How many days
are your afraid of turning off?
You'd be amazed how easy
it's been to sleepwalk.
I'm in a state where I can't tell
what's right from wrong
I'm making a face
that I've been holding for far too long

I'm on the cross, I'm on the cross
Nothing to hide when all is lost
I'm on the cross, I'm on the cross
Truth or a lie, which could be worse?
Which could be--

How many days until
I can see that I'm just fine?
I try and I try but I just need a little time
I haven't slept in one month
things just don't seem okay
And every time the sun's up
it's a new yesterday

I'm on the cross, I'm on the cross
Nothing to hide when all is lost
I'm on the cross, I'm on the cross
Truth or a lie, which could be worse?
Which could be--

Drill the pressure right out of my head.
Maybe I'm scared,
Maybe I am
Drill the pressure right out of my head.
Maybe I'm scared,
Maybe I am

Weak and paranoid
When I speak, white noise
pours out from my voice.
Every time I move my lips, it tears
your little ears to bits
I'm frozen all the time, a deer in headlights
I'll get to the point:
You can't depend on love or truth
to get you through

Do you want me to explain?
Are you broken at the bone?
Do you try and rearrange
a better life,
a bigger home?
So turn off the lights
or at least unplug the phone
I'm a threat when I'm left alone
How many days
are you afraid of turning off?
Do you feel like letting go?

It's been a good life, I'll be sad to see it go


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    General CommentAnd every time the sun's up its a new yesterday..fuckin brilliant
    SekajSKEon October 04, 2010   Link
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    General Commentthese are kind of off.
    tjwellson August 16, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI love this song.
    fivergirlon April 27, 2007   Link
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    General Commentthis song is obviously about a guy that is suffering. he can't sleep, and when he does he sleepwalks, hes under pressure, he can't tell what is what, and is justifying his suicide.
    "It's been a good life, I'll be sad to see it go"
    COLLIE_MANon April 27, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think it's about contemplating suicide. Wanting it but not having enough courage to go through with it. Possibly asking some one to join in. That's just my opinion though. Great song.
    PixelsAndSoundson October 08, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI think the character in this song is severely depressed. So many things could have happened to him to get him to this state, but he's there, and he wishes he weren't. His way out is suicide. Everything in his life is blurring out, and if it were possible, he'd turn his life off for a moment to recollect. However, he knows that if he turns it off, there's no turning it back on, and he's reasoning with himself to the point of deciding.. it's worth it.
    AMonet27on March 31, 2008   Link
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    General CommentThis is about a man giving up on life...the term sleepwalking isnt meant to be literal i don't think..its more of a adjective here instead of an action. He's living his life on autopilot. going through the motions..not caring about anything. He knows alot of people crowd themselves out with people and are constantly busy and trying to stay busy. Thats why he says are you afraid of turning off? He has no right or wrong because he simply doesn't care. He's a deer in headlights..not knowing wich direction to turn but not caring wich direction to go. Its a very existentialist point of view represented here but it also captures society's business What he does is a form of "sleepwalking" but are the people that are so busy and scared to turn off living life on autopilot just as much as he is?

    this song makes me think.
    sarahbearon May 27, 2009   Link
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    My InterpretationI don't know, I kind of thought of this song as meaning that the character is pretending to be someone / something he isn't, and he feels like he lost everything and is martyring himself (I'm not an extremely religious person, but he does say "I'm on the cross") and things aren't okay, it's more like a cry for help. And as for accusing the person he's speaking to about wanting a better life or bigger home, that's what he thought he wanted but he lost himself trying to "rearrange" his life. He is scared and is trying to explain it to someone he feels like he's losing. I never really thought of it meaning suicide until really thinking about it, but I think it's more like "truth or a lie" continuing living a lie or die in truth. He's confessing something, he can't handle what's going on in his life, and he's letting someone know that. I don't think he really wants to commit, but he's struggling with tons of emotions.

    At least that's my personal interpretation...
    elphie15on June 17, 2009   Link
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    General CommentI know there was a song about a friend of the band who commited suicide when they were in highschool. This might be it...
    mandycandy123on May 08, 2010   Link
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    General CommentThis is my lengthy analysis, including some obvious details in addition to the main points.

    "How many days are you afraid
    of turning off?
    You'd be amazed how easy
    it's been to sleepwalk."

    The speaker wants to "turn off," or escape from his life, temporarily or otherwise. He feels he's sleepwalking, because he's so lost in his head he doesn't even feel like he's present in his own life, like he's on auto-pilot mode.

    "I'm in a state where I can't tell what's right from wrong
    I'm making a face
    that I've been holding for far too long."

    The fundamental concepts of right and wrong aren't even clear to him because he's so confused about everything. And he's finally outwardly showing the depression he has been hiding for so long, maybe because he's too mentally drained to put on a façade anymore.

    "I'm on the cross
    There's nothing to hide when all is lost.
    I'm on the cross"

    He's in despair, so what's the point of hiding his feelings or keeping up appearances? I also think that "I'm on the cross," has a double meaning. It could mean he's at a crossroads of living or choosing death, or metaphorically being like Jesus on the cross tortured and dying.

    "A truth or a lie, which could be worse?"

    My idea is that the "truth" to him may be that life is essentially meaningless and futile. The "lie" could be everything in life we distract ourselves with to avoid thinking about this ultimate "truth" and our inevitable death. He doesn't know whether the truth is worse or trying to live in the lie.

    "How many days until
    I can see that I'm just fine?
    I try and I try but I just need a little time
    I haven't slept in one month
    things just don't seem okay
    And every time the sun's up
    it's a new yesterday"

    He's waiting and trying to snap back to normal and feel fine, and he also feels like he's living the same day over and over because his life has stagnated.

    "Drill the pressure right out of my head.
    Maybe I'm scared.
    Maybe I am
    weak and paranoid"

    A long time ago, people used to drill holes into peoples' heads as a medical practice to cure them of certain diseases or mental illnesses. He's referencing that and saying maybe that would cure him of the "pressure" in his head and his weakness and paranoia, as if he were a mental patient.

    "When I speak white noise
    pours out from my voice.
    Every time I move my lips, it tears
    your little ears to bits"

    This either means he thinks his words are meaningless like white noise, or that he can't communicate properly with anyone because a metaphorical white noise (muddled thoughts) is making his voice unheard/unclear. And someone he's talking to can't stand to listen to his dark thoughts and fears because they're too disturbed by it.

    "I'm frozen all the time, a deer in headlights
    I'll get to the point
    you can't depend on love or truth
    to get your through"

    His life is stagnant, and he feels like nothing, even things as great as truth or love, will get him through his misery.

    "Do you want me to explain?
    Are you broken at the bone?
    Do you try and rearrange
    a better life,
    a bigger home?"

    As I said before, he thinks that his life is empty and he can't fix it or hide the problem with vain pursuits (e.g. trying to get rich).

    "So turn off the lights
    or at least unplug the phone
    I'm a threat when I'm left alone
    How many days
    are you afraid of turning off?
    Do you feel like letting go?"

    He wants to hide and cut himself off from others. And by "I'm a threat when I'm left alone" he means he's a suicide risk.

    "It's been a good life, I'll be sad to see it go"

    He's reflecting on the good parts of his life, presumably before he finally commits suicide. He's sad to end his life because this was his last resort after his options seemingly ran out.
    pianoguy72on July 28, 2011   Link

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