I never wanted to be better than my friends
I just wanted to prove wrong the people in my head
the ones who told me I'd be better off dead
the ones who told me that I would never win

when I delivered newspapers they said I was too slow
when I was a barista they said I made lousy foam
when I worked in retail they said I was a slob
much too dumb for school and much too lazy for a job

so I rode my bike like lightning
and I made cappuccinos that would make the angels sing
took two showers a day and I dressed up like a princess
shook my fist in my own face and said I'll show you who's the best

I wrote the kinds of papers teachers hang up on their walls
I was employee of the month at seven different shopping malls
and one time playing football I pulled the tendons in my leg
to prove that I was tough I hopped on one foot
and finished up the game

I thought if I succeeded I'd be happy and they'd go away
but first thing every morning I'd still wake up and I'd hear them say
"you're fat, ugly, and stupid, you should really be ashamed
no one will ever like you you're not good at anything"

and sometimes I'd rise to the challenge
but other times I'd feel so bad that I could not get out of bed
and on the days I stayed in bed I sang and sang and sang
about how crappy I felt not realizing how many other people would relate

now people send me emails that say thanks for saying the things they didn't know how to say
and the people in my head still visit me sometimes
and they bring all of their friends but I don't mind
I play my guitar like lightning
when I sing I like it when you sing too loud and clear
different voices different tones all sayin' "yeah, we're not alone"
I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here
I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here
I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here


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    General Commenti'm surprised no one has commented on this song.
    i don't even have to say it, because she says it in this song, but i'd just like to shake her hand for writing songs that everyone can relate to. perfect lyrics. perfect.
    covet____on February 05, 2007   Link
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    General Comment"i got good at feeling bad and thats why im still here"

    isnt that why were all still here...
    love this song
    Kimya sings this in such an upbeat manner , that the slightly depressing lyrics still sound cheerfull
    jellyboneson February 05, 2007   Link
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    General Commentthis song is MY song i love her soo bad for writing this
    roomonfire07on May 11, 2007   Link
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    General CommentThis song got me through finals week this year.
    From the album credits: Originally written for esopus magazine #4 imaginary friends compilation, loosely based on a story by Mia Gomez.
    Ide(a) Of Marchon May 31, 2007   Link
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    General Commentstrange how i listened to this song for the first time 5 minutes ago and started crying. strange. i do relate. in almost everyway. i was good or got good. and i have lately gotten better and better and better at being sad. my writing has gotten better and better. this is not a good example. oh yeah. i do have penis. i shouldn't cry like that at nothing. i have problems. but problems are what build success, or so i'd like to think. i shall see. why am i posting this.
    iLikeIton April 13, 2013   Link

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