Killing Myself Again

Deadstar Assembly

Every page of my suicide script
They all have a cross to bear
Like a hammer to the teeth
Answer my misguided prayer

Watch it kill you, watch it kill me
My hypocrisy is so sincere
Each dose of delusion
Becomes a feeding frenzy

Carving this message into my skin
Haunting me
This isn't the way I want to live
It's killing me
It's killing me
Carving this message into my skin
With not one shit left to give
I don't know if I'm gonna be
It's killing me
It's killing me to live

Killing myself again
Killing myself again
Killing myself again
I'm killing myself to live
Killing myself again
Killing myself again
Killing myself again
I kill myself to live

Carving this message into my skin
Haunting me
This isn't the way I want to live
It's killing me
It's killing me
Carving this message into my skin
With not one shit left to give
I don't know if I'm gonna be
It's killing me
It's killing me to live

Killing myself again
Killing myself to live
Killing myself again
Killing myself to live
I'm killing
I'm killing
I'm killing
I'm killing myself to live

Carving this message into my skin
Haunting me
This isn't the way I want to live
It's killing me
It's killing me
Carving this message into my skin
With not one shit left to give
I don't know if I'm gonna be
It's killing me
It's killing me to live



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    this is a suicide song.....apparently....and has much meaning....he can't bare to live cuas he carries the burden of guilt so heavily....he's lied to everyone and himself so much he began to believe in those lies...wich in turn caused everything to collapse....

    Azrael_13on May 17, 2007   Link
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    personally, i think this song is about doing drugs. For instance when he states that "its killing me to live" he could refer to the fact that he knows that hes damaging his body but he does it anyway because its fun and he feels alive but he could care less because he doesnt have "one shit left to give" I could be wrong, but thats the way i look at it

    lavaviper63on May 30, 2007   Link
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    he feels empty and sad or whatever other feelings he was feeling useing ( sounds like heroin) to feel alive and its destroying him slowly in the process its alot more than just that but thats the general meaning i took

    I really like this song and feel like i can connect with it

    cakeandsodon December 31, 2007   Link
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    just gonna say you guy's/girls have terrible grammar.

    KyleHeresyon October 24, 2008   Link

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