"I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)" as written by and John Mayer....
No, I'm not the man I used to be lately
See, you met me at an interesting time
And if my past is any sign of your future
You should be warned before I let you inside

Hold on to whatever you find, baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find, baby
I don't trust myself with lovin' you

I will beg my way into your garden
Then I'll break my way out when it rains
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again
(I don't really understand)

Hold on to whatever you find, baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find, baby
I don't trust myself with lovin' you

Who do you love?
Girl, I see through, through your love
Who do you love?
Me or the thought of me?
Me or the thought of me?

Hold on to whatever you find, baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find, baby
I don't trust myself with lovin' you

Hold on to whatever you find, baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find, baby
I don't trust myself with lovin' you
I don't trust myself with lovin' you
I don't trust myself with lovin' you
I don't trust myself with lovin' you
I don't trust myself with lovin' you
I don't trust myself with lovin' you.


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"I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)" as written by John Clayton Mayer

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  • +2
    General CommentThis song for me is a story of the past year of my life.. even though I am a girl, I play the role john did in this song. I met my boyfriend at an interesting time.. a time where I no longer had no idea who the hell I was anymore. I just had horrible things happen that affected me enought to change myself. I told him that he should be warned when he met me. He asked me on a date and I said "no you dont want to get into this'. he wouldn't give up but even when I said yes, I still told him that he didn't want to get into this.
    I didn't trust myself with love and still dont.

    when john says he will beg is way into the garden and get back out when it rains.. i dont think he is saying that he wants to 'duck out' when bad times hit. that would make him a jerk.. and john is nothing less than wonderful. he says that he would do it just to watch her back all over again.. i think that means that he wants to see her back again when she is happy even if that means he has to go through the sorrow again..shes worth it.
    i would go back through all my heartache just to see my friend last year be happy again. but i cant.. you cant change the past and that is why i dont trust myself with love. i want my boyfriend to hold onto whatever he can to get him through. even if its not me.. cuz my relationship is for him.
    abeautifulstoryon November 27, 2007   Link
  • +2
    General Commentwow.
    its weird when you realize that you weren't in love with someone..
    you were in love with the thought of them.


    i love this song.
    it made me realize a lot.
    duhhxsteeon May 12, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General Commentit's kind of like he's afraid of getting too close, and at the same time he's afraid of letting her get too close. he's had something happen to him in his past that has changed him, and he doesn't want her to get hurt because of it.

    she doesn't know the real him yet because he hasn't "let her inside", but she is falling for who she thinks he is ("who do you love, me or the thought of me?")

    great song...this is one of my favorites on continuum.
    amster8on October 02, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentIt should be noted that there's a crucial point that has been lost due to incorrect lyrics.

    Who do you love?
    Girl I see through, through your love
    Who do you love me or the thought of me? Me or the thought of me?

    That being stated, I agree with amster8, but I also feel as if he's express that she may only be with him because of what she knows of him, or her idealized picture put into place in her mind. It makes sense. He states he can see through her love, and her love is merely what she thinks him to be. His first verse is a warning of the beginning of the relationship they're about to enter. In the second verse, he expresses that he would choose to end the relationship and start over again.
    SyckProfessoron October 20, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI am deeply in love with this song. Especially the ending, when everything fades out except the horns....oh my god.
    jasonporter16on January 25, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Comment"no i'm not the man i used to be lately
    see you met me at an interesting time"

    whenever i listen to this song i'm reminded of the movie "fight club"
    MissBronon August 01, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthis is actually a song that was written a while ago just never released, much like "another kind of green" was
    Hatendencyon August 06, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentGreat song.

    The guy is at a stage in his life, where he has been acting differently, where he has not been himself. and a girl has fallen in love with him, now he is questioning this girl, wondering why she loves him. This guy is nervous about his true self, and doesnt trust himself with the girl. he is scared to love her because he is afraid he may go back to his old self, and he will dissapoint her, or he wont be what she expected.

    thats just what i think..
    if that makes any sense to anyone else..
    Doriason August 10, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe cliche'd title is annoying, but the non-chorus parts are pretty good. Continuum is so much different from Mayer's previous albums. I like it.
    crimsonlotuson October 19, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentamster8 - i think you've put it eloquently and perfectly. this song fits my life right now because i'm in the position of the girl in this song, and the guy i'm interested in is john ... my guy just broke up with his ex only a few days before we met for the first time and really hit it off - thus the "you met me at an interesting time" bit. things were going great for awhile until he backed away and became distant, all because of exactly what you said - he was both afraid of letting his own guard down and of me getting too close, and he told me all this. bad timing kinda sucks :(
    kellymac23on November 24, 2006   Link

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