"Fast car" is kind of a continuation of Bruce Springsteen's "Born to Run." It has all the clawing your way to a better life, but in this case the protagonist never makes it with her love; in fact she is dragged back down by him.
There is still an amazing amount of hope and will in the lyrics; and the lyrics themselve rank and easy five. If only music was stronger it would be one of those great radio songs that you hear once a week 20 years after it was released. The imagery is almost tear-jerking ("City lights lay out before us", "Speeds so fast felt like I was drunk"), and the idea of starting from nothing and just driving and working and denigrating yourself for a chance at being just above poverty, then losing in the end is just painful and inspiring at the same time.
So I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave, you'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days but it's too late, too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you, your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know, I'd let you know
All along I was faking my own suicide because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide, because you know
Because you know you will never leave my sight
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
So overjoyed with the love that's so alive, our love is so alive
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention, I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave, you'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days but it's too late, too late for you to say
Because I'm faking my own suicide because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide, they'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you, your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know, I'd let you know
All along I was faking my own suicide because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide, because you know
Because you know you will never leave my sight
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah, we'll laugh and we will cry
So overjoyed with the love that's so alive, our love is so alive
Lyrics submitted by Spitterman
Faking My Own Suicide Lyrics as written by Matthew Thiessen
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Capitol CMG Publishing
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Ok my interpretation is that this guy is terrified. i think he's realizing that his girl may just break up with him because she doesn't love him but hes makaing this plan to fake his own suicide. Because if someone dies of course they'll be sad. he wants her to realize that she DOES love him. and then he'll come out and say that he was just pretending. He's scared. he doesnt want to be depressed when she lets him go. he needs and does love her. and so if he "dies" she'll be depressed instead.
Even though this band is a christian band. and don't get me wrong i love this band and i have for years. but i just dont see this song as being seen with a connection with christ. i think its a relationship of a boy and girl. Because why would they talk about jesus faking his suicide...this song clearly states for one person to realize she loves him. but jesus did it for everyone. thanks indiaisaprincess :)