From the scrapes and bruises
to the familiar abuses
I'll kick and scream
But it never changes anything
I could spill my guts out
Wearing my best little girl pout
I almost missed it
But nobody said this was gonna be easy

This is not the man I hoped to be
and I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
and all my faces are alibis, and me
I'm half the man I wanted to be

Most times it comes out wrong
I don't know the words but I'll hum along
There's nothing familiar here anymore
to anyone or anything enough to feel alive

And I still taste that sickness
and it makes me crazy without it at best
But I'm in the same place i used to be
but i'm trying harder not to be

So what am I
And all my,
All my faces are alibis
This is not the man I hoped to be
and I'm just trying to stop the bleeding

I don't know how the words go
I just started not to say no

Don't want it, don't get it
I know you won't regret it
Don't surface, don't surface,
And I feel so damn worthless

Another day is gone
and all my faces are alibis,
and me,
I'm half the man I wanted to be.




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    General CommentGorgeous song. I can't believe there are no comments yet. So, basically.. I think the song is about bulemia and self-mutilation and how he's trying to get better. Not sure, but still a gorgeous song. I love how it starts out so soft.
    RosesAtSunseton March 05, 2007   Link
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    General CommentFrom the scrapes and bruises
    to the familiar abuses

    -->When someone has bulimia, they'll shove their fingers down their throat and usually scrape their knuckles on their teeth thus creating scrapes and bruises.

    I'll kick and scream
    But it never changes anything
    I could spill my guts out

    -->Kicking and screaming when someone force-feeds you, and obviously it doesn't change a damn thing. You'll still eat, and still puke it up. Or ''spill your guts out''.

    Wearing my best little girl pout
    I almost missed it
    But nobody said this was gonna be easy

    --> nobody told this person that the disorder was going to be "easy," that getting thin was going to be the easiest thing to do.

    This is not the man I hoped to be
    and I'm just trying to stop the bleeding

    --> if you puke enough, eventually you'll puke up blood, and your gag reflux will go haywire, and you'll basically be a puking machine. not only this, but your knuckles will be bleeding... I think he's saying that being a bulimic is not the type of person/man he wanted to be. it's not something he's exactly proud of.

    I don't know how to word it
    I just started to deserve it

    --> eating disorders are considered mental diseases where the victim believes he or she deserves this punishment because they see themselves as fat and needing help to cure this mass amount of weight. (what a long sentence).

    and all my faces are alibis, and me
    I'm half the man I wanted to be

    --> i'm not sure about the second line, but basically what Billytalents said... (look above)

    Most times it comes out wrong
    I don't know the words but I'll hum along

    --> well, lies. I'm guessing. if you have an eating disorder, you're not going to walk around saying, ''no thanks. it's not that i'm not hungry..it's that i have an eating disorder so i don't eat...ever.'' so there's a type of ''tune'' you have to play when you have disordered eating. maybe he's new to the disorder. he hasn't yet learned how to lie successfully yet, so he ''hums along''...watches and learns, if you will...mind you, I'm guessing at the lyric meanings.

    There's nothing familiar here anymore
    to anyone or anything enough to feel alive

    --> puking your guts up, starving yourself to death...you eventually stop feeling real. you feel like you're looking through a mirror, watching yourself from someone else's eyes... and there are days when you feel like you don't want to go on, days you feel like you're not going to make it alive by the time the sun comes up, again...

    And I still taste that sickness
    and it makes me crazy without it at best

    --> ugh. bulimics puke. when you puke, you taste everything you ate. it's interesting. sometimes it tastes better than when you ate it...sometimes not. after a while with an eating disorder you begin to feel like it's apart of you. without it, you'd go crazy-psychotic. i think the author of this song is trying to tell you about leaving his disorder, but he can't get rid of it, he's in too deep.

    But I'm in the same place i used to be
    but i'm trying harder not to be

    --> -sigh- weight fluctuations. I'm guessing he's talking about being at the same weight, and trying not to be. Either that or being at the lowest point of the disorder where he can no longer digest any food, so he's struggling, and trying not to be at that low point any longer.

    So what am I
    And all my,
    All my faces are alibis
    This is not the man I hoped to be
    and I'm just trying to stop the bleeding

    -->(see above)

    I don't know how the words go
    I just started not to say no

    --> maybe saying no to the food. saying no to puking...

    Don't want it, don't get it
    I know you won't regret it
    Don't surface, don't surface,
    And I feel so damn worthless

    --> Don't want the disease, telling others not to get it. or telling himself that he doesn't understand it. Feeling worthless and fat.

    Another day is gone

    --> remember that part where i said the thing about not knowing if they'll survive for the next day? Another day is gone, his faces are still alibis... -sigh-

    and all my faces are alibis,
    and me,
    I'm half the man I wanted to be.



    ~~> sorry if it's not "quality" it's late, i'm manic, and tired. And this was speaking from experience...and my brain isn't working...it's shrunk from lack of food. -sleeping wink-
    torturetoyon August 05, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI agree, this song is so pretty and amazing. It's not exactly DIFFERENT from Mariana's Trench, but it's a nice change. :) I love all their other stuff just as much, though. Can't believe I'm the second comment.
    RosesAtSunset, you must of felt weird commenting first, I know I always do!
    :D

    This song to me, is so true.

    Instead of my usual comments of listing EVERY SINGLE LINE and giving my point of view on it, I'll just pick one line. One of my favorite lines.

    "All my faces are alibis"

    -An Alibi is almost like a substitute or if you look in another direction, something fake or a lie.
    I think this song is about self-mutilation, maybe bulimia (Like RosesAtSunset said. :] ) and about how disappointed he is with himself. He's saying that every smile, every laugh, every postive feeling he expresses is an Alibi to hide what he truly feels.
    TheBillyTalentson April 16, 2007   Link
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    General CommentSOMEONE POST THE LYRICS TO THEIR NEW SONG "FIX ME" WHICH IS NOW AVAILABLE ON ITUNES FOR $.99!
    musiquenoteson August 03, 2007   Link
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    General Commentand when he says trying to stop the bleeding he is either talking about how he cuts himself or just in an emotional figurative... what are you on?
    musiquenoteson August 08, 2007   Link
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    General CommentThis is an amazing song, the instruments mesh well together and Josh's voice is so beautiful.

    I agree with the bulimia theory. I can sum it up in this line, I think. Or at least, make it a bit clearer. Hopefully. =).

    "I'm half the man i wanted to be."

    He's not who he wanted to see himself when he was older, he didn't want to be a guy with eating disorders and so many issues, basically, he's disappointed in himself.
    Fallen Leaveson September 17, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think torturetoy was taking the lyrics a little too literally...I don't think this song is totally about bulimia.

    Most of the other posts sum it up how i would...he's disappointed in himself.
    anna.stheticon October 08, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think the bulemia, the drug addiction, just typically not being the person he had seen himself being, disappointing his own expectations as well as his parents/friends, is the fuel for this song.
    Fallen Leaveson October 08, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think this song can apply to many things.. It's one of those songs that kinda.. I think pretty much everyone has a situation they can apply it to. It just makes me think of how people cover up what they're actually feeling.. It's a great song tho and one of my favourites on the album.
    NeonFlameon October 18, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI also agree with the bulimia theory/eating disorder theory.
    I'm pretty sure I read somewhere that Josh did have an eating disorder, so that is where the lyrics come from.
    kristen.,!on November 03, 2007   Link

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