Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
It's okay in the day
I'm staying busy
Tied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is he
Got so sick of crying
So just lately
When I catch myself, I do a one-eighty
I stay up, clean the house
At least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content
That everyone gets
Just disappears 'soon as the sun sets
He's fierce in my dreams, seizing my guts
He floats me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in
And I wake up alone
If I was my heart
I'd rather be restless
The second I stop, the sleep catches up
And I'm breathless
'Cause this ache in my chest
As my day is done now
The dark covers me, and I cannot run now
My blood running cold
I stand before him (before him, I)
It's all I can do to assure him (assure him)
When he comes to me
I drip for him tonight
Drowning in me, we bathe under blue light
He's fierce in my dreams, seizing my guts
He floats me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
I'm staying busy
Tied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is he
Got so sick of crying
So just lately
When I catch myself, I do a one-eighty
I stay up, clean the house
At least I'm not drinking
Run around just so I don't have to think about thinking
That silent sense of content
That everyone gets
Just disappears 'soon as the sun sets
He's fierce in my dreams, seizing my guts
He floats me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in
And I wake up alone
If I was my heart
I'd rather be restless
The second I stop, the sleep catches up
And I'm breathless
'Cause this ache in my chest
As my day is done now
The dark covers me, and I cannot run now
My blood running cold
I stand before him (before him, I)
It's all I can do to assure him (assure him)
When he comes to me
I drip for him tonight
Drowning in me, we bathe under blue light
He's fierce in my dreams, seizing my guts
He floats me with dread
Soaked in soul
He swims in my eyes by the bed
Pour myself over him
Moon spilling in
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
And I wake up alone
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Pretty sure I'm the only person who thinks this song isn't about a break up. I think the guy Amy sang about was still very much in her life. What makes me think that is the line 'we bathe under blue light', she's singing in the present. I think it could be about an on/off relationship she was having with this guy. If you've heard her previous album Frank then this might make a little more sense. She sings a lot about relationships where people use each other purely for the physical benefits, but I think she got attached. The same theme can be heard in Tears Dry on Their Own, a relationship where she knew was getting used but she didn't mind. In this song I think the waking up alone could be about how the guy doesn't commit to her, he's no there in the morning, he's no her boyfriend, he probably doesn't love her. He might be on her mind all the time because she is falling for him. The 'bathe under blue light' could also be referring to the faint blueish/blackish light in the early hours of the morning when the room starts to get lighter and it almost looks blue. The line 'pour myself over him' I think refers to how she's given him everything, literally given herself over to him but no love has been given in return. I don't know, when I hear this song I just don't see it as a break up. I feel like even the way she sings it she sounds more frustrated than heartbroken, restless not necessarily upset. She has Love is a Losing Game and Back to Black as break up songs, the tone to them is different from this song. I really feel like its a song about being used but that's just my opinion :)
@Hallucination95 I just watched a live version at Glastonbury on Youtube where Amy gives an introduction. She said it was about breaking up with someone, how you can keep busy in the day to stop you thinking about it but at night, when time on your hands to think or when you dream you have no control over what might come into your head. That was my interpretation, check out the video and hear Amy explain herself. <br /> Not taking away your interpretation, that is why songs mean so much to so many people, we all can hear our own story in the song, I think a song can mean anything you want it to....