want to crawl back inside my mother's womb
I want to shut out all the lights in this room
I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that I think of you
So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil,
Feel like I watch from six feet under the soil
Still, want to hold you and kiss behind your ears,
But I recount the countless tears that I lost for you
But before you finally go there's one thing you should know, that I promise
Starting now, I'll never know your name
Starting now, I'll never feel the same
Starting now, I wish you never came into my world
I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin
I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains
Spinning away every piece that remains of you
But before you finally go there's one thing you should know, that I promise
Starting now, I'll never know your name
Starting now, I'll never feel the same
Starting now, I wish you never came into my world
It's my world, it's not ours anymore
It's my world, it's not ours anymore
Starting now, I'll never know your name
Starting now, I'll never feel the same
Starting now, I wish you never came into my world
I want to shut out all the lights in this room
I want to start fresh, like a baby in a sink
Scrub away all these thoughts that I think of you
So life moves slowly when you're waiting for it to boil,
Feel like I watch from six feet under the soil
Still, want to hold you and kiss behind your ears,
But I recount the countless tears that I lost for you
But before you finally go there's one thing you should know, that I promise
Starting now, I'll never know your name
Starting now, I'll never feel the same
Starting now, I wish you never came into my world
I want to crawl back inside my bed of sin
I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin
Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains
Spinning away every piece that remains of you
But before you finally go there's one thing you should know, that I promise
Starting now, I'll never know your name
Starting now, I'll never feel the same
Starting now, I wish you never came into my world
It's my world, it's not ours anymore
It's my world, it's not ours anymore
Starting now, I'll never know your name
Starting now, I'll never feel the same
Starting now, I wish you never came into my world
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I think you all are right. But I think more specifically it's about an affair, whether the guy was with someone else or she was. "Bed of sin" and all the baby metaphors make it sound like she was doing something she felt was wrong and "unclean" and is eager to start fresh and be reborn. She says she wants to burn the sheets, I think she wants to completely lose it and do something drastic, but instead she'll just clean them, just quietly move on and be strong, no matter how much it hurts. That's my take on it.
She is going to embrace her independence, starting now. Great song - I can relate.
This song sounds like she is forcing herself to forget about someone she once loved.... beautiful
This song is about the end of a relationship, when you're finally letting yourself breakaway, even though you don't want to. However, you realise that the only thing you can do is make a clean break. Just completely put them out of your life and mind, and doing what you need to do to get over them.
This song made me cry. Really, really cry. I don't think it's exactly about 'embracing your independence,' i think it's about moving on, but only because you know that the other person is sick of you. And you care about them, so you don't want to make them be with you when they don't want to.
Oh man. I interpreted this song in a similar way. Maybe because what you described is what I went through with my ex boyfriend :(
this song means so much to me, i relate to so much of it. it almost seems like the only way to get over him is just to start over. and delete him. it hurts.
december14 i would have never thought that but your right that makes so much sense & how she says "life moves slowly when your waiting for it to boil" like she was waiting for something more to come from the affair & realized that that would never happen.
This has to be my favorite Song by Ingrid Michaelson. I think it's that feeling as mentioned before as "embrace her independence", but I just know the feeling so well...the feeling one gets when everything goes wrong and there's just a moment where you realize that you can get over it.
Such a beautiful, heartbreaking song. About cleansing yourself of your heartbreak, washing your sheets to wash it away, trying to cut him out of your mind and your life. "I want to burn the sheets that smell like your skin/Instead I'll wash them just like kitchen rags with stains/Spinning away every piece that remains of you." What amazing lines. "Starting now I'll never know your name." Just trying to completely forget about it.
Like most personal interpretations, this is poignant for me, right now. Finally letting go. Finally.