This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
The first day I saw her was at the train station,
She was half black half caucasian,
At first yo, I thought she was asian,
But as I get a bit closer her origin is blatent,
The best of both worlds, caramel complexion,
I swear when she smiled I almost got an erection,
Piercing green eyes that shine like emeralds,
Once she gave me the wink, could only think with my genitals,
She tells me her name as soon as I approach her,
It's Charmaine, Charmaine De La Rosa,
I say is that Spanish? She says yeah i say kosher,
Whole time I'm imaginin' what it'd be like to dose her,
Train pulls up and we get on it together,
Duration of the journey get to know each other better,
We exchange numbers and agree to meet afterwards,
She blows me a kiss and with that we parted,
CHORUS
One week and £20 phone credit later,
I don't just wanna juice this girl now i wanna date her,
She's got a great personality and sense of humour,
Next time we meet it just can't come any sooner,
We arrange to go out for a drink at a bar,
She's already there when I arrive and she looks the part,
Even more stunning than I remembered, fuckin' drop dead gorgeous,
Her ass is tight and her breasts are bloody enormous!
Hand in hand we walk over to the doorman,
He's got a big shiny head he looks like George Forman,
He lets her through and asks me for I.D,
I'm like what the hell you talkin' 'bout man, I'm 19?!
I whip my driver's license out and he lets me in,
Then I trip over a step, how embarassin',
Charmaine witnesses it all but pretends not to see,
I feel like a fool, she just thinks it's sweet...
CHORUS
The night goes a lot smoother than planned,
Apart from the little hiccup at the start it's all gone grand,
Whenever guys try and chirp she shows 'em the hand,
Turns down every dance sayin' I'm her man,
We get a cab back to my place where we get it on,
I take off my shirt she strips right down to the thong,
I marvel at her body, feluptuous curves,
She's a real woman no doubt about it, her,
Confidence is sky high, she's the one that's got,
Me on my back she's sayin' baby this is your night,
I'm like alright, it's worth a go i s'pose,
So we switch rows and she takes full control,
She starts slow, grindin' me softly,
Whilst kissin' yeah she's doin' me properly,
Just when I start thinkin' man this girl's gotta be,
From outta this world or somethin' 'cause she's shockin' me,
Never felt like this before, this was more than sex,
Sex was somethin' that you had with skets,
Somethin' the next day you'd regret,
With a girl you wish you'd never met,
Nuh-uh, no way man, this had to be love,
I couldn't believe I was sayin' it but that's what it was,
Like a leaf in the Autumn, I had fallen,
After that nothin' else seemed important,
CHORUS
So now it's time to hear my predicament, my catch 22,
I love this girl but now I have to cut her loose,
I was talkin' to one of my boys the very next day,
And I told him all about me and Charmaine,
He looks at me in a very strange way,
And asks me if De La Rosa is her surname,
If she's mixed race and her eyes are green,
I say yeah he replies blud, that girl's 14...
She was half black half caucasian,
At first yo, I thought she was asian,
But as I get a bit closer her origin is blatent,
The best of both worlds, caramel complexion,
I swear when she smiled I almost got an erection,
Piercing green eyes that shine like emeralds,
Once she gave me the wink, could only think with my genitals,
She tells me her name as soon as I approach her,
It's Charmaine, Charmaine De La Rosa,
I say is that Spanish? She says yeah i say kosher,
Whole time I'm imaginin' what it'd be like to dose her,
Train pulls up and we get on it together,
Duration of the journey get to know each other better,
We exchange numbers and agree to meet afterwards,
She blows me a kiss and with that we parted,
CHORUS
One week and £20 phone credit later,
I don't just wanna juice this girl now i wanna date her,
She's got a great personality and sense of humour,
Next time we meet it just can't come any sooner,
We arrange to go out for a drink at a bar,
She's already there when I arrive and she looks the part,
Even more stunning than I remembered, fuckin' drop dead gorgeous,
Her ass is tight and her breasts are bloody enormous!
Hand in hand we walk over to the doorman,
He's got a big shiny head he looks like George Forman,
He lets her through and asks me for I.D,
I'm like what the hell you talkin' 'bout man, I'm 19?!
I whip my driver's license out and he lets me in,
Then I trip over a step, how embarassin',
Charmaine witnesses it all but pretends not to see,
I feel like a fool, she just thinks it's sweet...
CHORUS
The night goes a lot smoother than planned,
Apart from the little hiccup at the start it's all gone grand,
Whenever guys try and chirp she shows 'em the hand,
Turns down every dance sayin' I'm her man,
We get a cab back to my place where we get it on,
I take off my shirt she strips right down to the thong,
I marvel at her body, feluptuous curves,
She's a real woman no doubt about it, her,
Confidence is sky high, she's the one that's got,
Me on my back she's sayin' baby this is your night,
I'm like alright, it's worth a go i s'pose,
So we switch rows and she takes full control,
She starts slow, grindin' me softly,
Whilst kissin' yeah she's doin' me properly,
Just when I start thinkin' man this girl's gotta be,
From outta this world or somethin' 'cause she's shockin' me,
Never felt like this before, this was more than sex,
Sex was somethin' that you had with skets,
Somethin' the next day you'd regret,
With a girl you wish you'd never met,
Nuh-uh, no way man, this had to be love,
I couldn't believe I was sayin' it but that's what it was,
Like a leaf in the Autumn, I had fallen,
After that nothin' else seemed important,
CHORUS
So now it's time to hear my predicament, my catch 22,
I love this girl but now I have to cut her loose,
I was talkin' to one of my boys the very next day,
And I told him all about me and Charmaine,
He looks at me in a very strange way,
And asks me if De La Rosa is her surname,
If she's mixed race and her eyes are green,
I say yeah he replies blud, that girl's 14...
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