This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Thinking of something blue
Much like the rain that washed away my final memory of you
And we are gathered here today in celebration of impending fate
Let the jury have their way
As callused knuckles cross my face
The stars are out
Scattered dimples in a cloudless sky
And I remember all the flashing lights and how they lit your lifeless eyes
Now the harbors sounding out
And I am calling out but please don't push me in
But please don't push me in
Dear friends
I am writing this in my defense
I never meant for this to happen
Never saw the broken glass I swear
Dear friends
I am writing this in my defense
I never meant for this to happen
Zip ties and fiber choking me
These ropes biting at my feet
Eyes wandering
And I'm wondering is this really happening to me?
Blood between my teeth
Flows from my mouth to my best jeans
On three release
I'm twenty feet and sinking fast
And I won't hold my breath
Let the water fill my lungs
And I will travel to my death
Tell my brothers that I am happy
Tell my mother I won't be visiting
As I lay my head to rest
At the bottom of the sea
Dear friends
I am writing this in my defense
I never meant for this to happen
Never saw the broken glass I swear
[x2]
Much like the rain that washed away my final memory of you
And we are gathered here today in celebration of impending fate
Let the jury have their way
As callused knuckles cross my face
The stars are out
Scattered dimples in a cloudless sky
And I remember all the flashing lights and how they lit your lifeless eyes
Now the harbors sounding out
And I am calling out but please don't push me in
But please don't push me in
Dear friends
I am writing this in my defense
I never meant for this to happen
Never saw the broken glass I swear
Dear friends
I am writing this in my defense
I never meant for this to happen
Zip ties and fiber choking me
These ropes biting at my feet
Eyes wandering
And I'm wondering is this really happening to me?
Blood between my teeth
Flows from my mouth to my best jeans
On three release
I'm twenty feet and sinking fast
And I won't hold my breath
Let the water fill my lungs
And I will travel to my death
Tell my brothers that I am happy
Tell my mother I won't be visiting
As I lay my head to rest
At the bottom of the sea
Dear friends
I am writing this in my defense
I never meant for this to happen
Never saw the broken glass I swear
[x2]
Lyrics submitted by your-my-starr, edited by LimeNinja
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